Wednesday, 7 February 2018
However I have only been on this diet for a week. In particular there have been changes in intake of vitamin b complex. I am dreaming quite a lot. My understanding from evaluating past dreams is vivid dreams that are unusual or disturbing are related to parasite die offs. I am hoping with keto diet that one benefit I will get is parasite elimination. Mostly want to rebalance levels of Candida and improve gut flora and bacteria. Also I had no internet and WiFi for one night but still there are neighbours who have strong range of WiFi so am still exposed. I want to experiment using aluminium foil bedding net to see if I could eliminate EMF radiation, yes I am one of those people who would happily wear a tin foil hat and I'm a millenial.
I have looked up ketogenic diet and dreams with lots of hits that this diet increases vivid dreams. Then again I have always had some kind of weird dreams prior to keto diet. Another factor could be caffeine from a mascarpone dessert I am eating which has cocoa powder added to it. I have been pretty addicted to it and eating more than I should. I read a post online that suggested it could be caffeine digesting slowly with high fat keeping parts of the brain awake and alert during dream time. Sounds like an interesting experiment is in order, fortunately this dessert will be on the menu for a while.
The ketogenic diet is a high fat, moderate protein and low carb diet.
The ketogenic diet is so far working out well for me although it has only been a week, I will be sure to note more changes in dreams as nutritional profile on this diet is clearly different to one on a diet with higher amounts of carb. My main reason why I started on this diet is that recently I have been a little concerned about having tumors, especially in the brain. More importantly we all carry cancer cells and in our lifetimes they are more likely to become exacerbated since they feed on sugar and some studies suggest that cancer thrives on a high carb diet.
Tuesday, 6 February 2018
This morning woke up from a very strange dream that seemed to go on for quite long where I was dreaming about various characters over different periods of time (timeline in the dream).
There were patches on the ground. I am telling others of these. Others seem to be my siblings (not from this reality). One brother is examining it, we conclude it's some kind of Mark from a large bird.
Have flashback of siblings when we were young?
Young brad Pitt lookalike, with siblings. He has superpowers where when he is next to plants they grow rapidly, example he was next to pumpkin and the leaves were growing fast meaning the fruit would even be ready soon. But if he moved away for a short period the leaves would wither. His siblings also had superpowers but his one was extraordinary.
The father seemed reluctant about it and was yelling at the mother who was quiet, calm but also seemed submissive and trapped. Father had black eyes like a panda.
I am still one of the siblings with powers.
Soon I am in some tunnel like underground London tube. Though it was almost mine like looking. I look above one tunnel with a name. I am aware the mother has called me here because father wants to see me. It seems he may have abandoned us from long time ago as meeting feels like reunion. A scene plays, the father has spikes, some from hands and he slashes the mother who vanquishes in the air like the way vampires do in movies. He has no panda eyes. I think I as the girl character sense it happening.
Woke up back to sleep, more dreaming. At some point I am in the air flying, hovering above a landscape looks like earth but I was too excited with the whole flying. This was breathtaking, literally. I just was stunned that I was up in the air flying. The quality felt a lot more real than when I have my astral spinning events take place. I think because I felt more of my body as real and tangible, I even flapped my arms about as if swimming in the air.
Friday, 26 January 2018
Wednesday, 24 January 2018
I really need to take salvia without any external stimuli, no thoughts of this world, no songs to dictate my experience. Soon I will be building up a meditative practice so that I can do this. For now I listen to music, randomly sometimes even the radio because externally there is just too much noise but this will be changing soon.
I awoke last night around 1:15am but felt like I slept a long time. Sleep was fairly restful except there was that awful headache. I tried to go back to sleep but this was not happening so I got ready a concoction of b vitamins and hoped the Riboflavin would help with the migraine headaches. This concoction included L theanine to help me relax. I'm not sure if eating turkey, high in tryptophan and some grape juice also helped.
The following is an account of what took place some time after 3am when I tried to relax. I recall now in the incident from the other day with Kundalini activity that I relaxed by focusing on my breathing and an energetic feeling concentrated at the third eye, pineal gland.
I'm changing my writing style so that all experiences are in the present form as if they are happening just so I can recapture the memory and feelings associated with it. Italics will be my thoughts as they happened. The following is an account of what took place.
Relax now, breathe in deeply. Energy concentrates in the forehead. I see swirls and faint shapes with closed eyelids. Soon magnetic force around the body feels like being in a bubble. Who's that? Someone is there, to the right. A woman, no a man. Doesn't matter, it's a person. I feel like hugging this person. The visual gets clearer and the person is singing a song with music playing. The person is disappearing. Another person. Now this is definitely a guy. I don't recognise him. Who do I know that has a beard? A few but definitely don't recognise him. He is singing. What language is he singing? Ok, I got to remember this word, oh and this one (I don't remember it now). I can feel an odd sensation in the brain stem.
They fade away and now I'm aware of something else. Oh my God! The arms, they're raising. Stay calm you're not possessed, just go with it. Whoa, I'm spinning. Maybe I've come out of the body. Fine, I've done this so many times. Easy. Rotating slowly several times. Whoosh, I go backwards, back in the direction of the body and bed. Again rotating. Something is happening to the brain stem. Energy charging almost like being electrocuted sensation. Something is tugging at it. Oh my God! I can't do this, they're snapping the stem. I know something is going to happen to the spine. It's the kundalini energy. Just relax now. Breathe in deeply, you can do this. Oh no! Now I'm aware, too aware of the body now, the tugging on the brain stem is unbearable. I can't do this have to snap out of it. Awake with eyes open. I don't think I can do this again, I'm not ready for anything this drastic.
I realise the travelling out of the body, the visuals and sounds were all there to distract me from what was happening to the body. I have several theories of what could actually be going on:
1. I'm dying
2. I have parasites in the brain ( I do feel a kind of movement inside the brain)
3. I have tumors and they're growing
4. It is Kundalini activity and it's extreme because my health is deteriorating
5. I have a brain chemical imbalance
6. I am possessed by some malignant spirit taking the piss out of me
7. I have some yet to be diagnosed illness of the brain
Wednesday, 17 January 2018
5am I am still trying my best to fall asleep. My mind is rampant with thoughts and then I simply decide to think about someone I absolutely love. This put my mind at ease and soon I began to relax. But not for long. I think I entered some kind of meditative state of mind. There is an electrical like feeling in my right hand. The electricity is coursing through the veins. A tingling current like charge travelling up into the neck region where I feel something is concentrating in the back of the neck. Something was happening to my entire body. My teeth began to chatter as my entire body was vibrating with this electricity funnelling throughout the veins.
I literally thought I was dying even though I had some feeling it was Kundalini related. This sort of stuff has not happened in so long and was completely unexpected. I remember some point the right arm lifted and I thought oh goodie I can move and snap out of this.
I got up just barely lifting my head and then a mans voice penetrated my ear drums, or perhaps it was really a voice in my head. "Stay still or your body will get destroyed, do not move at all" he said it with urgency but at the same time callously. I was beginning to worry that I really am possessed by some entity. I listened and decided to relax on the off chance that I could cause some serious damage if I moved because I myself was already convinced this energy feels dangerous. The energy continued to course through and I was at breaking point. I didn't think I could endure it for much longer and decided that either way I'm going to turn into a pancake. A burnt pancake. My brain was being fried!
If I opened my mouth even slightly my teeth would chatter and then I clenched them and noticed the energy was able to course through the body smoothly whereas opening mouth even a tiny bit meant struggling with the vibrating energy. I endured for quite some time.
I suddenly found myself in another place, another room. I am with a guy I get involved with sexually. It seems I know him and both of us are charged with a high amount of sexual energy. I realize he has receding hair line and could be much older than me. Suddenly he changes form and I wonder whether I am still with the same person. I feel his face and right before my eyes his from is changing. He is younger and better looking. I tell him that he is looking younger, that his look is transforming. He tells me that I am the one who is doing it and I realize that I was actually thinking about him becoming younger and different looking.
We get out of bed and walk into some kind of office. Suddenly I am smothering him with kisses, I seem to be madly in love with him. Feeling a very strange connection. After I kiss him a few times he has suddenly turned into a kid which leaves me shocked and I realize I need to stop. He gives me a very knowing look to imply that I really need to be aware.
I put him on the chair smiling embarrassingly. It was like The Curious Case of Benjamin Button. Suddenly I could feel that electricity still coursing through the body and soon I snapped out of it panting heavily. That was quite an experience so much that I kept thinking what might have changed internally. One of my thought was that something is with me. The hands floating, the voice it all seems related to some kind of possession. It was 6:10am and I decided not to dwell on it and try to catch up on sleep.
It was daunting because I seriously did not want to have to endure anything like that again. Still I closed my eyes trying to relax. I begin having very vivid dreams. I dreamed about my sisters going through a rough patch. I am in one sisters house eating peanut butter and chocolate muffins. In one dream there are various people with certain conditions, one looks like an actor I've seen before on tv shows, I think in 24 (president Logan). They seem like they've mutated somehow. I walk in with others and the energy seems to change. The actor seems to be channelling something very powerful in that room. He is saying that the one's that will win will be focused on their individuality or have an individual focus. Something along those lines. I woke up around 9:10am.
Moments later I felt like I had some strength in my arms, began lifting them to fight with it. It had a very magnetic like feel. As I pushed it away I felt my fingers were bending until eventually I just snapped out of it. Phew!