The Colorful Toy World

Recent OBE took place on the 18th October 2023. 

Most of the OBEs I have are spontaneous, no conscious effort on my part. Maybe just meditation when awakened from sleep which is basically WBTB technique.  

I exited the body more than once until I was able to sustain awareness. A few times I met my mum, moments that I am still recalling. 

In another trip I emerged in a world with large coloured almost plastic yet claylike structures. There was a deep feeling of familiarity and I remember thinking 'I've been here before'.

I'm going to attempt OBEs and deep dreaming in the coming months as we approach winter. I think this is the best time for these experiences. At the same time I'll be experimenting with deeper sleep states and healing.

Astral tripping inside other bodies, bedroom scenes awakenings.

Last night I practiced the third eye meditation this time pointing finger right into the middle between eyebrows, once eyes were locked in closed eyes and then focused. Fell asleep until 1am and had some of the vitamin b concoction which now sometimes includes nac and around 3am I went to wash the dishes. Then back in bed after 4am, I relaxed and tried to sleep. Suddenly moving upwards this time felt more ready. It's dark still feels like night time in this other house with floral maroon wall paper. Keep thinking I'm at my sisters place and I know only my brother in law would be at home. I couldn't help but think I was there because something is wrong here, maybe BIL is having some kind of emergency. There's a lot of spinning motion as I emerge in each new surrounding. The theme seems to be night time. Soon enough I am aware of my sense of awareness/consciousness being inside different bodies and awareness waking in each of these bodies.

Deep Astral Memory Loss

I kind of did the WBTB method last night, not intentionally just something that happens when I suffer from a bout of insomnia. Insomnia is something that hasn't happened a lot lately, in fact I have been sleeping so well hardly any interrupted sleep throughout the night.

Yesterday however I went to bed earlier and awoke just after midnight (I think it's actually having to empty bladder that has disrupted sleep in the past and one thing I'm doing is not drinking before bed).

Around 1am I had some iodine in water. About an hour later I had a concoction of vitamin b complex and vitamin b3 powders in a glass of water. To this I added some inositol and l-theanine. The niacin flushing kicked in around 20 minutes later when I began itching like a lunatic. I've read that the itchiness is due to blood vessels opening and because of this toxins and other things are carrying around more effectively causing a flushing.

Despite taking this concoction I was not able to go back to sleep mostly because I had a lot on my mind and as soon as I felt I was forcing myself to sleep decided to force myself to stay awake which strangely had the opposite effect of making my eyes droopy - so now I know how to trick myself to go back to sleep; by forcing myself to stay awake.

I suppose other insomniac sufferers can give this a try, stare at the ceiling and say "Do not fall asleep, keep your eyes open". Repeat this over and over again even when you feel like your eyes are closing, soon enough you won't be able to keep them open and give in to sweet sleep. In my case I entered a really deep state of mind. I definitely recall the floating up and other things started to take place which I have now completely forgotten. I also remember I kept telling myself that I will remember what is happening, almost embedding the memory so that it is unforgettable. However I can't recall it, maybe I should have told myself to forget the experience for a positive reverse effect. Or I need something that helps dream recall.

I haven't taken iodine for a long time, only reason I took it last night is because I know there's a virus going around, possibly the dreaded norovirus / stomach bug. I have been trying to consistently take this type of concoction but think that I will reserve it for these types of nights where sleep is a little difficult.

Vivid Dreams and Intense Sounds

Past few days I have been having very vivid dreams and able to recall to some extent - I haven't bothered writing them down but they are related to life stuff. This morning just before I woke up there were sounds of someone banging the window or door and I sensed it was from outside the garden. This sort of stuff happened a lot about 2 years ago and during the kundalini process slowly they started to wear off. I don't think it has anything to do with the sleep direction as back then I slept head pointing north east. This is my take on what this could be: I think just before I woke up in the physical body, consciousness was hanging about somewhere external where the sounds were taking place and coming back rapidly into the body and the ears were registering the sounds. The sound was quite intense almost like it was taking with me as part of the incident. I felt last night I slept in good conditions, in a peaceful state of mind uplifted by good vibrational thoughts on things that are going well for me. Also I requested the body to awaken at a specific time so that I may practice AP. I woke up around 5:30am, was hoping it would be around 4am.

Pointing South

Last night I went back to sleeping in the south direction and remembered that initially when I began exploring astral projections and altered states of awareness I slept southwards. I slept a bit too late so could not wake early enough to attempt AP.

In general regardless of shifting body direction I am recalling dreams. The dreams are related to life stuff. I want to explore sleeping southwards for a while and see what it does for astral projection.

Getting a bed-lift

I have been thinking about changing my bed about so that it is pointing either north or south will experiment with both directions. At the moment it is pointing north east and sometimes I sleep on the opposite side facing south west.

I do recall once when I was sleeping so that my head was pointing north I had many third eye related visions and imagery.Another thing that I need to get changing is the gradient of the bed - need to position it so that blood flows downhill to the brain.

Had an interesting dream this morning which was related to my bed, a therapist was at my bedside giving me tips on adjusting my bed so that I'm sleeping more comfortably.

Hopefully the end result of all these changes will be more rested sleep, a charged brain and lots of astral projecting.

Need to Affirm Astral Intentions

Last night attempted AP. Relaxed and head started to rotate by the invisible energy. I observed and let it take over, somehow entered deep sleep. Later woke up around 11pm. Very alert at that time. Went online for a bit lazily in bed then tried to relax. Unfortunately no projection, barely even a dream. I think the issue is I'm not affirming my intentions. Need to be clear about this.

Mugwort Refreshing Sleep

Drank mugwort tea last night before bed. Previously this tea made me so groggy in the morning and then when I stopped the grogginess eventually wore off - still there may be other unrelated factors. Needing more sleep.

This morning I woke up feeling refreshed but still wanting to get a bit more sleep - recall having several vivid dreams but was hoping for AP and put intention through last night for this. Did not wake up at all during sleep until this morning so no conscious AP.

Uninterrupted Sleep and Health Crisis

Past two nights have not had the chance to AP at usual time since I haven't been waking up - I've been sleeping without any interruptions. Also observing the whole otherly presence and flutterings of visuals is calming down now. I should start setting forth intention to awake in middle of sleep before sleeping.

Once in a while I have been napping during day time and there have been some very harsh movements. During one incident as I relaxed aware of the entire sleep stage I felt the physical body growing heavy and then suddenly my left hand which I relaxed on the right side rib cage area grabbed tightly squeezing as though to crush bones. As soon as I jumped up it stopped.

Don't know if I mentioned this but in previous Salvia trips I recall a feeling that someone else had occupied this body - felt as though someone has joined me but observing for most part and has access to the control centre (brain). I feel that it waits until I'm mentally and physically relaxed or asleep.

I should also mention here that I am going through some kind of health crisis - although it is not much of a big deal and nothing life threatening. It has a lot to do with the cyst that has formed near collar bone. I am doing so many tests and so far everything fortunately is coming out negative. The last thing I wanted to mention to my doctor is that a salvia entity accidently caused it whilst we were journeying. Initially I hadn't intended to go see the doctor regarding this - thought I'd just let nature take its course and deal with it myself. Things got pretty bad and sore I had no choice. I did start to get a little curious and wanted to know what the doctors say it is but it seems they are at a loss - they can't decide that it is something benign and want to explore other possibilities despite the fact that I'm fit and healthy.

Another doctor had a look at it and as well meaning as he may be I feel he will never be satisfied until he finds a disease and so I felt pressured to do more tests - now waiting for more results plus there's a possibility of another surgery which is minor but very painful. I think Salvia is very detoxing, add oil pulling and urine therapy to that and there's a great chance of major cleansing. I have been adapting gradually to a healthier diet and I think this health crisis is a good thing - a sign that certain 'energy patterns' are being secreted - the body has it's own natural intelligent operation. It is amazing really how the body functions, how each organ is connected to other organs and provide intricate systematic support and I wonder if what Salvia revealed to me is indeed true - that the physical body is made up of other beings, so many different beings each creating a unit called organs according to a blueprint. Not only is the physical body created in this way but houses, ordinary object, animate or inanimate even the sky is just a camaflouge of these entities or beings.

Projection Intentions

I have been waking up twice each night for several days now - the best time for me to AP. Unfortunately I can't seem to stay up long enough. Each time waking up I can feel something took place since the others presence tends to have a sort of shimmering effect - it is like a clear connection is trying to be established. The wave energy is amplifying and at times feels like a full body sexual experience. At the same time because of this APs have changed - in what ways I'm not sure but I feel it has made me more susceptible to something - good or bad I can't really say at this stage.

I have had difficulty to focus on APs due to certain issues I am having to deal with. I think this AP needs a great amount of focus meaning I need to keep thinking about it and at least put forth intention - need to empty mind so that the contents of whatever issues are present does not completely take over.

I feel there is still so much to learn through APing and perhaps more to discover. I don't plan to have any specific goals as usual just go where I'm naturally directed of course this could change at any time.

Wake Dozing

Intentions are working with great precision. Yesterday I voiced my intention to wake up around 4am - previously when sleep was distracted I naturally woke up around these times but then suddenly for quite a long time it stopped and I would sleep throughout night without interruption.

I said out loud 'Want to wake up at 4am'. Fell asleep some time after 10pm. Woke up at 1am - too early and asked to be awakened at 4am. Interestingly in the dream which I can't clearly recall there was a motion of rocking, when awakened my physical body was rocking - concerned that I was acting out dreams but I know they were up to something. Maybe I should've just practiced at 1am.

Awoke again at 4am - glad internal alarm clock was working - I get this feeling that it is body consciousness absorbing information and does as requested. However, within 5 minutes I dozed off. I wasn't all that groggy when I woke up so did not expect to fall asleep.

The next step is staying awake and the ways in which I can do that is by drinking water before going to bed or during wake time get out of bed within 5 minutes. Though I'm sleeping a lot earlier I'm needing more sleep.

No AP Methods

I will not be using any techniques or methods for projecting other than just intending and relaxing. Relaxation is really the key to it which is exactly why early mornings the best time projecting - if I'm not too groggy I'm relaxed.

I will not be setting goals to go to specific areas, will let it occur on auto for a while until the goal setting seems necessary.

To be honest I don't know why I want to project, it's not exactly as exciting as it once was. I think what I really want is a complete understanding of reality and perhaps there's something more in APing that I have yet to discover.

Want to be committed to this AP practicing so I'm thinking I could set up 2 or 3 hours a day of practice. Want to try it out once early morning after 4am and some time in the afternoon.

Early morning after 4am
These times are peaceful and so that I wake up early, which isn't difficult as when I set intention dreams wake me up, I really need to sleep early in order to not end up groggy and falling asleep.

Afternoon after 4pm
These times vary - I can't predict when it will be noisy and quiet although in all likelihood it's gonna be noisy. Neighbours renovating their property and they do usually finish around 4 or 5 pm - for me practice at 4pm is best. I think attempting in noisy environment could be helpful - this will strengthen ability to relax and project in any situations.

Astral Projection - Signs of Progress

Woke 5am - dozed off - woke again around 6am - too alert and too much energy - by 6:45am closed eyes drift off.

Suddenly in moving vehicle looking outside - looks local. Don't remember getting on bus. No body awareness - consciousness near or housed on bus looking out.

Things get very clear and the more awake I'm there the more scene dims out. Scene blacks out and I'm back in bed.

Slip in again - flung upwards in the sky. Near a tall dense building - at the top on forehead of building there is the word 'Just' - may be incomplete. Dim again and slip back in once more.

Now I am in water somewhere near a creek. Water flowing, pulsing and waving. Wonder if I think of seeing something would it appear - try it out but nothing. Back in bed.

This is a good start.

Astral Intentions Dream Alarm

I have put the intention through and trying to sleep earlier - did so the other day but yesterday retired late.

So far past two days sleep has been interrupted and I know it has to do with latest intention to AP - sort of like an internal alarm set up.

The other day woke up from a dream where I was near several rail tracks intertwined with a baby in my arms. I'm panicking because I could hear train in the distance and do not know which way to turn. Woke up but could not relax. Need to relax more - I feel my energy level has been too high which actually is a good thing especially helping out with several projects. I did slip into sleep dreamed lightly but woke up feeling aroused.

This morning dreamt about seeing my ex's uncle who was behaving unlike himself - cheerful, singing and playing with a baby in his arms. I am startled by the transformation in him and told him how he has changed. Go downstairs and through one open door seated around a table I spot my ex and quickly walk away before he sees me. An unfamiliar woman and girl walk up to me telling me about a note they've found - on the note 'I love you' is written 17 times (number possibly significant?). They tell me to open the folded part and inside I see my name written. I get very aware at this point but wake up too much until I'm back in bed. It was 5ish am - the perfect time to project. In the dark I could see the energy waving or pulsing. Needed to stay awake for at least 30 minutes but couldn't eyes just slipped close - open eyes and it's 6:15am - incredibly sexual arousal. Could not relax after this.

In order to project I need to sleep extra early, but I have been so busy lately that somehow I end up going to bed after midnight.

Hopefully by Saturday I'm sleeping earlier - my aim is to wake up by 4am maybe doing some physical activity if I am too awake by this time and then relaxing by 5am. Need to really get started on the handstands - there is some significance to this. Need to give more time to the kriyas as well as learning to let go to the movements.

Astral Projection

After a few journeying with Salvia, I'm understanding a little clearer what astral projecting is just not sure how to explain it or whether I've really understood it. So exploring with AP - need to sleep earlier - wake up earlier and project.

Chakra Work Reflections

I have wondered why it seems I have lost the ability to AP, at least the one's that use to happen without much effort never occur. I never get my previous astral exit signs (spinning, vibration, high pitch sound etc).

I thought maybe my desire to AP has diminished which could explain why I rarely have these experiences.

In terms of chakra and in relation to the Kundalini awakening what is occuring now is lower chakra work - one sign of this is my recent obsession with health and things very much earthly.
As a result of this all my energy is being channeled in these areas and the other areas such as AP etc which are related to upper chakras are working in a very different way now. I think the upper area is working deeply on expanding intuition which since this year has been going through a lot of fine tuning.

AP Intention Failure

I did try to AP - however I'm just so occupied with so much crap. I just can't seem to relax at all. Neither mentally nor physically.

I've been listening to a lot of advice from Chrism about Kundalini and that is about the only thing calming me right now - I want to start practicing some of what he suggests. I have tried to stick to the safeties before but always found myself forgeting about it, mostly coz of so much other nonsense going on in my life.

Things are clearer and I know where the disruption is but... I feel so utterly and miserably alone in my current circumstances. I wonder nearly all the time that no matter what I do - what is the point? with the few exceptions where I try to hang on to this existence by finding a distraction.

I'm so jumbled up right now I can barely articulate how I really feel.

Intentions For AP

Past few days I have been waking up at the perfect time to attempt AP just after 4 am. I have felt like I could stay awake as there is an alertness but for some reason I would somehow end up just falling asleep without giving a single thought to APing - it doesn't even cross my mind.

I don't exactly go back to sleep, it's more like I just black out. At the same time my dreams are more vivid and some progress in recalling them.

Going to bed now and should I wake up my intention is to AP - I will be using the method of pulling energy to third eye region. Now the trick is to keep reminding myself that my intention is to AP before I black out.

Reason For Lack of APs

I don't have much to report in the astral department which may be because I have not had any unbroken sleep and in the mornings that I do wake earlier than usual I can't stay up for longer than 30 minutes which is strange coz I wake up extremely alert as if it would be impossible to go back to sleep. Also add to that the fact that I'm not recalling dreams as often and clearly as I used to.

With that said I do have the desire to AP and try other metaphysical things - I want to explore as much as I can.

Staying Awake & Memory

With more practice I've noticed that inducing astral projections are fairly easy - remembering the details of the experience is the hard part especially a long projection.

For the past two weeks I've been waking up between 3 and 5am almost every day meaning there were that many opportunities to AP. However, staying awake has been difficult - I have been feeling incredibly groggy during these times and unable to stay awake.

My aim for next week when I do wake up during these times is to walk about for a bit to keep me awake. I also intend on listening to 'Develop A Powerful Memory' hypnosis before my AP attempts in order to help remember the experiences with more clarity.