The Entities

I used Salvia last night at 11:20pm, chewing on bunched up leaves because they were too small. I can't even be sure how many I used, since I bunched up several small leaves and classed it as 1 medium leaf. I would say about 18 medium sized leaves were used.

The bitter taste was there but now tolerable. The chewing made me so aware of my jaw - next time need to chew softer and slower at first and then increasing tempo. While lying down I was still chewing and felt like my teeth had become soft then got worried I could be actually chewing harder than I think I am and cause severe damage.

15 minutes later chewing complete the effects had already kicked in. Swallowing the remaining bits of leaves became difficult. It was like I had no guts for it to pass down, it became stuck - this was worrying.

This time I don't recall a merging with my surroundings instead there was almost instantly an awareness of another reality. I was forgetting who I was. In two instances I had to remind myself of my name, I felt like I needed to do this otherwise who will remember this experience.

I sensed there were other entities, communicating something. With these entities I was forgetting myself and was being an entity like them. I was a part of their group. In a sense I was able to see them. They looked like they came out of some ancient tapestry and their form was aztec like and made of stone material. I was not seeing with physical eyes however, this seeing was different to the ordinary sense of seeing. It was more like a perception of them.

There was quite a bit of background noise which was bringing me back, in this state initially background sounds shift as well as one's perception of the physical surrounding but there comes a point where the physical senses are enhanced and can bring you back abruptly.

Upon return solar plexus vibrated, there was a vibration near my throat. Throat vibration was so intense I thought something would pull apart. I could tell I was still meshed between this reality and that other reality, there was an energy under my feet and I played with it trying to bridge the gap. Bridging the gap or some purpose like that had occupied my mind and I kept trying to use that same energy that animated both realities.

I wouldn't say I completely returned, it was definitely a slow process coming back and so just let sleep take over from there. Woke up abruptly from a dream I can't recall at 2am.