Hello 2024 - biohacks, astro knowledge, third eye opening and more

So I started this New Year with a bit of a bump on the road. There was an incident. A virus escaped. A lot of people died. The trouble was, they didn't stay dead. Okay just kidding guys lol. The flu wasn't that bad but almost did wipe me out. Doing a lot better now, trying to be good and kind to my body, eating as healthy as I can.

I put my biohacks on pause from winter period simply because just wanted to have a break from pill popping and tried my utmost best on incorporating more healing foods. 

This year my intention is to adapt to a diet that is about 90% healthy as right now it's in the range of 60-70%. I think the focus should not be simply on foods but how a person eats too. Taking into consideration times to eat, what to eat and how to eat. Example chop food up and chew until it turns into a smoothie in your mouth. 

I think there should also be an emphasis on various healing practices like yoga, pranayama breathing techniques etc. So I'll be doing more of this.

I'm going to be using hemisync too. I always seem lose track when doing the program. Need to find ways to make sure I utilize these practices. It's difficult when you have so little time. 

My dreams past two days are on another level, feel like I am waking up in other peoples lives or different realities, too real to not be real. Often I wake up sensing the importance of the dream.

Example of a dream: There is an incident everyone was running looking up at the sky announcing that the sun is going to fall, later some mythical elephant and shark like creatures are frozen in ice. It would seem many eons later those same creatures were defrosting and coming back to life. The elephant was pulled up by some invisible force, not much recall after that but I woke up feeling like this acutally happened in some past existence. It's the feelings that come with the dreams that are more profound than the events.

Another dream which occured in this mornings second sleep phase was incredibly vivid. I was surrounded by a group of ethiopian women standing. I was lying down on a bed. I try to convince them of their special abilities with a focus on their third eyes. I tell them that the artwork based on them depicting big eye on middle of forehead is no creative endeavour, it is literally telling them about their powers. However it doesn't work and they slowly creep up closer to me, I close my eyes knowing there's not more I can do and then feel the sensation of the knife against left side of my head. 

These do not feel like ordinary dreams, or maybe they are and because of the lucidity and vivid experience it feels almost the same as reality. Some days I cannot recall anything but will be keeping tranck. 

Whilst I had the flu I slept around 20 hours yet barely had any dream recall. The sleep at this time was definitely healing. 

I'll try to keep this blog updated.

Hemi-sync with relaxing supplements

I'll be using hemi-sync with supplements that have relaxing effects such as magnesium (the mag calm since to work pretty well) and l-theanine. There are more supps for now these are the ones I will try.

I haven't used hemi-sync in a long time. Have been so busy I am going to journal all my sessions to get ideas of what works and helps with sessions in terms of relaxation and reaching new levels.

Just a general update, this is a time of major releasing and I am working through a lot. Have so much clearing to do and main reason why I want to start the hemi-sync practice again.

Changes with Hemi Sync and Emotional Releasing

Yesterday evening after a quick workout I drank about 2 or 3 drops iodine in water and then went to bed. Before listening to hemi sync sleep exploration track I did some major emotional releasing and had that feeling where I just wished a whole lot of good for the entire mankind.

During the sleep exploration track I decided to do the resonant tuning a bit more louder and deeper than usual. Suddenly I heard a strange sound that has never been heard before in the audio just shortly after the RT. I think this change in audio with hemi sync is something that is mentioned in instructions, will need to check this.

My left index finger raised up followed by right finger which is something that has happened in the past.

My breathing stopped but I felt inside I was pumped like a helium balloon. Then a sudden release of this hold of breath - I felt like beings or perhaps energies were being released. I then began to see the movements around closed eyelids as though beings were peering down much like how I encounter beings when taking Salvia. I continued to relax and just let everything take place without reacting. There was a strange feeling that came with this incident.

At some point there was a large bee flying around but I can't recall if it was in one of the dreams.

When I awakened from sleep around 4ish am there was some dreams I couldn't quite recall. I relaxed again and fell asleep easier. At some point in the dark I was still very much awake. I heard the voice of my sister who is actually not in, then the door knock and then heard a few family members staying over talking amongst each other. It felt like I was very much awake in this reality, not at all dream like yet those sounds and things did not actually physically take place.

It felt like some bits of memories were being used to create this particular scene.

When I see any kind of creatures in dreams or visions or even generally I like to look up animal totem meanings.

Here is what is said about the Bee: link

Fertility and the Honey of Life, Accomplishing the Impossible

Bees are the symbol of fertility and sexuality. Its honeycomb, a hexagon, is the symbol of the heart and represents the sweetness of life found within our own heart. It is also the symbol of the sun and all its energies.    The bee reminds us to extract the honey of life and to make our lives fertile (productive) while the sun shines. No matter how great the dream is, there is the promise of fulfillment if we pursue our dreams.    If a Bee has shown up in your life, examine your own productivity.  Are you doing all you can to make your life more fertile? Are you busy enough? Are you making time to savor the honey of life and not becoming a workaholic?    The Bee is the symbol of accomplishing the impossible. Aerodynamically, its body is too large for its wings and should not be able to fly. Although now we understand how it does fly (high rate of wing movement), the Bee remains a symbol of accomplishing anything you put your mind to. In Hinduism, the Bee relates to Vishnu, Krishna or Kama, the God of Love. In Egypt, the Bee symbolized royalty. In Greece, it was the symbol of the Eleusinian Mysteries. The Celts associated the Bee with hidden wisdom.

Iodine Detox Dreaming of the Future

One detox symptom of the iodine protocol which I've been on for some months now is the dreaming. These detox started early on, however there was a pause and shifts with different types of detox.

The other day I started two seperate dosage. The iodine protocol is very complicated and a great deal of research is required when starting. This guide was helpful.

Headaches have been extreme, I was doing salt loading and other things to help get the toxins in the body moving along. Insomnia which is also a major detox symptom hasn't been too bad since I've been getting some hours of sleep prior to the insomnia but now it is happening every night.

The other night I slept through listening to hemi sync sleep exploration. I woke up and went back to sleep however I was relaxing and able to see through closed eyelids, not in vivid color but the outlines of my room. As I relaxed deeper I ended up dreaming. The dreams were very much related to my life and people around me and mostly the future. I kept repeating things that were occuring in the dream so that upon waking up I'd remember it. When I woke up I recalled it clearly but decided to write about it later, still sleepy so I relaxed more only to dream more vivid dreams.

Later on throughout the day I just completely forgot what I had dreamt and have this sense that when these events take place only then I'll remember that I had once dreamt them.

I think taking the iodine at specific times is having different reactions, different types of detox. I think I will start taking in the evening just before bed and see how that effects dreams. I think taking Salvia divinorum around that time may have also played a part in the vivid dreams.

Hemi- sync Audible Foreign Sounds

I've gone back to the hemi-sync Introduction Focus 10, just restarting from the beginning again. Interesting it all feels so new, as though I'm hearing things I'm not sure I heard before.

In today's session as I listened and deeply relaxed I heard a loud sound, wasn't sure if it was the pipes in the wall, it was just resounding in my ears so clearly. I think that the hemispheres of the brain are in a whole brain state where that sound can now be heard.

Also other day listening to hemi-sync produced sensations of what felt like electrical surges in the brain.

Recalled Memory or Just A Dream

Last night listened to Hemi-sync TGE Intro to F10 twice, second time around 11pm fell asleep during hemi-sync audio. I felt pressures in the forehead that felt completely different to what I was used to. Interestingly there was a part of the audio I think I don't ever recall listening to where Monroe mentions in order to recall any memory from the past to place a finger in the middle of the forehead and the memory will be recalled. I have never done this.


Had a very vivid movie like dream. There is a woman and a man, both are looking in front of them what appears to be in a distance, a billow of clouds - some kind of formation. Both have partners in there, it is supposed to be a world. The woman's sister is in this other world who is the partner of the man next to her. She's looking into this world where it looks like some other century - the clothes worn were almost Victorian but the era seems to date way back before then.
She sees that her sister is frantic where they live in this world, it looks as though something really wild was going on.

The man looks at her not at all concerned with what was going on with his delirious partner. He began to say that he has an idea to fix this all. He tells the woman next to him that the matter is really simple, he's going to change something about and all of this will be over, if it doesn't work out he will undo it. He enters or disappears into the cloud formation as the woman looks on. She sees the changing, or morphing effect of the clouds. At some points it was changing into someones face, other moments it was forming modernized buildings. Looking on curiously she waits for the moment when it's complete and begins to enter the cloud formation until she is in the world she very much recognizes. It would seem its Earth or some version of it. She walks in to the mansion where her sister seemed to be going frantic. Inside she finds her sister and tells her what her partner has done. She goes on to say that he changed things so that all those who were in love would find each other in this world, as cheesy as that sounds. It seemed to be a solution to an incredibly grave problem they were facing in this current world. Suddenly there was a sense that someone was outside and the sister who just arrived opens the door but quickly keeping her distance.

The door creaks open very slowly, this moment is intensely like a thriller movie. They are expecting something slightly afraid, it was like they were used to unusual unexpected things to take place and were expecting the unusual in this moment - dreading it. As the door finally opens completely there is a man who appears to be wounded. With his left hand covering his bloody wound on his chest he falls forward to reveal the arrow that had pierced through his back.

Both sisters are stunned and emotional, they begin to cry and feel completely helpless to help this man who they seem to know very well. As they watch him die I slowly begin to wake up.

What a way to end a dream! Just right at a cliffhanger moment. So I woke up around 5ish am trying my best to go back to sleep so it would continue. I was curious, like wtf happened next?! Unable to sleep I was thinking about the clarity and vividness of the dream. It was so brilliantly real as well as cinematic. A few thoughts later and then it hit me, everything I was doing, the recent material that I was reading, the purpose of using hemi-sync. This was no ordinary dream.

A while back I read an article where the memories of our ancestors were stored in our DNA and how we had access to them. Just recently as my sister tried to brainwash my nephew regarding how religion brings people on the right path and this prophet said "this and that" I challenged my nephews thinking by telling him that we cannot believe what others have said and that a lot of the things that the holy books teach as right and wrong are simply common sense - I mean it's common sense right not to hurt others, to steal etc. And we know that some things are just completely backwards, the stuff that make absolutely no sense whatsoever. I then spoke of how our brains have stored memories from perhaps the beginning of time which basically means that we have access to all those times spoken of regarding prophets etc. Another material I've been reading is a discussion between Krishnamurti and David Bohm (The Ending of Time). They discuss a new kind of human being with regenerated brain cells, which I feel was perhaps the original human being that initially existed until things messed up.

It didn't take too long for me to realize that this dream was a recalled memory. Somewhere in our history there was a point, or perhaps several points where there were a handful of people who were able to do what these dream characters had done, which was by some ability change the story of the world. To shift and direct it at a particular angle. As I pondered it some more I wondered if that were the case it would mean that something somewhere had gone very wrong. The people encountered in this dream seemed to have had good intentions. After that the rest is just guesses, one guess is someone who had bad intentions and not considerate of the benefit of the entire world had figured out what these people were up to. Perhaps greedy, selfish, corrupt or lost had figured out what these handful were capable of but started to direct things at a wrong direction, hence the world we live in today.

I know, it's crazy right?!

Salvia like incident with Hemi Sync

Painted 4 or 5 drops of lugols iodine on the heels of my feet. I then listened to Hemi sync opening the heart. Within 10 minutes I was relaxed looking above with eyes closed, it was dark yet I could see through my eyelids faint images of shelf and parts of the walls in my room. Things started to speed up from then and I saw silhouettes of the others in exactly the same way I had in my salvia trips. It was like they were splitting from my view. Prior to all this I was feeling intense sensation in the brain, focused mostly near forehead. A magnetic feel. After the others unraveled they seemed to be causing all manner of sensations in and around the body. The head movement felt even more urgent, so much that even as I write this the movements are present.

I have been supplementing for some days now. Mostly B-complex, Vitamin C, Selenium (L-selenomethionine) and magnesium which are co factors for iodine. My experience so far has been very intriguing, I have had very vivid dreams in the past which had stopped for some time.

As well as all this my diet in particular has changed to include lamb meat, chicken liver and fish. I will be supplementing with omega 3 oil soon. There are also some other nutrition that I have been researching and will slowly start on these.

I think something is definitely working out here. Whether my pineal gland is decalcifying or what I can't really say, but it seems something is happening with the combination of supplements I'm taking. I'm trying to experiment this without any expectations. For the time being I've been a bit apprehensive about taking the iodine internally, not sure I want to go through extreme detox so taking the slower path for now by painting on skin.

Hemi Sync Constricted Pupils

I think hemi sync is doing deeper work within the brain, perhaps with the addition of other physical factors.

Yesterday evening I listened to Opening the Heart, I clicked out and came back to ordinary consciousness as the audio ended. Eye lids were heavy, this time I quickly got up switched on light and checked eyes to find that my pupils had constricted. Something feels very different deep in brain as I re-emerge from these 'Click Out' states.
 

Hemi-Sync Head Movement and Clicking Out

Yesterday evening listened to Opening the Heart (1) hemi sync track. Did not feel like listening to The Gateway Experience wave tracks.

I relaxed and after the resonant tuning simply letting go but thoughts randomly popping up. My head turned to the left but instead of rapidly swinging left and right it stayed in this left position. Then head moved a little bit to the right until finally it centered. I thought it was odd my earphones which are very loose stayed put with these rapid movements. Head moved step by step to the right. Eventually opened eyes and second track had just started.

This morning awakened from some vivid dreams and there is some other incident that took place only I can't recall it. In one dream I'm in a water zone with several dangerous shark like creatures lurking and I'm trying to avoid them.

I was reading through some of my old journals and a pattern I've discovered is I end up always quitting the hemi-sync because when I get deep usually something blows up externally for me, or some pressing matter requires my attention and so don't make time to practice. I don't think I will have this problem this time round.

Hemi-sync Brain Change Dead Eyes

In a few recent hemi-sync sessions, there has been some interesting changes in the brain which are controlling the feeling in the eyes.

I think something deeper is going on inside the brain cells. Eyes tend to go numb but in a glued position, when opening it feels very dead which is the only way I can describe it.

This is something that happens to the eyes when I take Salvia, the same sensation only with hemi- sync it feels more pronounced. With Salvia it used to feel like it was part of the process of body shutting down. Can't recall if something like this happening in past sessions.

Just yesterday I opened eyes during an Opening the Heart session, was tempted to look in mirror but with deeper sensations in the brain seemed near impossible.

Hemi-Sync - The Gateway Experience Wave I, Orientation

I've started listening to hemi-sync once again. Have had a really difficult week and at the same time noticed sometimes when shit happens it's for the best. Now I'm changing my priorities and I think one of these priorities has to be advancing with hemi-sync.

I have lost count with the amount of times I've started these sessions only to suddenly end it. Hopefully this time round I can commit to finishing the entire program.

Started a session from last night. I listened to the first track Orientation late at night, as I relaxed deeply my head jolted left and right. Several times I was shocked by this movement and how aggressive it has become. Towards the end of the track when I opened my eyes I realized that I clicked out from the last head jolting movement and unable to recall what happened during that click out.

Hemi-Sync The Gateway Experience - Release and Recharge

As I played this track I recalled that it was about releasing problems and certain issues but in the session Monroe asks you to think of the first fear that comes up and soon you imagine bubbling it away. Going through the manual now the method is used for the purpose of releasing and converting self-imposed emotions. Something that I absolutely must do right now.

I thought of the issue that I'm having with some people it has been on my mind past few days - 2 people to be specific. I don't want to drudge my personal life here but maybe it is time to record these and see how hemi-sync effects these areas of ones life. So I was hoping that with this track I can bubble away my issue I am having with A and S, in particular with A, started session at 6am.  The emotions that have been piling up in this situation is one of anger and serious frustration, there are more people involved but I find myself in the middle trying to serve justice, be a savior to one person involved. I sometimes think to just let it go not get involved but cannot tolerate it any longer.

In this mornings session I got deeper into F10 but clicked out, then I had an interesting false awakening where I was looking at my mp3 player and title of one of tracks read 'osom' or something like that. Soon I have another false awakening where A is involved and a kind of drama is unfolding much like it does here in physical reality, however in the false awakening I'm handling it a little better.

Upon returning to C1 the track was beginning again as I had set the player on repeat shuffle.

Hemi-Sync The Gateway Experience - Introduction to Focus 10

Hemi-Sync: The Gateway Experience from 'The Monroe Institute' is a collection of six albums called 'Waves of Change'. The purpose of the audio is to develop expanded states of awareness. It uses a process called Hemi-Sync which is short for Hemisphere Synchronization. The audio sends seperate sound pulses to each ear and creates a third sound called the 'Binaural Beat'. It is never an actual sound, but an electrical signal created by both brain hemispheres acting and working together.

 After my session with Orientation played the next track 'Introduction to Focus 10'. The Focus 10 level is also known as the Mind Awake / Body Asleep state. Compared to my hemi-sync sessions in the past, as Robert Monroe may put it, there has been a new variable. This variable is simply a very powerful energy that is activated within the body, an energy commonly known as Kundalini. My head was constantly rotating, as I type here it is still rotating and body doing other things. During the session a million different things were going on. As I breathed in deeply for Resonant Tuning my heart was beating as if full with all that I was breathing. Going deeper suddenly the energy is straightening my back with a jolt, there are some blockage feeling in right thigh. Deep inner tissue massage going on - it seemed more focused on the right legs. There was also that vigorous head shifting left and right as if shaking something off.

For me it seems rather than entering the mind awake / body asleep state I have reached a state where the mind is awake and the body seems to be more awake than ever before. I am not at all going to try and fight this, rather I think it may be a very good thing - hemi sync audio and that powerful activated energy system. In fact it was in my earlier days with Hemi-sync that this energy made itself known.

Hemi-Sync The Gateway Experience - Orientation

Listened to TGE first track orientation. It has been a while and once again I hope I commit to this. It is really hot today although I'm feeling the heatwave so much like most people I did feel the body temperature was not ideal enough for total relaxation.

Orientation is an instruction of what to expect during the entire series, clearly describing the hemi-sync audio technology with a demo. Robert Monroe guides you into Focus 3, which is the first basic level where Hemi-Sync starts to have an effect on the person.

I felt relaxed at F3 in todays session, felt tingles on cheeks and compressions around the face. After the session ended decided to listen to Introduction to Focus 10.

Hemi-Sync Break

I haven't had the time for hemi sync practice and I don't think I will for a while now. I have decided to commence the practice again in the winter when I have more free time.

The next several months will be focused on intermittent fasting, proper nutrition (focused on brain developement), a study which will be focused on memory skills and exercise (cycling, walking, jogging).

Hemi Sync Weekly Update

11/02/2013 - Advanced F10
Listened to the audio, feeling too lazy to go through prep steps on my own. REBAL feels light yet solid there is that similar bouncy feeling that I have had near legs since Salvia which is also strongly present in head most of the times if I remain still and quiet. Relaxed deeply and eventually zoned out it was almost like a click out but partial.

13/02/2013 - F10 without audio
By the time I got to the REBAL I just could not relax, mostly mentally which also applied some tension near my head region. My intention for todays session was a direct connection with the older wiser part of my self. I think if I am to do this without guidance I need to start small perhaps focus on relaxing the body and mind. I have thought about using hemi-sync 'Opening the Heart' but have this strong feeling doing so will open up Pandora's box rather than the heart so I am leaving it for now.

Hemi Sync Weekly Update

06/02/2013  -
So far this week have not had any sessions, perhaps tonight. After a few more sessions I might try the Salvia, it crossed my mind today but the setting is not right at this time, need to let certain stuff cool off. Need to let go of certain negative situations, people etc. Right now my focus is on my studies but I need to observe some of the situations I get meddled in, they are private and mostly family related. Since December when I started my studies it helped me to focus for a while away from all the crap but now feeling like having ignored all that the issues have arisen with greater force. I see now though with clarity that it is not so much the negative people and issues around me but my own focus on them - by focusing on these issues I contribute to it in some way. This obviously doesn't mean that I should simply ignore the issues and it will go away but rather try to understand it and be done with it for good, as the issues are not external but more from within deeper underlying issues. I do wonder if I can observe it the way Krishnamurti would suggest - 'Look, observe without words, or naming, without a goal without any hope for anything whatsover, silently watching'.

-  Advanced Focus 10
Started session around 10pm. Relaxed throughout fortunately not thinking too much. Somewhere after REBAL felt the outer layer of this as a magnetic force. Then involuntary movement of the head shifting left and right which occurred 3 times, each time suddenly and with more force than usual in between these moves there were sudden jolts where the body felt to be closing in - the feeling was much like how perhaps a flower would close or fold in its petals. Beyond all this there is no recall, just slept through.

09/02/2013 - Advanced F10
Sometime in the evening. There were bodily sensations tingles and the goosebumps in particular were stronger than usual. Then going deeper yet physical body not still in the sleep mode there was an image of a mans face and then a white light flashed with a faint image of a light bulb. Then a red light flashed but it wasn't sudden instead there was a smooth building up of the intensity and brightness. I opened eyes just to see if there was any external source. The lights reminded of my bike since I recently got a white and red light for it. Carried on with the audio but fell asleep. I intend to start practicing without audio.

Hemi Sync Weekly Update

31/1/2013 - Have not listened to any Hemi-sync past few days due to stressful situation and certain change going on in my life right now. This tends to happen getting deep into hemi-sync and has happened in the past. Externally there is some kind of storm brewing, I can feel it but try my best not to let it get to me - now I know why I had put off this program for a long time, simply not willing for those changes, too messy. Intend to try a session tonight.

- Intro to F10
Fell asleep throughout, woke up in a sweat. Exhausted this week.

03/02/2013
This week haven't bothered with the program, with a busy schedule and lots on my mind it has been difficult. I think there is also something else going on physically. For almost 3 or 4 consecutive nights I have been waking up in a pool of sweat. Either body is fighting an infection or simply excreting toxins through the sweat with no cold or flu nor any evidence of a fever.  Not sure if I'll be listening to the program in the coming week, thinking I should focus on getting more sleep and letting the body recover. One thing I should note here and it's not really hemi-sync related is an incident that took place this morning. Half awake and half asleep from some time after 3am became aware of the body rocking back and forth, could be due to the recent visit of sexual energies (usually present during m cycle) only awareness of this motion did not present any sexual sensations or arousal instead I found it comforting sort of like if someone were to sing a lullaby to put me to sleep.

Hemi Sync Weekly Update

23/01/2013 - Orientation
Back at the start of the program, since last time I simply could not focus. Went smoothly yet I think I still need to relax more.

24/01/2013 - Introduction to Focus 10
In this session remained alert - physically relaxed deeply. All sensations of deep relaxation were present. Felt energy concentrate around leg area and some movement within the brain. I should also note here that I am being more louder with the RT. The energy sensation I was feeling around legs and arm felt like something separating from physical body. Reminded me of some old OBE type experience where the body form that was separated was no different, in solidity and denseness of the physical body.

25/01/2013 - Introduction to Focus 10
Practicing this session once again has made me aware just how tense I have been, especially around the forehead area. There were the same sensation as in the previous session but not as intense and I fell asleep. Woke up early morning at 3:45am and had an interesting experience 'Take Over'. This waking up early has either to do with the hemi-sync audio, spring arriving a little earlier or because there is something deeper going on. For a while the sleep interruption had ended and I felt I was sleeping deeply. There are some extra things going on in my world right now perhaps it's a combination of all of this.

Hemi Sync Weekly Update

14/01/2013 - Advanced Focus 10
Around 10 pm shadow silhouttes percieved through closed eyelids near about focus 10 state - sensations around body in sync with the movements of others - the same others from Salvia experiences, not sure what they are doing.

15/01/2013 - Advanced Focus 10
My intention was to start the audio much earlier around 7-8pm but between that time and after midnight so much on my mind. I was also thinking about Divine Beloved, requested it to come forth however it wished. I recall pouring my heart out and then remained still and let the thoughts pour out. I was told many things  but of that the most essential insight was that Divine Beloved is in everything including the goosebumps I have felt in the past and that it is never far away. My mind pondered on every connection I have had with the Divine trying to piece things together.

After midnight I think it was almost 1am I put my earphones on and relaxed. After or maybe during REBAL I felt a breeze and then the goosebumps, there was some tingling near upper lip and around face region. I smiled, happy with the confirmation. I continued to relax and for the briefest second I let go so completely. There was a melody, one that I have heard before in a Salvia experience when physical reality as I knew it was about to end. Awareness was almost completely lost of myself, my environment and everything that pertained to existence, when suddenly I heard Monroe's voice just about starting the count up to F10. It is very interesting that Salvia type experiences are taking place with Hemi-Sync. I personally do not want to categorize these experiences as they have more to do with the operation of the brain or mind - Salvia and Hemi-sync are the tools that awaken functions of the brain.

16/01/2013 - Advanced Focus 10
5pm tried to relax as much as I could but two people AR and SP constantly kept irritating me after an incident. I put them in the energy conversion box which helped very little. Clicked out at some point. Towards end felt tired and sleepy. It is more efficient if you practice these sessions with less conflict, perhaps in these situation I should consider using the Release and Recharge exercise.

Later in the night 10 or 11pm tried it one more time again those two annoying people somehow barged into my mental space. I relaxed and fell asleep. This morning had a astral type experience.

17/01/2013 - Release and Recharge
Odd, I tried to think of a fear but nothing popped out. I know there are some fears that are still present but lately I feel my issues differ slight from fear issues. Instead I should be working perhaps with some anger issues and other emotions other than fear.

I think next time if I can't think of a fear issue I may instead think of a goal or something that I want to achieve and see how that plays out, can't recall but maybe there's another audio in the program that is for this particular use.

19/01/2013 -
 First I should note that I have been feeling an odd sensation on left side of temple, spasm like contractions and internal movements, could be hemi-sync related.

20/01/2013 - Sleep Exploration and Advanced Focus 10
Was far too frustrated to listen properly and follow exercise. Felt fidgety and agitated - during these states it is pointless to even attempt any session.