Year 2023 Conclusions

 As the year comes to a close I thought I might as well post some updates and what I have learned and discovered this year. The focus has been on biohacking and learning more about planetary influences dabbling in astrology but using my own intuition to guide me rather than learning from a book or other knowledge base. 

My twin flame, and someone I considered a soulmate have all but completely disappeared from my life but this year I forged new acquaintances that have been like lessons in life. My dear mum passed away this year. Life is a balance of holding on and letting go...I believe it was Rumi who mentioned that. 

I am curious what 2024 has in store, not just for me but the whole planet and its earthly inhabitants. 

There is going to be some major solar flares coming up, a peak activity of the current solar cycle. Possible elections coming up both UK and US something that coincidentally brings about chaotic events. In the last one it was covid. 

A lot has transpired throughout this year but the biggest change has been not using salvia. 

I'll be continuing my focus on the biohacking. So far this winter I kind of took a step back as I feel I needed to reduce certain brain chemicals and wait for spring to emerge and then get the ball rolling. Also I have a feeling that spring is coming early. In some parts of the world there will be mini heatwaves as early as March especially in the UK. 

There will also be even more focus on AI and advancing of technology and technological influences. Much of my biohacking is to do with the natural Human Intelligence (HI) and activating this not really so much to compete with AI but to become aware of the brain capacity that has always been available to humans. 

It's a work in progress, I hope I can complete it in this lifetime or hopefully someone else can...

Lunar Eclipse Power Struggles and Using Astrology as a Compass

 I have been learning and understanding more about astrology recently and more through direct experience rather than reading about it.

Of course there is some reading to do in order to understand some of the ways that different planets influence daily life. I've even gone ahead and sorted out a birth chart. There are some challenging stuff on there but also some good stuff.

Lunar eclipses have some major effect on me - it's not very pretty I'm afraid. Things get chaotic and out of hand. The most recent had me on edge and tested my levels of power and how others around me influence my level of power. 

It's interesting beause there were a few very challenging aspects on this Lunar Eclipse on the 28th October; Mercury conjunct Mars and both these planets were opposition to Jupiter. I was very calm on this day to begin with but I think what happened is some of what I said on this day somehow triggered certain others. I could have easily avoided much of the struggles of this day if I had remained quiet but I felt I needed to express myself and in some ways glad as I had some startling revelations. But I am learning more about these influences and how to avoid these types of struggles.If I could rewind, turn back time and do things differently I would have avoided the confrontation but then I would not have had the revelations and it has set into motion some action that I think may be useful to me or just something that is meant to be. Next time I am going to be more mindful.

I think it's fair to say that on the next Lunar Eclipse I'll be hiding in some cave, far away from all opposing forces but I suppose these sort of things will catch up to you in some other ways.

I'm not a stranger to lunar eclipses and this wouldn't really be the first such chaos but it has so far been the most intense, so much that I really must take it all more seriously and cater my life around the cosmos. 

Recently I'm also seeing some influence of various planetary aspects, some that sync with my birth chart. I've been focusing on the moon for quite some time and already know much of their influence on me but these extra planetary aspects paint a clearer more detailed picture.  Solar Eclipse so far hasn't been all that eventful but the difference may be that the Solar Eclipse on 14th October did not have any other planetary aspects at the same time at least not to the degree it would bring up challenges.

The Colorful Toy World

Recent OBE took place on the 18th October 2023. 

Most of the OBEs I have are spontaneous, no conscious effort on my part. Maybe just meditation when awakened from sleep which is basically WBTB technique.  

I exited the body more than once until I was able to sustain awareness. A few times I met my mum, moments that I am still recalling. 

In another trip I emerged in a world with large coloured almost plastic yet claylike structures. There was a deep feeling of familiarity and I remember thinking 'I've been here before'.

I'm going to attempt OBEs and deep dreaming in the coming months as we approach winter. I think this is the best time for these experiences. At the same time I'll be experimenting with deeper sleep states and healing.

I am a Walk-In Soul

I was about 20 years old at the time. Pitch blackness, eyelids closed. Suddenly I can see some light peering through but it was blurry although I could make out the figure of a person looking down at me. Then a woman saying my name and I think she asked if I could hear her, I started very lightly nodding my head.

It was only yesterday I began to think about this, thoughts came so randomly. One minute I'm enjoying a really tasty moin moin and the next these thoughts pop up out of nowhere. 

I cannot recall anything except waking up at the hospital. Not much of an NDE in that sense except that I was either out of consciousness or clinically dead, something I never thought to enquire. 

I wondered about this blankness, complete darkness and then coming back into consciousness. Did I have an NDE and my brain has completely blocked me from it? I started to think about every aspect of my life after this, realized the sudden dramatic changes that seemed to have occured in me. Things I've never thought about before. 

I started gradually getting interested in the afterlife, ghosts, spirits, astral projection, out of body experiences, dreams and lucid dreams. Then I became keenly interested in law of attraction, focusing on self development. I really shapeshifted in a sense, no longer my former self. A self I couldn't recognise. It was after all the first 20 years of my life and I suppose that is when you start to build particular interests and move in a certain direction so at the time since the incident occured I didn't think much about it. In fact, at first I didn't think much at all. I was somewhat numb to thoughts and emotions. 

Previous to this NDE I didn't think much about God, may have pondered a few times growing up but I didn't have faith like anyone following a religion. However after the incident I became drawn to the idea that God is wathching me and will guide me. I recall one day silently sitting down and automatically praying feeling a presence telling me that everything was going to be alright. I remember being in a car heading to one of my sisters house where I was staying for several months after the incident, looking out the window not a bird in sight and I said to God to send me a sign that he is with me, I asked him to send a bird in the sky. In that moment a flock of birds flew by, then more birds followed. This made me feel joyful and very much at peace.

I remember after getting deep into metaphysical topics I encountered the topic of walk-ins. As I read more into it I had a feeling it happened to me but soon went straight into denial and stopped looking into it altogether. 

Yesterday when I thought about that incident and reviewing my past since that point it became so undeniably obvious to me that I ended up feeling all the pented up emotions . I did some major releasing. Letting it all out, some part of me was grieving. But what part and why? I've hid this from my own self for almost two decades now. It's amazing what the brain can block out. There was clearly something that held me back from accepting that the walk-in happened. What about the NDE if I did have one? Now I need to figure out if I had even died or simply lost consciousness. I don't know how long I was at the hospital, all sense of time had warped. 

The knowing is very undeniable to me, when you know something you just know it. I have looked up some of the symtpoms of a walk-in and can relate to almost all of it except the negative aspects. I would say since that incident I have grown into a much stronger person which I know most would think happens with age. I have found it very easy to grasp spirituality and spiritual concepts, as it comes very naturally. 

Also I don't think this body has had one walk-in, I think there have been a few others after this which may have occured during an excursion with salvia. 

I'm going to do some time travelling soon, not in the sense you might think. I have to travel back into the time of the incident that led me to the ICU at the hospital. Retrieve the memory and gain some understanding from that point. I will be activating acetylcholine and GABA neurotransmitters for this purpose and be very clear with my intentions.

Using the Moon Phase as a Map

In the upcoming posts I'll be sharing as much as I can about biohacking with the various lunar cycles or moon phases. This is the process I am using at the moment. 

There are 4 check points in the lunar cycle, New Moon, First Quarter, Full Moon and Third Quarter Moon. In between these are other points such as Gibbous waning etc but these are the main. So for the time being I will focus on these checkpoints. 

I am drafting all this atm to put in a book which will be published soon but for the time being sharing brief information on this blog in order to share my journey so far. 

Within each of these checkpoints the brain is using a predominant neurotransmitter. 

New Moon to First Quarter Moon

The focus is on increasing Acetylcholine. This is a very powerful neurotransmitter and it's important not to overdo it as with any of the other neurotransmitters but this one specifically can fry your brain. But when done cautiously and producing just the right amount it produces the most amazing results. With peak levels my brain has worked super sharp, dreams are also a lot more vivid. The levels should rise gradually and a peak should be experienced on the First Quarter Moon. Acetylcholine in my view is like the alpha of the neurotransmitters, the beginning starting point, without it we can't produce two other vital neurotransmitters which we will see in the next checkpoint. In this phase the focus is on setting intentions and goals. Dreams can be vivid as acetylcholine increases REM sleep. 

First Quarter Moon to Full Moon

Once there is peak level of Acetylcholine on the First Quarter Moon it should help jumpstart the next main neurotransmitter of focus. That would be serotonin, the "happy molecule". There should be surges of creativity and joyful feelings. Emotions get really charged by full moon. Another neurotransmitter that works alongside this one is dopamine, the chemical for reward and motivation. Both are implicated in mood disorders and depression. There is also likely to be some gender based differences, maybe men need more dopamine than serotonin - something I am still working on understanding. Positive thinking is useful at this time but if we have enough neurotransmitters this shouldn't need to be practiced, it should happen naturally. There should be a gravitation towards positive thoughts, optimism and a heightened sense of gratitude. Practice is still helpful especially if needed, as most people have been programmed to think negatively and also when the body is out of balance due to toxins etc.

Full Moon to Third Quarter Moon 

By Full Moon dopamine should be peaking. Subsequently this is followed by neurotransmitters synthesised from dopamine - norepinephrine and epinephrine. We need them in smaller amounts and for shorter time. Norepinephrine is needed to help produce melatonin, so if we have produced adequate serotonin in previous checkpoint then melatonin production should be a breeze. Stay away from artificial light and sleep in the dark to help the melatonin production. Followed by this there is a surge of gamma amino butyric acid (GABA). GABA is an inhibitory neurotransmitter with calming relaxing effects. It helps with deep restful sleep and surges are seen during the night sleeping hours. This is where deep dreaming takes place and we experience NREM sleep. As we move towards the Third Quarter Moon some enzymes that help break down neurotransmitters such as Mono amine oxidase (MAO) and others that breakdown histamine are also present. These are essential for the detoxification process and a necessary component to manage the levels of neurotransmitters. 

Spiritually we can take the time to review our goals and how we have manifested during this cycle, those deep dreaming can reveal what we need to know at this time. 

Third Quarter Moon to New Moon

This is the detoxification phase. This phase is vital and the focus is on elimination of toxins. The best way to eliminate toxins is a healthy balanced diet and eating lots of fibre especially during this phase. Don't let waste in your body stagnate. Probiotics can be helpful as most people may have destroyed their gut through heavy pesticide food. 

Spiritually we can use this time for deeper introspection. As questions before falling asleep and all is revealed through dreams. Review the entire lunar cycle. 

This is just a very basic map. There's so much more to it such as hormones during each phase, various hormones work alongside the different neurotransmitters. I've also left out other neurotransmitters. 

In my view I believe women are meant to synchronize their menstrual cycle with the moon phase. My menstrual cycle did synchronize at one point but something changed and I'm just working that out - the most important thing for women to focus on is having a healthy normal menstrual cycle. The checkpoints may be different for men and women. 

I think using the map is easier for women as more scientific research is available and studies about female hormones and the menstrual cycle. I think generally though the moon map paints a pretty decent picture of the predominant neurotransmitters for men and women. For children it is much different as their developing brains are dependent on GABA levels more than the other neurotransmitters.

The changing seasons play a major role in neurotransmitter levels which means geolocation will greatly impact the requirements of neurotransmitters with spring and summer as a period of increase of the excitatory neurotransmitters. Autumn and winter we see more of the inhibitory neurotransmitters with sleep becoming deeper and more restful. 

I have been doing this research in the past few years, deepening my level of understanding and even using myself as a guinea pig. It has not been easy but an interesting journey. I have had a bumpy ride along the way, nothing is ever smooth sailing but I've learned a lot through my mistakes. In the upcoming posts I will be sharing some basic formulations for increasing these neurotransmitters such as various supplements and practices. 

What I've discovered from doing all this is that it really has heightened my level of intuition and energy. I want to go much deeper though as I feel I have only touched the surface. I have been able to increase psychedelic types of experiences but very briefly. I have also increased basic levels of awareness and mental states, such as deep restful sleep (and unfortunately even messed it up), motivation, creativity, focus, mental math, photographic memory to name a few. 

Venus Retrograde 2023

Venus retrograde started on 23rd July 2023 and it has been quite a very significant aspect so far in my love life and most relationships. Since that day there have been other aspects that have been chaotic particularly pluto square true node which occured 3 times towards the end of July.

In general  I feel a lot of work needs to be done to transition through these planetary aspects smoothly. Proper nutrition and heavy metal detoxification is key to this process. 

Also had a thought pop into my head, birds of a feather flock together when listening to an astrologer talking about the mercury retrograde which took place between December 2022 and January 2023. On the 1st of January 2023 there were major flight cancellations. My understanding is that majority of people who planned their bookings were likely accumulating heavy metals in the system. The combination of heavy metals and other present toxins in each person can vary but it creates a vibrational state that made them book the flight on that date with that particular airline. 

I've seen people make very important major plans during certain lunar phase. New Moon often to start some kind of project. People do it unconsciously. 

Heavy metals means lots of flight delays, malfunctioning tech and communications issues will take place in upcoming Mercury Retrograde. The same of course applies to Venus Retrograde. 

It's useful to be aware what comes up for you and work.

The key takeaway is heavy metal detox and prevention. Remove common toxins you may be exposing yourself to.

Updates Second Quarter 2023

Update Second Quarter
April May June Updates

In general April and May were particularly difficult months. June and now July slightly better

Major improvements in understanding of biohacking and how it relates to personal experience and outer reality.

I am utilizing detoxification and at the same time observing the effects. Not just on a health level but also the correlations of everyday life and toxicity level. It is slow paced and still understanding everything. For now I definitely see how my body magnetism has a connection in the type of people coming into my life and this has played a role in past relationships.

I have made some major progress with the hemisync binaural beats and various supplements and protocols with some results that I've not experienced in the past. Some amplification of OBEs and some new experiences. Example one morning after HS session can see numbers and letters or symbols in front of me. Then sudden silence and all black as if everything switched off. Not sure if this is the void.

I am having spontaneous remote viewing and OBE experiences. In a most recent OBE heard my mums voice.
Dreams are vivid and rarely story based. Interestingly dreams are not as amazing or profound as they were once especially around the time I dreamed of twin flame and past lives.

I have been particularly focusing on weather,  toxins, astrological events and even observing others based on lunar cycle mostly to make improvements with biohacking.

The detoxification is most important and it begins with healthy foods and removing all known toxins. I even wear a face mask with PM2.5 filters to limit exposure to pollen which is absorbing most of the environmental pollution. It works perfectly. There is major possibility something going on up in the sky and have been closely following research by @carolinecoramuk and @sebpowell on Twitter. Even if they are wrong about the arsine gas an underground enemy and an ongoing invisible war, the fact remains that there's definite pollution in the environment and pollen absorbs it. Hence why most people are suffering from hayfever. That hayfever is actually a detox reaction. For now mask and glasses have been my saviour these past few cycles and of course my own detox protocols.

There have been a few heat waves, which make the body sweat as you would in a sauna and eliminate toxins. However those with extreme heavy metals and toxins are going to have a bumpy ride. It is around these time MSM reports on news of a violent nature.

Most people are exposing themselves to the toxins, especially during pollen season regardless of whether they have hayfever or not. Those with severe reactions are resorting to antihistamines which has its own problems. I can use high vitamin C as antihistamine as well as other nutrients but would much rather prefer reducing toxin load which allows the body to focus on other functions without being unnecessarily overburdened.

I have spoken to some people who feel quite invincible when it comes to the environmental pollution and disagree or choose not to take extra precautions either resorting to medications or going about it all with a blissful ignorance attitude. I wish I could be like this at times but I have become sensitive to even the most smallest amount of toxins. I do think I have become more hypervigilent which can come across as paranoia. The hypervigilence may be result of increasing Acetylcholine which increases fear based learning - not really a bad thing.

Also my body doesn't do well on even the smallest amount of toxins. Example everyone I know are able to eat ripe mangoes (especially the ones imported from Asia), me? Not so much. Even 1 bite makes me want to puke my guts out. However I'm able to eat the sour unripe mangoes. I recently researched how mango is treated in farming and lo and behold they use a carcinogenic to quickly ripen the mangoes more rapidly for quick harvest. One of the side effect is nausea. Yikes! 

So why am I rambling on about all this? It's important, because the battery of abuse against the physical body is what impairs full use of brain functions as well as having access to higher cognitive functions. We are reduced to basic zombie functions as a result.

Higher cognitive functions = telepathy, remote viewing, lucid dreams, higher intelligence, OBE and more.

In this third quarter of the year I will be focusing on biohacking with a focus to help assist with new vocation and new beginnings. The days are still long but I might try to enter deeper sleep states to hopefully make contact with the deceased, particularly my mum and who knows maybe some ancestors along the way. So far in this quarter I have had dreams about ghostly apparitions, almost like training for it. I've already had some dreams about my mum, she even appeared momentarily as a ghost and quickly disappeared. 

More to come. Stay tuned...

Updates First Quarter 2023

I'm going to do quarterly updates or at least try. In the first quarter my dear mother passed away yet her spirit is still with me so that has been a major event so far. I did grieve at first but as time went on it became clearer that she was still with me.

I started a new relationship since January when my mum was still alive and this has been ongoing. 

I am continuing the biohacking but hasn't been effective in the previous lunar cycle  but I'm trying in  current lunar cycle. It might've been effective though as I dealt with grief in a healthy way which has more to do with serotonin. I'm playing around with new ideas and concepts. Mostly looking forward to new formulas. I'm also occupied with a lot of work stuff which is keeping me busy.  

I'm using astrology and astrologic data. As March 2023 comes to an end Ramadan begins. I'm working out my vibration and the effects of biohacking application. March was pretty stressful month so much to focus on so little time...

A Mothers Love After Death

 I have been meaning to do an update, but life had taken an unexpected turn. My mum was quite unwell from last year. Her health was declining and I did my best to help and support her.

In many ways I had become her mother, trying to nurture her and be there whenever she needed me. The older me would've said I sacrificed a lot but the newer me the more understanding mature version now says what I gave up pales in comparison to what she gave me. 

It took her death to make me realise how deep and unconditional her love was for me. My heart was fully open and receptive. Even now I can feel her with me. Though her body had grown weak and had lost the will to hang on, her spirit lingers still.

Since her death some interesting things have happened. One event involved lights flickering and going out and another is she's communicating with my sister through dreams. But another of my sister is having pretty dark dreams.

Along with my mums death there's some new events and incidents that have coming and her passing is kind of a catalyst for that change. 

Whilst I did grieve and feel empty without her, the physical shell I was used to, a deep sense of appreciation awakened within. I felt deep heartfelt gratitude for having her in my life for as long as I have.

I tried to connect with the other side journeying with Salvinorin A but have put it aside for now. The thought came to me that I should use the candle flame where in the past I was able to see beings forming. That is irrelevant though especially with the way I am already communicating with her.