Just as I approached 2022 I had the chance to experiment with some MJ. This very potent natural herb from mother nature connects with the Endocannabinoid system.
I had I think 2 or 3 opportunities to experiment. What I discovered is a symbiosis when you partake in this herb with others, kind of like the rastas when they sit and pass the pipe and connect to Jah together.
On one occasion having taken a hit whilst outdoors and then back indoors entering that other state around family.
My nieces were over for the holidays. I stood beside the door mostly concerned with my eldest sister who was very quiet - for her it does wonders on the arthritis and mellows her mood. I observed my nieces playing talking mucking about. I came upon the realisation that the state I was in, children are already naturally in that state. You can say their Endocannabinoid system is naturally operating as it should- for some reasons us adults have an impaired Endocannabinoid system that we need some plant medicine to get us hooked up again.
The other occasion was similar- just found myself very connected to that other state except I was around family. I even watched a movie (Spy) and everything about it was intense. Me and my sister would laugh in unison with a very similar laughter. Of course I have to take care of my lungs so I did not take it that often. My blood sugar was dropping that pasta with cheese just didn't cut it. I needed to throw in some jam for a bit of flavour. People get the munchies because blood sugar levels drop.
Something that did become a habit was me incessantly chewing gum.
I had no idea how bad it was until my family would express their disgust. I can't blame them, my chewing was bad. I became so hooked I needed 2 or 3 pieces of gum at the same time.
So that's pretty much how I rolled into the New year. I also started off having relationship issues with my boyfriend but I stayed calm and patient and I told him that I am working on some New Years resolutions.
I told my twin flame whom I sometimes communicate with that I'm working on a biohack that helps you fall in love. You can fall in love without being in a relationship and I especially wanted to figure it out for him as he is in a loveless marriage. Most people unfortunately are in loveless companionships these days and that's such a tragedy. Really, it does break my heart.
All of a sudden a new guy comes into my life. Like a gust of wind. I ignored the calls and texts as I am super paranoid when I get calls from unknown numbers. Suddenly he would call me more than my current boyfriend at the time. He made me realise my own suspicions; that the relationship I was in was doomed. After a lot of soul searching I ended relationship with boyfriend.
I told my twin flame about it and I shared the name of the substance that I was going to try; phenylthalamine (PEA). This is released when people fall in love. The key is to try with MAO inhibitor such as hordenine.
Meanwhile I was still speaking with new guy.
To cut a long story short I fell in love with the new guy. The funny thing is I had yet to try my new substance. He certainly had qualities that I never really thought about. He was a very simple humble guy. He was certainly not my type. It just happened so suddenly but some time after getting to know him. I tried to rationalise my feelings by telling myself it was the chewing gum.
The chewing gum has aspartame which is a source of phenylalanine which converts to PEA, the very substance that is released when people fall in love - the one I've been meaning to get hold of and experiment with. Such is my life, so serendipitous.
At one point there was so much love overfilling my heart that I begged God for his mercy. It reminded me of a euphoric experience when I did a liver flush. But just as quickly as this guy randomly found me he departed.
I'm not sure if I can call it romantic love, or the possesive obsessed kind because there was none of that. And I know what it's like to be infatuated, I think it happened once when I binged on chocolate which also releases PEA except it made me feel lovesick over a guy at the queue in a supermarket who didn't even so much as look at me.
It was an eye opener and it made me realise that I wasn't in love with my ex boyfriend whom I even considered marriage with. And I learned the most important lesson of my life, never marry unless you're in love. Sounds like common sense but people have no idea in seeking relationship just how much of it is dictated by fear. Love is fearless. And I believe this love is in our heart ready and waiting to be tapped into and sometimes you meet someone and they can trigger it.
The PEA is something I will still experiment with. However it isn't something to take all the time and can be dangerous with side effects.
I'm thinking to use just before full moon as I think that neurotransmitter release are based on the moon's position. Different neurotransmitters are dominant in different phases.
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