Updates for 2025 - New Insights and Discoveries

 2025 has been another year of learning. So much growth this year. I have made some very profound discoveries. 

In brief, the human form is like an electrical vessel with a field, a very energetic field all around it that can be manipulated. The field can be working optimally or with chaotic output input. 

Your work is to repair and rebuild this field.

This year that is what I have been doing. Food, supplements self care are essential. It is more than just what you put in your body. I can't condense all this information in this one post.

I'll give an example of what I learned. We attract and repel people (other energies) based on the state of our field. 

I have looked more in depth into neurotransmitters, have learned so much I can read people after getting to know them a little. Traits, habits everything helps with the analysis. 

Often times we may attract characters that seem to be in conflict with our field - undesirable, bad unwanted players in this game of life. Sometimes these characters are undesirable  but somehow we invite them through our field. Just the meeting of one person can have a ripple effect. 

I had met one such person, following their traits, habits etc. Now she wasn't bad or undesirable, in fact we got along quite well but there some things that felt like I can do without. 

She was a chronic smoker, a sharp intelligent woman whom I shared apartment with. Now this was a temporary arrangement but at some point the idea came to my mind and I am not sure how but I determined that if I could match the levels of the neurotransmitter she was stimulating it would,  by my theory I had cooked up, repel her. So I experimented, lo and behold she had to leave after this and could not remain in the apartment. 

I continued these experiments and still to this day carry on learning and growing. 

When a person comes into your space whether desirable or not its because you bring some element to the field based on where you are and the growth you must do. They say like attracts like but actually two opposing forces attract just like a magnet. 

In my situation I increased Acetylcholine levels to either match or surpass the levels of the woman in my space. The effect was instant. Now I don't go around matching my levels to that of those around me but I certainly do use it as a cue. I follow a map as a guide, when to increase which biochemistry in my body. And it's not just neurotransmitters, I also manipulate levels of hormones and other chemicals and processes in the body.

The biological system of the human form is essential to any spiritual development. By manipulating this bodily system effectively we can awaken all our special abilities that right now remain dormant. 

Working to renew rebuild the field also helps attract positive experiences. 

It has been an interesting year of experiments and I have so much to share. 

Using the Moon Phase as a Map

In the upcoming posts I'll be sharing as much as I can about biohacking with the various lunar cycles or moon phases. This is the process I am using at the moment. 

There are 4 check points in the lunar cycle, New Moon, First Quarter, Full Moon and Third Quarter Moon. In between these are other points such as Gibbous waning etc but these are the main. So for the time being I will focus on these checkpoints. 

I am drafting all this atm to put in a book which will be published soon but for the time being sharing brief information on this blog in order to share my journey so far. 

Within each of these checkpoints the brain is using a predominant neurotransmitter. 

New Moon to First Quarter Moon

The focus is on increasing Acetylcholine. This is a very powerful neurotransmitter and it's important not to overdo it as with any of the other neurotransmitters but this one specifically can fry your brain. But when done cautiously and producing just the right amount it produces the most amazing results. With peak levels my brain has worked super sharp, dreams are also a lot more vivid. The levels should rise gradually and a peak should be experienced on the First Quarter Moon. Acetylcholine in my view is like the alpha of the neurotransmitters, the beginning starting point, without it we can't produce two other vital neurotransmitters which we will see in the next checkpoint. In this phase the focus is on setting intentions and goals. Dreams can be vivid as acetylcholine increases REM sleep. 

First Quarter Moon to Full Moon

Once there is peak level of Acetylcholine on the First Quarter Moon it should help jumpstart the next main neurotransmitter of focus. That would be serotonin, the "happy molecule". There should be surges of creativity and joyful feelings. Emotions get really charged by full moon. Another neurotransmitter that works alongside this one is dopamine, the chemical for reward and motivation. Both are implicated in mood disorders and depression. There is also likely to be some gender based differences, maybe men need more dopamine than serotonin - something I am still working on understanding. Positive thinking is useful at this time but if we have enough neurotransmitters this shouldn't need to be practiced, it should happen naturally. There should be a gravitation towards positive thoughts, optimism and a heightened sense of gratitude. Practice is still helpful especially if needed, as most people have been programmed to think negatively and also when the body is out of balance due to toxins etc.

Full Moon to Third Quarter Moon 

By Full Moon dopamine should be peaking. Subsequently this is followed by neurotransmitters synthesised from dopamine - norepinephrine and epinephrine. We need them in smaller amounts and for shorter time. Norepinephrine is needed to help produce melatonin, so if we have produced adequate serotonin in previous checkpoint then melatonin production should be a breeze. Stay away from artificial light and sleep in the dark to help the melatonin production. Followed by this there is a surge of gamma amino butyric acid (GABA). GABA is an inhibitory neurotransmitter with calming relaxing effects. It helps with deep restful sleep and surges are seen during the night sleeping hours. This is where deep dreaming takes place and we experience NREM sleep. As we move towards the Third Quarter Moon some enzymes that help break down neurotransmitters such as Mono amine oxidase (MAO) and others that breakdown histamine are also present. These are essential for the detoxification process and a necessary component to manage the levels of neurotransmitters. 

Spiritually we can take the time to review our goals and how we have manifested during this cycle, those deep dreaming can reveal what we need to know at this time. 

Third Quarter Moon to New Moon

This is the detoxification phase. This phase is vital and the focus is on elimination of toxins. The best way to eliminate toxins is a healthy balanced diet and eating lots of fibre especially during this phase. Don't let waste in your body stagnate. Probiotics can be helpful as most people may have destroyed their gut through heavy pesticide food. 

Spiritually we can use this time for deeper introspection. As questions before falling asleep and all is revealed through dreams. Review the entire lunar cycle. 

This is just a very basic map. There's so much more to it such as hormones during each phase, various hormones work alongside the different neurotransmitters. I've also left out other neurotransmitters. 

In my view I believe women are meant to synchronize their menstrual cycle with the moon phase. My menstrual cycle did synchronize at one point but something changed and I'm just working that out - the most important thing for women to focus on is having a healthy normal menstrual cycle. The checkpoints may be different for men and women. 

I think using the map is easier for women as more scientific research is available and studies about female hormones and the menstrual cycle. I think generally though the moon map paints a pretty decent picture of the predominant neurotransmitters for men and women. For children it is much different as their developing brains are dependent on GABA levels more than the other neurotransmitters.

The changing seasons play a major role in neurotransmitter levels which means geolocation will greatly impact the requirements of neurotransmitters with spring and summer as a period of increase of the excitatory neurotransmitters. Autumn and winter we see more of the inhibitory neurotransmitters with sleep becoming deeper and more restful. 

I have been doing this research in the past few years, deepening my level of understanding and even using myself as a guinea pig. It has not been easy but an interesting journey. I have had a bumpy ride along the way, nothing is ever smooth sailing but I've learned a lot through my mistakes. In the upcoming posts I will be sharing some basic formulations for increasing these neurotransmitters such as various supplements and practices. 

What I've discovered from doing all this is that it really has heightened my level of intuition and energy. I want to go much deeper though as I feel I have only touched the surface. I have been able to increase psychedelic types of experiences but very briefly. I have also increased basic levels of awareness and mental states, such as deep restful sleep (and unfortunately even messed it up), motivation, creativity, focus, mental math, photographic memory to name a few. 

Starting 2022 with a lot of love

 Just as I approached 2022 I had the chance to experiment with some MJ. This very potent natural herb from mother nature connects with the Endocannabinoid system.

I had I think 2 or 3 opportunities to experiment. What I discovered is a symbiosis when you partake in this herb with others, kind of like the rastas when they sit and pass the pipe and connect to Jah together. 

On one occasion having taken a hit whilst outdoors and then back indoors entering that other state around family. 

My nieces were over for the holidays. I stood beside the door mostly concerned with my eldest sister who was very quiet - for her it does wonders on the arthritis and mellows her mood. I observed my nieces playing talking mucking about. I came upon the realisation that the state I was in, children are already naturally in that state. You can say their Endocannabinoid system is naturally operating as it should- for some reasons us adults have an impaired Endocannabinoid system that we need some plant medicine to get us hooked up again.

The other occasion was similar- just found myself very connected to that other state except I was around family. I even watched a movie (Spy) and everything about it was intense. Me and my sister would laugh in unison with a very similar laughter. Of course I have to take care of my lungs so I did not take it that often. My blood sugar was dropping that pasta with cheese just didn't cut it. I needed to throw in some jam for a bit of flavour. People get the munchies because blood sugar levels drop. 

Something that did become a habit was me incessantly chewing gum.

I had no idea how bad it was until my family would express their disgust. I can't blame them, my chewing was bad. I became so hooked I needed 2 or 3 pieces of gum at the same time. 

So that's pretty much how I rolled into the New year. I also started off having relationship issues with my boyfriend but I stayed calm and patient and I told him that I am working on some New Years resolutions. 

I told my twin flame whom I sometimes communicate with that I'm working on a biohack that helps you fall in love. You can fall in love without being in a relationship and I especially wanted to figure it out for him as he is in a loveless marriage. Most people unfortunately are in loveless companionships these days and that's such a tragedy. Really, it does break my heart.

All of a sudden a new guy comes into my life. Like a gust of wind. I ignored the calls and texts as I am super paranoid when I get calls from unknown numbers. Suddenly he would call me more than my current boyfriend at the time. He made me realise my own suspicions; that the relationship I was in was doomed. After a lot of soul searching I ended relationship with boyfriend. 

I told my twin flame about it and I shared the name of the substance that I was going to try; phenylthalamine (PEA). This is released when people fall in love. The key is to try with MAO inhibitor such as hordenine.

Meanwhile I was still speaking with new guy. 

To cut a long story short I fell in love with the new guy. The funny thing is I had yet to try my new substance. He certainly had qualities that I never really thought about. He was a very simple humble guy. He was certainly not my type. It just happened so suddenly but some time after getting to know him. I tried to rationalise my feelings by telling myself it was the chewing gum.

 The chewing gum has aspartame which is a source of phenylalanine which converts to PEA, the very substance that is released when people fall in love - the one I've been meaning to get hold of and experiment with. Such is my life, so serendipitous.

At one point there was so much love overfilling my heart that I begged God for his mercy. It reminded me of a euphoric experience when I did a liver flush. But just as quickly as this guy randomly found me he departed. 

I'm not sure if I can call it romantic love, or the possesive obsessed kind because there was none of that. And I know what it's like to be infatuated, I think it happened once when I binged on chocolate which also releases PEA except it made me feel lovesick over a guy at the queue in a supermarket who didn't even so much as look at me.

It was an eye opener and it made me realise that I wasn't in love with my ex boyfriend whom I even considered marriage with. And I learned the most important lesson of my life, never marry unless you're in love. Sounds like common sense but people have no idea in seeking relationship just how much of it is dictated by fear. Love is fearless. And I believe this love is in our heart ready and waiting to be tapped into and sometimes you meet someone and they can trigger it.

The PEA is something I will still experiment with. However it isn't something to take all the time and can be dangerous with side effects. 

I'm thinking to use just before full moon as I think that neurotransmitter release are based on the moon's position. Different neurotransmitters are dominant in different phases. 

Pregnenolone and progesterone dreams

Lately I have been occupied with fixing my hormones which unfortunately has been out of whack for a few months now (menstrual migraines etc).

These two particular hormones are helping to recall dreams. I have read somewhere that even men can benefit from adding progesterone but not entirely sure about this.

Progesterone is causing a heightened sense of smell and I'm aware the same happens to women in their pregnancy which is because of the increase in progesterone.

My menstrual migraines have been so bad I end up sleeping a whole day at a time when it occurs, sometimes accompanied by nausea. I have even had out of body experiences during these bouts of sleep.

Recently dreamed about rats and in another dream I dreamed about spiders and mice running about. In reality I have seen two rats which was absolutely cringeworthy. Not a fan of rats. I dreamt of a white rat running about up and down the stairs whilst I am screaming. Suddenly it comes up to me and tries to bite my finger.

Other dreams are quite psychic. Dreamed about cleaning oven and nieces birthday cake, woke up completely forgetting until my sister told me she put oven on self clean mode and need to prepare for niece's birthday. Another dream about sister losing money, also came true. I really should start writing in a dream diary but is terribly time consuming.

Sleep Vs Dreams

Sleep has been a little tricky. Insomnia got really bad upon taking zinc, sticking to one a day. Now I have restarted iodine protocol and I am sleeping much better with significant improvement in sleep quality.

I am taking so many vitamins and minerals it is really hard to tell how everything is interacting with each other. For the time being may have to just stick with the iodine protocol and co factors. My dreams have changed dramatically. I am only recalling dreams with very little fragments. Recall is bad.

Dreaming isn't necessary but I miss having those fun entertaining, thriller dreams. I do not even care to have lucid dreams as long as I have those long vivid cinema worthy dreams, all is good.

Updates on New Protocols and Practices

There are certain vitamins that I haven't been taking for a long time, however I will be starting on several supplements soon. Lots of crazy dreams to be expected. Currently my dream recall is not all that great but when I put effort to recall I can remember some things, I think recall is bad mostly because as soon as I open my eyes I have so much on my mind and just need to get on with the day.

I'm mostly adding supplements and other stuff to repair the body. I will also set a routine to help me sleep better, however I have been sleeping perfectly past few days.

Some supplements such as L tryptophan will hopefully help with sleep more and I'll be taking lots of various things for boosting mood. I'll disclose these more in detail and the effect they are having on my dreams as well as on my health. I've also restarted hemi sync practice and will post updates on these.

At the same time I am going through major life changes, there are posts that I've left in draft which I do not even want to publish because of the nature of the details I disclose. Having to revisit childhood trauma etc and how I am using Salvia to help deal with it. So far, it has been a really tough year.

Ketogenic Diet Dreams

Not sure if my recent vivid dreams could be related to keto. They have some interesting story lines.
However I have only been on this diet for a week. In particular there have been changes in intake of vitamin b complex. I am dreaming quite a lot. My understanding from evaluating past dreams is vivid dreams that are unusual or disturbing are related to parasite die offs. I am hoping with keto diet that one benefit I will get is parasite elimination. Mostly want to rebalance levels of Candida and improve gut flora and bacteria. Also I had no internet and WiFi for one night but still there are neighbours who have strong range of WiFi so am still exposed. I want to experiment using aluminium foil bedding net to see if I could eliminate EMF radiation, yes I am one of those people who would happily wear a tin foil hat and I'm a millenial.

I have looked up ketogenic diet and dreams with lots of hits that this diet increases vivid dreams. Then again I have always had some kind of weird dreams prior to keto diet. Another factor could be caffeine from a mascarpone dessert I am eating which has cocoa powder added to it. I have been pretty addicted to it and eating more than I should. I read a post online that suggested it could be caffeine digesting slowly with high fat keeping parts of the brain awake and alert during dream time. Sounds like an interesting experiment is in order, fortunately this dessert will be on the menu for a while.

The ketogenic diet is a high fat, moderate protein and low carb diet.
The ketogenic diet is so far working out well for me although it has only been a week, I will be sure to note more changes in dreams as nutritional profile on this diet is clearly different to one on a diet with higher amounts of carb. My main reason why I started on this diet is that recently I have been a little concerned about having tumors, especially in the brain. More importantly we all carry cancer cells and in our lifetimes they are more likely to become exacerbated since they feed on sugar and some studies suggest that cancer thrives on a high carb diet.

Nicotine Dream Of Man Singing Tragic Love Song

This dream is very familiar, similar to the dream I had about an old man singing a narrative song. I'll share link of that dream soon (when I find it). Last night I had half a nicotine lozenge (1mg). I also managed to get a few minor scrapes around my arms and hands moving boxes about and ended up using iodine to treat these. Iodine in the past has induced vivid dreams via painting on skin and ingesting.

In this dream I am an actress performing some act and having conversations with actresses I am familiar with. The scene changes where I'm watching a woman in a short white dress on a gloomy day with rain showers, dancing and singing but can't recall the words.

Soon enough my perspective changes where I am blending into her and entering a different scene. There is a man standing in front of me introducing himself by singing. The narrative is very interesting and as he sings it to me I seem to be re-living the scenes. Through the song I visualize him in love with his black car, to him it was a beauty. He adored and admired it because it was his own work of art. I see him literally stroking his car lol. Then he tells me about his friend who had tampered with his car because of his love for me or the character I had assumed. She had been jealous for a really long time which he did not realize. I begin to picture the scene he is singing about until we are both actually there, in the car, both of us inside. Car swerves and crashes.

There was regret in his voice revealing that he wished things did not turn out that way. At the same time he was trying to convince me of something. I am jogging through my memory (dream memories?) where I recall not receiving the kind of attention I am in that present moment. He comes closer to me and begins to kiss the base of my neck, instantly I feel a strip of my body coming to life, it was illuminated. It was almost as if that entire time I was actually invisible and only beginning to form a body with the kiss. Another kiss and another strip of the body illuminating. There were romantic feelings involved and soon enough I woke up, immediately registering entire dream sequence.

The nicotine is causing some insomnia, I've been on the phone browsing before falling asleep, also I'm not using the blindfold which helped previously. For the nicotine only some nights I plan to use the patches with iodine painting.

At this point in my life I'm going through some changes but nothing major or tumultuous, keeping an eye out on my dreaming to see what they reveal.

Nicotine Patch Experiment for Dreams

I am going to use lozenges only during night time as during the day I seem to be developing a dependency.

Last night I used the nicotine patch. It's the highest dose 21mg and may not have been right for me, not sure yet as I am only using for the first phase of sleep as opposed to throughout the day. I have definitely been dreaming more. I don't think nicotine increases dreams rather it helps to store the dreams in the memory bank for a longer duration so that upon waking recall is easier. In fact my wake up is almost like a quick transition between dream and reality. Whereas prior to nicotine use this rarely happened. I would really have to think through to recall dream events.

Unfortunately the dreams are pretty boring, they represent daily ordinary life in different settings. I only once dreamed of people I don't know since using nicotine.

I used the nicotine patch and listened to opening the heart track (hemisync) which usually helps me to sleep.
The dreams after using the nicotine patch were very clear and vivid, very life like and I was around people I know. Dreamed about harvesting in garden, lots of veg especially eggplants hanging off vines (I think egg plants don't grow on vines). Interestingly eggplants contain nicotine which I already knew when doing my research into nicotine.

I woke up around 3:30am and took the patch off. The nicotine was on my arm for a total of 5 hours, I'm sure any longer and I would have thrown up. High amounts are toxic especially for someone who does not smoke. It was still dark I should have nodded off but insomnia was difficult to deal with. It was only at 6am I decided to have 1mg of nicotine and relaxed. Then some more vivid dreaming, this time I think I accessed some childhood memory or my mind was recreating a scene that I may identify as my childhood.

I am going to write up the dreams some other time which are pretty boring but may have some significance to me if I can decipher them.

For now all I can report is there is definitely a difference in the ability to recall dreams using nicotine. For me this works if I use the nicotine before bed. Patches do not make me feel as sleepy as the lozenges possibly because patches are slowly released over time and require up to 24 hours to effectively release the 21mg.

Nicotine Dreams

I haven't smoked a cigarette in so many years but had the habit as a teenager and young adult. I needed at least one a day. Eventually stopped in my 20s when it was just no longer worth the coughing that would follow.

Just recently I've been observing during hot weather people smoking heavily, it is quite odd. Out in the streets it's like being inside a chimney. The smell of smoke is not exactly pleasant and I try to not get annoyed with smokers. I can usually smell tobacco from my neighbours garden or if family use in the garden and immediately close the window because I now try to be as kind to my lungs as possible. Second hand smoking is a real annoyance especially after years of successfully quitting.

After doing some research into tobacco I have found that the nicotine in tobacco can be helpful especially for enhancing cognitive function and improving memory. I went to my local shop for some lozenges or gums to start an experiment with nicotine.

As I scanned the shelf another woman stood next to me. She began to scan the shelf and quickly grabbed more than 10 boxes. She was kind enough to heed to my request of leaving two for me. My first use of the lozenge was not at all pleasant. Immediately I felt a slight tightening in the throat, too much nicotine in one go, 2mg to be exact.

I did feel different once at least 1 mg dissolved but nothing quite like a true smoke. So the past week I have been taking about 2mg per day splitting each lozenge in two and taking each piece morning and evening.

I noticed that I prefer the effect of nicotine in the evening, really paves the way for a relaxed mind for deeper sleep. The dreams however have been anything but relaxing. They are vivid and have a lot more details or I am recalling them more accurately. Some dreams have a very prophetic insightfulness to them. They are not too bad or nightmarish and are related to current life and people. Upon waking up I clearly remember all the details however I cannot recall them during the day. Another thing that I have noticed I am able to wake early and once again return to sleep if I wanted to.

Unfortunately the lozenges contain other ingredients that I would like to avoid ingesting. Next time I'll try nicotine patches to avoid the additives and cut it up to reduce the dose to avoid nausea.

Here's two interesting article about nicotine and it's effect on dreams
https://www.vice.com/en_us/article/avn39p/nicotine-dreaming 
https://www.gwern.net/docs/nootropics/2003-page.pdf

Naturally Increasing Melatonin for Dream Activity

Sleeping with an eye mask will increase dream activity. For me I've had to use a piece of fabric for comfort and it has been working. It's interesting because I didn't intend to do this for increasing dreams, it is something that became like an urge after I found the Better Sight Without Glasses book. I am still trying to make a habit of practising the exercises found in the book. 

About melatonin

"Melatonin is a hormone made by the pineal gland , a small gland in the brain. Melatonin helps control your sleep and wake cycles. ... Melatonin supplements are sometimes used to treat jet lag or sleep problems (insomnia)."

Although I don't have problems with insomnia, covering eyes and even making the room pitch black is really making a difference with the quality of sleep as well as increasing dream activity. This is amazing and all without taking supplements. Another thing I have doing is staying away from artificial light after dark. I'm not sure if it is just this however as I have taken one other thing during past few weeks but will exclude this to see if there is a change.

I'm still getting the dreams, I think in the past few days they would have been more entertaining had my mind not been so preoccupied with other things and going through a little bit of stress.

Another new thing I am doing is staying away from aluminium exposure. Too much aluminium in the body can be stored in the brain causing memory problems which is why it is even linked to Alzheimer's. Having a good memory makes it possible for better recall of dreams. 

I probably will not take melatonin supplement as too much of it can pose a risk. For now I am happy producing it naturally.

I am reading about cases of people who have photographic memory as this is exactly what I would like to now achieve for dream recall.  I will be restarting some of the dream inducing supplements soon to see what happens in combination with this technique.

The Bay Window Beings

Having many vivid dreams lately except the following dream was beyond what I am used to, it was too real. The most important thing is how comfortable I felt in this vivid vision. I have been incredibly relaxed lately, taking some time off and free from anxiety and consistently taking the vitamin b complex with extra b6.

After waking up at 1am then back to sleep by 4 or 5am. Scene changes vivid dreaming. I'm relaxing and above me Rs bay window and ceiling is pulsing with life. Faces emerge, with black string like drawn hair. They look like cherub babies. Laughing giggling without much sound. I am so happy to be in the presence of these creatures. I feel as though I know them. They seem like friends and I do not feel threatened. At one point how they morphed was disappearing and then they emerged again.

This time gestured with left hand for them to come closer to me. Suddenly I thought what if I get scared with them so close to me. I hear little steps running close behind me and think niece who is a toddler got up from sleep. I try to open mouth but I'm paralyzed. She mumbles. I feel like she's afraid especially if she sees me in this paralyzed state though I know it's just sp. I say her name and she says yes. She sniffles. I'm really worried and move hands shortly snapping out. Awake I see that my niece is not actually in the room. I look at the curtain, black borders and cream part and it's a bay window. It was all this that morphed into that scene. I think reality is just as morphed but something makes it real to us that we think this all is the real. This experience was also unlike any lucid dreams or astral experiences, this time the experience was too vivid it almost mimicked reality.

So now that these are scenes morphing from one to another is there an original and if so what is it? Is it all just in the mind, a conjuring of images animated? If it is in the mind. Then what is the mind? Are the eyes simply a projector for images? All I know is that was a very beautiful encounter where I felt naturally happy as though these cherub-like beings raised my vibration. I wish to be in their presence again.

At times I have been taking the vitamin c powder mixed in food and other times in juice taking breaks some days. Have been consistently taking NAC.

Entering Different Vivid Dream Scenes with Complete Awareness

Woke up late night then sleep again by 5am. Dreams at first were of a sexual nature, which soon transformed into full vivid awareness of changing scenes. I remember at some point simply floating. Then spinning fast into new surroundings.

I have been extremely busy and stressed lately and have often skipped the vitamin b complex. Yesterday I took the B complex plus NAC which may have helped with this vivid awareness after some dreaming. Also I should probably note that I have had some alcohol in my system, thinking that as NAC which is a liver detoxifier, is processing alcohol in the blood maybe this detoxification process is causing dream scenes of a sexual nature and also the vividness and intensity of the dream.

I have been meaning to do the dream programming but mind is preoccupied with other things at the moment.

Dream Interpretation -Dreaming about Brothers and Short Distance to Clockworks

Today's dreams involved all of my brothers.
In one dream I'm in some kind of gallery where items are like memories of different people's realities and I am browsing the pieces, some are like frames with pictures.

Next I'm looking at a map, looks like a screen showing a large scale distance and the destination which has two layers of these large clocks sliding and colliding against each other but not breaking, instead there is a light emitting as large clock pieces meet. Very cinematic something that could be recreated using CGI. There is a crowd in awe of this.
I'm telling eldest brother how it took me short amount of time to get to this place. - What I'm taking from this dream is something happening in a short amount of time, possibly something spectacular or I am expecting something to happen just like this. Dreaming about all of my brothers could also represent the relationship I have with them and have read online that it could represent the brotherhood of humankind.

Unable to recall the other dreams about other brothers as waking up from those dreams I had to get my day started quickly.

Dream recall is getting a lot better since I'm dreaming more and being able to write them down where as for some time this had stopped. I think it's the NAC supplement that is helping. I'm also sleeping a lot better. The list of health benefits from NAC is amazing and is working out for now. I'm looking forward to adding the vitamin b6 soon.

Experience with NAC and things that halt dream recall

My recent ingestion of NAC induced a very vivid experience of what seemed like body coming apart but recall is not great at the moment. Only remember some things like the sensation of feeling light and some heightened sexual energy at play.

I am definitely dreaming a lot more, most importantly sleeping so well which has been tough. I think the main problem what effects dream recall is being very busy and having a busy lifestyle. It requires a lot of discipline and committment. You literaturely have to be focused on dream and everything dream related.

I am very keen on using dreams as psychotherapy. I am thinking of a routine to make it work. At the moment my current thoughts are asking myself what I want to dream about maybe get some feedback from dreams. I have had some amazing dreams during this past month experimenting with supplements, and some are so creative giving me ideas on work related things. In one particular dream I asked for a dream to help me acknowledge that energy which I've witnessed in my Salvia state and other herb induced and non-induced states to make itself present in dreaming state - the result was very creative ideas.

Lucid Dream and Dream Recall Supplements

I am taking a new supplement called NAC (N-ACETYL CYSTEINE). This supplement has many health benefits, including restful sleep. I'm not sure if I have sleep apnea but so far on first use of this supplement I slept pretty well. 

I'm not having any success recalling my dreams but hoping with other supplements this will change. I am looking to supplement with extra vitamin b6 as in current vitamin b complex powder I am taking there is only about 25mg of vitamin b6 which may not be sufficient.

My aim with these supplements is not only to induce vivid dreams but mostly for the health benefits. 

I am researching as much as I am able to on amino acids and other supplements that can help normalize nuerotransmitters. My main issue right now is anxiety levels and other stress related conditions.

Shadow beings behind closed eyelids after taking 5-htp

After taking some 5-htp (200mg) I had Salvia like trip, where I witnessed shadow beings. When I use the term shadow beings I'm not quiet referring to shadow beings witnessed in the room like at the edge of the bed (which I've witnessed before) or coming through the door and the shadow beings that wear hats.

These beings are literally inside my eyelids as if they are a part of it yet at the same time they appear as if outside, separate from my eyelids.

There were pineal gland sensations, a horrible headache often reported with the use of 5-htp. It's interesting that I'm having similar experience as  I had with salvia taking a supplement.

I felt something was exploding in my brain. Just relaxed and dosed off to sleep with all the movements. Their movements were inducing the sensations. I felt like this vision of seeing shadows is almost like being color blind, I could see them in different dark shades but hardly ever color.

Just recalling an old salvia experience where at first I had witnessed the shadows, then some sensations occurred in the brain and other things. After that suddenly the shadows were in full color.

Experimenting with Nootropics

Nootropics (pronunciation: /noʊ.əˈtrɒpᵻks/ noh-ə-TROP-iks)—also called smart drugs or cognitive enhancers—are drugs, supplements, or other substances that improve cognitive function, particularly executive functions, memory, creativity, or motivation, in healthy individuals.

I am experimenting more with various types of Nootropics and have been doing so for about a year now. These seem important if you want to facilitate deeper states of mind. L-theanine seems excellent to induce Alpha brain waves and so far is working for me just need to be consistent at times.

Information on Nootropics are going to fall under category Divine Nutrition.

Dreaming of killing a person - hidden dream meaning interpretation

I dreamed of being in a house with familiar people around me but none I actually recognize from reality. I have a pen knife tool and suddenly a woman I am related to warns that there's an intruder.

Someone has broken in, I take a look at him and know that he is about to attack this other woman who looks to me for protection. Bringing my pen knife out I retaliate and stab the man several times. I can't recall what happened after this because I woke up - feeling rather stressed from this nightmare.

Doing a search on dream interpretation for this I can interpret the dream meaning and how it relates to me.

Recently ended a difficult relationship, the fact that in my dream this man appeared as an intruder represents how the person actually came back into my life, metaphorically speaking. It could also be a warning of another potential intrusion.

The other woman represents a part of my subconscious mind or an aspect of my consciousness needing protection. The act of killing or murdering someone in a dream is a sign of releasing rage and resentment often against a person who has caused the anger. In my case it seems it was an act of self defense.

I've restarted the iodine and this could be what caused me to have this dream or heightened awareness of dreaming. I also dreamed of my cousins whom I have never seen for the longest time - they usually represent a type of change.

I'm using dream journaling as much as I can and see how it relates to my life. Although I do not regularly recall dreams I will try my best with the dream journaling.

Deep Astral Memory Loss

I kind of did the WBTB method last night, not intentionally just something that happens when I suffer from a bout of insomnia. Insomnia is something that hasn't happened a lot lately, in fact I have been sleeping so well hardly any interrupted sleep throughout the night.

Yesterday however I went to bed earlier and awoke just after midnight (I think it's actually having to empty bladder that has disrupted sleep in the past and one thing I'm doing is not drinking before bed).

Around 1am I had some iodine in water. About an hour later I had a concoction of vitamin b complex and vitamin b3 powders in a glass of water. To this I added some inositol and l-theanine. The niacin flushing kicked in around 20 minutes later when I began itching like a lunatic. I've read that the itchiness is due to blood vessels opening and because of this toxins and other things are carrying around more effectively causing a flushing.

Despite taking this concoction I was not able to go back to sleep mostly because I had a lot on my mind and as soon as I felt I was forcing myself to sleep decided to force myself to stay awake which strangely had the opposite effect of making my eyes droopy - so now I know how to trick myself to go back to sleep; by forcing myself to stay awake.

I suppose other insomniac sufferers can give this a try, stare at the ceiling and say "Do not fall asleep, keep your eyes open". Repeat this over and over again even when you feel like your eyes are closing, soon enough you won't be able to keep them open and give in to sweet sleep. In my case I entered a really deep state of mind. I definitely recall the floating up and other things started to take place which I have now completely forgotten. I also remember I kept telling myself that I will remember what is happening, almost embedding the memory so that it is unforgettable. However I can't recall it, maybe I should have told myself to forget the experience for a positive reverse effect. Or I need something that helps dream recall.

I haven't taken iodine for a long time, only reason I took it last night is because I know there's a virus going around, possibly the dreaded norovirus / stomach bug. I have been trying to consistently take this type of concoction but think that I will reserve it for these types of nights where sleep is a little difficult.