I am preparing now for winter period and being in a northern climate now is perfect time for deep dreaming and explorations.
I will be focusing on the following during this time:
Vivid dreaming - Jungian dream analysis
Lucid dreaming
Astral projection / OBEs
Remote viewing
Karmic healing
Biohacking
Astrohacking
I'm always biohacking, no matter what season this I'll always practice.
2025 has been another year of learning. So much growth this year. I have made some very profound discoveries.
In brief, the human form is like an electrical vessel with a field, a very energetic field all around it that can be manipulated. The field can be working optimally or with chaotic output input.
Your work is to repair and rebuild this field.
This year that is what I have been doing. Food, supplements self care are essential. It is more than just what you put in your body. I can't condense all this information in this one post.
I'll give an example of what I learned. We attract and repel people (other energies) based on the state of our field.
I have looked more in depth into neurotransmitters, have learned so much I can read people after getting to know them a little. Traits, habits everything helps with the analysis.
Often times we may attract characters that seem to be in conflict with our field - undesirable, bad unwanted players in this game of life. Sometimes these characters are undesirable but somehow we invite them through our field. Just the meeting of one person can have a ripple effect.
I had met one such person, following their traits, habits etc. Now she wasn't bad or undesirable, in fact we got along quite well but there some things that felt like I can do without.
She was a chronic smoker, a sharp intelligent woman whom I shared apartment with. Now this was a temporary arrangement but at some point the idea came to my mind and I am not sure how but I determined that if I could match the levels of the neurotransmitter she was stimulating it would, by my theory I had cooked up, repel her. So I experimented, lo and behold she had to leave after this and could not remain in the apartment.
I continued these experiments and still to this day carry on learning and growing.
When a person comes into your space whether desirable or not its because you bring some element to the field based on where you are and the growth you must do. They say like attracts like but actually two opposing forces attract just like a magnet.
In my situation I increased Acetylcholine levels to either match or surpass the levels of the woman in my space. The effect was instant. Now I don't go around matching my levels to that of those around me but I certainly do use it as a cue. I follow a map as a guide, when to increase which biochemistry in my body. And it's not just neurotransmitters, I also manipulate levels of hormones and other chemicals and processes in the body.
The biological system of the human form is essential to any spiritual development. By manipulating this bodily system effectively we can awaken all our special abilities that right now remain dormant.
Working to renew rebuild the field also helps attract positive experiences.
It has been an interesting year of experiments and I have so much to share.
From dream journal:
3rd July 2024
TIME TRAVEL OBE DREAMS
What if I told you we could travel through time?
I can't be sure how it started. But here's what I recall. It was probably 5:40am before I fell asleep after tossing and turning. My mind was occupied with how I was going to make banana chocolate coconut chip cakes. I have to utilize ingredients and have to use the kitchen within a certain time. I leaned sideways on my right side but felt uncomfortable.
I'm going out of body and this may have happened a few times. Suddenly I am somewhere with family. I see my eldest sister and wonder where my nephew is. When I spot him I realise he's the younger version. It took some time before I realised I might be dreaming. I became very lucid but the scene changed rapidly that I can't recall the transition between scenes.
In one OBE like event I was in a random bed and noticed another bed opposite which made me think I might still be dreaming. Lots of things must have happened in between but the following is the most significant.
Dining room scene: J lemonade soaked cashews which seems to annoy me. I think maybe I should smash it onto the ground and say it accidentally fell off. Then tamed my anger and simply moved. I look across near the door in the hallway (reality home) a woman stretching a shawl. I wonder if it's mum. I quickly follow her as she walks away but she is very short tiny like a child. I look at her but can't recognize the face. I go in kitchen walking past people I can't seem to recognize. I go out to the garden and memory of scene trails off here.
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I am outside sitting under a canopy tent with seat and table amongst strangers. We're having a lively discussion. I mention how it's hard to stay healthy with all the pesticides in food etc (very much a topic I discuss in reality). The others are saying things that I can't vividly recall atm. I then start talking about cancer and I realise that nobody is listening with a woman to my left and man in front of me. Both perhaps in their 50s or 60s. I ask them suddenly "What if I told you we could travel through time?" And then it hits me, suddenly as if I realized in that moment who I was (you know the 'me' that is writing this entry at this very moment) and knowing that I realized what I am doing there and how I got there. OMG. Quick think, where am I? I look around asking "Where is this? What is this place?" No, wrong question! "When is this place?"
Suffice to say the people around me by now thought I was a nutter lol
I ask a woman to my right who is standing "What year is it?" She mumbles something unintelligible, now thinking back I don't know if she was just taking the piss. I look at the man sitting in front of me asking rather urgently the same question and he very clearly replies "It's 2023" moving his mouth very slowly as if I was stupid. And with that I open my eyes transitioning back to reality or should I say 2024.
Woke up around 5:50am
Wow wow wow
This is my first proper time travel or at least the first I'm able to recall
I should note down here that last night I rapidly fell asleep and was in such a deep sleeping state but had my phone on loud that when I got two calls at two different times disturbing my sleep I was so groggy that I slipped back to sleep unable to stay awake. It was after 3am I woke up after about 7 hours with failed attempt to sleep some more but then around 5am tried to just relax. I have been experimenting with one of my formulas again. I had castor oil on my eyelids. I'm trying to think what exactly helped enter this state to repeat it
So I started this New Year with a bit of a bump on the road. There was an incident. A virus escaped. A lot of people died. The trouble was, they didn't stay dead. Okay just kidding guys lol. The flu wasn't that bad but almost did wipe me out. Doing a lot better now, trying to be good and kind to my body, eating as healthy as I can.
I put my biohacks on pause from winter period simply because just wanted to have a break from pill popping and tried my utmost best on incorporating more healing foods.
This year my intention is to adapt to a diet that is about 90% healthy as right now it's in the range of 60-70%. I think the focus should not be simply on foods but how a person eats too. Taking into consideration times to eat, what to eat and how to eat. Example chop food up and chew until it turns into a smoothie in your mouth.
I think there should also be an emphasis on various healing practices like yoga, pranayama breathing techniques etc. So I'll be doing more of this.
I'm going to be using hemisync too. I always seem lose track when doing the program. Need to find ways to make sure I utilize these practices. It's difficult when you have so little time.
My dreams past two days are on another level, feel like I am waking up in other peoples lives or different realities, too real to not be real. Often I wake up sensing the importance of the dream.
Example of a dream: There is an incident everyone was running looking up at the sky announcing that the sun is going to fall, later some mythical elephant and shark like creatures are frozen in ice. It would seem many eons later those same creatures were defrosting and coming back to life. The elephant was pulled up by some invisible force, not much recall after that but I woke up feeling like this acutally happened in some past existence. It's the feelings that come with the dreams that are more profound than the events.
Another dream which occured in this mornings second sleep phase was incredibly vivid. I was surrounded by a group of ethiopian women standing. I was lying down on a bed. I try to convince them of their special abilities with a focus on their third eyes. I tell them that the artwork based on them depicting big eye on middle of forehead is no creative endeavour, it is literally telling them about their powers. However it doesn't work and they slowly creep up closer to me, I close my eyes knowing there's not more I can do and then feel the sensation of the knife against left side of my head.
These do not feel like ordinary dreams, or maybe they are and because of the lucidity and vivid experience it feels almost the same as reality. Some days I cannot recall anything but will be keeping tranck.
Whilst I had the flu I slept around 20 hours yet barely had any dream recall. The sleep at this time was definitely healing.
I'll try to keep this blog updated.
As the year comes to a close I thought I might as well post some updates and what I have learned and discovered this year. The focus has been on biohacking and learning more about planetary influences dabbling in astrology but using my own intuition to guide me rather than learning from a book or other knowledge base.
My twin flame, and someone I considered a soulmate have all but completely disappeared from my life but this year I forged new acquaintances that have been like lessons in life. My dear mum passed away this year. Life is a balance of holding on and letting go...I believe it was Rumi who mentioned that.
I am curious what 2024 has in store, not just for me but the whole planet and its earthly inhabitants.
There is going to be some major solar flares coming up, a peak activity of the current solar cycle. Possible elections coming up both UK and US something that coincidentally brings about chaotic events. In the last one it was covid.
A lot has transpired throughout this year but the biggest change has been not using salvia.
I'll be continuing my focus on the biohacking. So far this winter I kind of took a step back as I feel I needed to reduce certain brain chemicals and wait for spring to emerge and then get the ball rolling. Also I have a feeling that spring is coming early. In some parts of the world there will be mini heatwaves as early as March especially in the UK.
There will also be even more focus on AI and advancing of technology and technological influences. Much of my biohacking is to do with the natural Human Intelligence (HI) and activating this not really so much to compete with AI but to become aware of the brain capacity that has always been available to humans.
It's a work in progress, I hope I can complete it in this lifetime or hopefully someone else can...
I have been learning and understanding more about astrology recently and more through direct experience rather than reading about it.
Of course there is some reading to do in order to understand some of the ways that different planets influence daily life. I've even gone ahead and sorted out a birth chart. There are some challenging stuff on there but also some good stuff.
Lunar eclipses have some major effect on me - it's not very pretty I'm afraid. Things get chaotic and out of hand. The most recent had me on edge and tested my levels of power and how others around me influence my level of power.
It's interesting beause there were a few very challenging aspects on this Lunar Eclipse on the 28th October; Mercury conjunct Mars and both these planets were opposition to Jupiter. I was very calm on this day to begin with but I think what happened is some of what I said on this day somehow triggered certain others. I could have easily avoided much of the struggles of this day if I had remained quiet but I felt I needed to express myself and in some ways glad as I had some startling revelations. But I am learning more about these influences and how to avoid these types of struggles.If I could rewind, turn back time and do things differently I would have avoided the confrontation but then I would not have had the revelations and it has set into motion some action that I think may be useful to me or just something that is meant to be. Next time I am going to be more mindful.
I think it's fair to say that on the next Lunar Eclipse I'll be hiding in some cave, far away from all opposing forces but I suppose these sort of things will catch up to you in some other ways.
I'm not a stranger to lunar eclipses and this wouldn't really be the first such chaos but it has so far been the most intense, so much that I really must take it all more seriously and cater my life around the cosmos.
Recently I'm also seeing some influence of various planetary aspects, some that sync with my birth chart. I've been focusing on the moon for quite some time and already know much of their influence on me but these extra planetary aspects paint a clearer more detailed picture. Solar Eclipse so far hasn't been all that eventful but the difference may be that the Solar Eclipse on 14th October did not have any other planetary aspects at the same time at least not to the degree it would bring up challenges.
Recent OBE took place on the 18th October 2023.
Most of the OBEs I have are spontaneous, no conscious effort on my part. Maybe just meditation when awakened from sleep which is basically WBTB technique.
I exited the body more than once until I was able to sustain awareness. A few times I met my mum, moments that I am still recalling.
In another trip I emerged in a world with large coloured almost plastic yet claylike structures. There was a deep feeling of familiarity and I remember thinking 'I've been here before'.
I'm going to attempt OBEs and deep dreaming in the coming months as we approach winter. I think this is the best time for these experiences. At the same time I'll be experimenting with deeper sleep states and healing.
I was about 20 years old at the time. Pitch blackness, eyelids closed. Suddenly I can see some light peering through but it was blurry although I could make out the figure of a person looking down at me. Then a woman saying my name and I think she asked if I could hear her, I started very lightly nodding my head.
It was only yesterday I began to think about this, thoughts came so randomly. One minute I'm enjoying a really tasty moin moin and the next these thoughts pop up out of nowhere.
I cannot recall anything except waking up at the hospital. Not much of an NDE in that sense except that I was either out of consciousness or clinically dead, something I never thought to enquire.
I wondered about this blankness, complete darkness and then coming back into consciousness. Did I have an NDE and my brain has completely blocked me from it? I started to think about every aspect of my life after this, realized the sudden dramatic changes that seemed to have occured in me. Things I've never thought about before.
I started gradually getting interested in the afterlife, ghosts, spirits, astral projection, out of body experiences, dreams and lucid dreams. Then I became keenly interested in law of attraction, focusing on self development. I really shapeshifted in a sense, no longer my former self. A self I couldn't recognise. It was after all the first 20 years of my life and I suppose that is when you start to build particular interests and move in a certain direction so at the time since the incident occured I didn't think much about it. In fact, at first I didn't think much at all. I was somewhat numb to thoughts and emotions.
Previous to this NDE I didn't think much about God, may have pondered a few times growing up but I didn't have faith like anyone following a religion. However after the incident I became drawn to the idea that God is wathching me and will guide me. I recall one day silently sitting down and automatically praying feeling a presence telling me that everything was going to be alright. I remember being in a car heading to one of my sisters house where I was staying for several months after the incident, looking out the window not a bird in sight and I said to God to send me a sign that he is with me, I asked him to send a bird in the sky. In that moment a flock of birds flew by, then more birds followed. This made me feel joyful and very much at peace.
I remember after getting deep into metaphysical topics I encountered the topic of walk-ins. As I read more into it I had a feeling it happened to me but soon went straight into denial and stopped looking into it altogether.
Yesterday when I thought about that incident and reviewing my past since that point it became so undeniably obvious to me that I ended up feeling all the pented up emotions . I did some major releasing. Letting it all out, some part of me was grieving. But what part and why? I've hid this from my own self for almost two decades now. It's amazing what the brain can block out. There was clearly something that held me back from accepting that the walk-in happened. What about the NDE if I did have one? Now I need to figure out if I had even died or simply lost consciousness. I don't know how long I was at the hospital, all sense of time had warped.
The knowing is very undeniable to me, when you know something you just know it. I have looked up some of the symtpoms of a walk-in and can relate to almost all of it except the negative aspects. I would say since that incident I have grown into a much stronger person which I know most would think happens with age. I have found it very easy to grasp spirituality and spiritual concepts, as it comes very naturally.
Also I don't think this body has had one walk-in, I think there have been a few others after this which may have occured during an excursion with salvia.
I'm going to do some time travelling soon, not in the sense you might think. I have to travel back into the time of the incident that led me to the ICU at the hospital. Retrieve the memory and gain some understanding from that point. I will be activating acetylcholine and GABA neurotransmitters for this purpose and be very clear with my intentions.
In the upcoming posts I'll be sharing as much as I can about biohacking with the various lunar cycles or moon phases. This is the process I am using at the moment.
There are 4 check points in the lunar cycle, New Moon, First Quarter, Full Moon and Third Quarter Moon. In between these are other points such as Gibbous waning etc but these are the main. So for the time being I will focus on these checkpoints.
I am drafting all this atm to put in a book which will be published soon but for the time being sharing brief information on this blog in order to share my journey so far.
Within each of these checkpoints the brain is using a predominant neurotransmitter.
New Moon to First Quarter Moon
The focus is on increasing Acetylcholine. This is a very powerful neurotransmitter and it's important not to overdo it as with any of the other neurotransmitters but this one specifically can fry your brain. But when done cautiously and producing just the right amount it produces the most amazing results. With peak levels my brain has worked super sharp, dreams are also a lot more vivid. The levels should rise gradually and a peak should be experienced on the First Quarter Moon. Acetylcholine in my view is like the alpha of the neurotransmitters, the beginning starting point, without it we can't produce two other vital neurotransmitters which we will see in the next checkpoint. In this phase the focus is on setting intentions and goals. Dreams can be vivid as acetylcholine increases REM sleep.
First Quarter Moon to Full Moon
Once there is peak level of Acetylcholine on the First Quarter Moon it should help jumpstart the next main neurotransmitter of focus. That would be serotonin, the "happy molecule". There should be surges of creativity and joyful feelings. Emotions get really charged by full moon. Another neurotransmitter that works alongside this one is dopamine, the chemical for reward and motivation. Both are implicated in mood disorders and depression. There is also likely to be some gender based differences, maybe men need more dopamine than serotonin - something I am still working on understanding. Positive thinking is useful at this time but if we have enough neurotransmitters this shouldn't need to be practiced, it should happen naturally. There should be a gravitation towards positive thoughts, optimism and a heightened sense of gratitude. Practice is still helpful especially if needed, as most people have been programmed to think negatively and also when the body is out of balance due to toxins etc.
Full Moon to Third Quarter Moon
By Full Moon dopamine should be peaking. Subsequently this is followed by neurotransmitters synthesised from dopamine - norepinephrine and epinephrine. We need them in smaller amounts and for shorter time. Norepinephrine is needed to help produce melatonin, so if we have produced adequate serotonin in previous checkpoint then melatonin production should be a breeze. Stay away from artificial light and sleep in the dark to help the melatonin production. Followed by this there is a surge of gamma amino butyric acid (GABA). GABA is an inhibitory neurotransmitter with calming relaxing effects. It helps with deep restful sleep and surges are seen during the night sleeping hours. This is where deep dreaming takes place and we experience NREM sleep. As we move towards the Third Quarter Moon some enzymes that help break down neurotransmitters such as Mono amine oxidase (MAO) and others that breakdown histamine are also present. These are essential for the detoxification process and a necessary component to manage the levels of neurotransmitters.
Spiritually we can take the time to review our goals and how we have manifested during this cycle, those deep dreaming can reveal what we need to know at this time.
Third Quarter Moon to New Moon
This is the detoxification phase. This phase is vital and the focus is on elimination of toxins. The best way to eliminate toxins is a healthy balanced diet and eating lots of fibre especially during this phase. Don't let waste in your body stagnate. Probiotics can be helpful as most people may have destroyed their gut through heavy pesticide food.
Spiritually we can use this time for deeper introspection. As questions before falling asleep and all is revealed through dreams. Review the entire lunar cycle.
This is just a very basic map. There's so much more to it such as hormones during each phase, various hormones work alongside the different neurotransmitters. I've also left out other neurotransmitters.
In my view I believe women are meant to synchronize their menstrual cycle with the moon phase. My menstrual cycle did synchronize at one point but something changed and I'm just working that out - the most important thing for women to focus on is having a healthy normal menstrual cycle. The checkpoints may be different for men and women.
I think using the map is easier for women as more scientific research is available and studies about female hormones and the menstrual cycle. I think generally though the moon map paints a pretty decent picture of the predominant neurotransmitters for men and women. For children it is much different as their developing brains are dependent on GABA levels more than the other neurotransmitters.
The changing seasons play a major role in neurotransmitter levels which means geolocation will greatly impact the requirements of neurotransmitters with spring and summer as a period of increase of the excitatory neurotransmitters. Autumn and winter we see more of the inhibitory neurotransmitters with sleep becoming deeper and more restful.
I have been doing this research in the past few years, deepening my level of understanding and even using myself as a guinea pig. It has not been easy but an interesting journey. I have had a bumpy ride along the way, nothing is ever smooth sailing but I've learned a lot through my mistakes. In the upcoming posts I will be sharing some basic formulations for increasing these neurotransmitters such as various supplements and practices.
What I've discovered from doing all this is that it really has heightened my level of intuition and energy. I want to go much deeper though as I feel I have only touched the surface. I have been able to increase psychedelic types of experiences but very briefly. I have also increased basic levels of awareness and mental states, such as deep restful sleep (and unfortunately even messed it up), motivation, creativity, focus, mental math, photographic memory to name a few.
Venus retrograde started on 23rd July 2023 and it has been quite a very significant aspect so far in my love life and most relationships. Since that day there have been other aspects that have been chaotic particularly pluto square true node which occured 3 times towards the end of July.
In general I feel a lot of work needs to be done to transition through these planetary aspects smoothly. Proper nutrition and heavy metal detoxification is key to this process.
Also had a thought pop into my head, birds of a feather flock together when listening to an astrologer talking about the mercury retrograde which took place between December 2022 and January 2023. On the 1st of January 2023 there were major flight cancellations. My understanding is that majority of people who planned their bookings were likely accumulating heavy metals in the system. The combination of heavy metals and other present toxins in each person can vary but it creates a vibrational state that made them book the flight on that date with that particular airline.
I've seen people make very important major plans during certain lunar phase. New Moon often to start some kind of project. People do it unconsciously.
Heavy metals means lots of flight delays, malfunctioning tech and communications issues will take place in upcoming Mercury Retrograde. The same of course applies to Venus Retrograde.
It's useful to be aware what comes up for you and work.
The key takeaway is heavy metal detox and prevention. Remove common toxins you may be exposing yourself to.
I'm going to do quarterly updates or at least try. In the first quarter my dear mother passed away yet her spirit is still with me so that has been a major event so far. I did grieve at first but as time went on it became clearer that she was still with me.
I started a new relationship since January when my mum was still alive and this has been ongoing.
I am continuing the biohacking but hasn't been effective in the previous lunar cycle but I'm trying in current lunar cycle. It might've been effective though as I dealt with grief in a healthy way which has more to do with serotonin. I'm playing around with new ideas and concepts. Mostly looking forward to new formulas. I'm also occupied with a lot of work stuff which is keeping me busy.
I'm using astrology and astrologic data. As March 2023 comes to an end Ramadan begins. I'm working out my vibration and the effects of biohacking application. March was pretty stressful month so much to focus on so little time...
I have been meaning to do an update, but life had taken an unexpected turn. My mum was quite unwell from last year. Her health was declining and I did my best to help and support her.
In many ways I had become her mother, trying to nurture her and be there whenever she needed me. The older me would've said I sacrificed a lot but the newer me the more understanding mature version now says what I gave up pales in comparison to what she gave me.
It took her death to make me realise how deep and unconditional her love was for me. My heart was fully open and receptive. Even now I can feel her with me. Though her body had grown weak and had lost the will to hang on, her spirit lingers still.
Since her death some interesting things have happened. One event involved lights flickering and going out and another is she's communicating with my sister through dreams. But another of my sister is having pretty dark dreams.
Along with my mums death there's some new events and incidents that have coming and her passing is kind of a catalyst for that change.
Whilst I did grieve and feel empty without her, the physical shell I was used to, a deep sense of appreciation awakened within. I felt deep heartfelt gratitude for having her in my life for as long as I have.
I tried to connect with the other side journeying with Salvinorin A but have put it aside for now. The thought came to me that I should use the candle flame where in the past I was able to see beings forming. That is irrelevant though especially with the way I am already communicating with her.
I almost died (NDE)
woke early 3ish AM browse phone back to sleep by 6:45amLunar cycle biohacking - I'm doing the biohacks as best I can. Acetylcholine gave me crazy dreams and made my brain feel to wired. It was however powerful for cognition almost to the point I felt like a supermachine accessing the matrix. I was going through a wordsearch puzzle which previously took me long to solve. With acetylcholine all I did was say the word and my eyes would dart to the exact location. Problem is the stuff I used came with side effects such as nightmares and mental fatigue. I have successfully increased other neurotransmitters. Something is up with dreaming, I tend to have bad recall. The iodine however does improve recall but I forget to take
Conspiracy theories - I have been reading through https://wespenre.com/ levels of learning. Very profound material and there's plenty of info on past lives. If I could successfully raise my acetylcholine with a better formula I just might be able to digest it in a shorter time. There's definitely something going on behind the scenes
Overcoming fears - this is something I'm trying to work on. As a human race we are operating on too much fear. Our everyday life is based on it
Currently some of the biohacking I'm doing involves working around the lunar cycle which can get pretty intense.
A new cycle is approaching, 4 more days. During each phase of the moon there's a predominant neurotransmitter. And in each phase there are set of hormones and bodily processes that are activated. One example is the phase between third quarter and new moon - this is the major detox phase and just at the start the brain has more GABA.
If things are unbalanced in the body (toxins etc) then things are not going to be great and especially if you are a woman of childbearing age and you are nearing your menstruation, if so then the body will get prepared to clear out excess hormones etc.
Both men and women may feel like unwinding, relaxing at this time. To heal and detox efficiently the body needs plenty of rest and lots of relaxation.
We are currently in this phase. I managed to somehow get laryngitis which I think is more toxin related than viral. I'm slowly healing and will be working on detoxing as much as I can but there's that run down feeling and a need to rest. I also feel myself mentally slowing down which seems to be part and parcel of this final phase of current lunar cycle.
This phase is also a time I take to review all the events of lunar cycle. The goals and intentions I set up at the beginning of current cycle will be reviewed in the next few days and events that have taken place.
In the coming cycle I'll be sharing what happens during each phase. I'm still learning so there's still much to discover. I have already achieved activating certain functions and state of mind.
The most profound thing happened some time ago in the last two years. I experimented with a formula that helped raise acetylcholine levels, all of a sudden I was able to calculate from the top of my head without a calculator. At the time I remember going supermarkets and calculating the cost of my shopping. Which sounds easy enough but I have always been terrible and quite slow with numbers so much that in the moments of releasing acetylcholine I became a human calculator. The same functions were active whilst doing calculations on the computer. Without the calculator.
Again I'm still learning and I have sort of mapped it all out. Currently using lunar cycle as a guide.
Some functions I want to awaken include better use of language. I'm a lifelong dreamer so I definitely want to enhance my dreamtime. I don't care for lucid dreams much, I'd much rather have those epic adventure type dreams. I definitely want improved memory functions.
There's no limit to brain / cognitive functions I'll probably start compiling a list to work on.
Just as I approached 2022 I had the chance to experiment with some MJ. This very potent natural herb from mother nature connects with the Endocannabinoid system.
I had I think 2 or 3 opportunities to experiment. What I discovered is a symbiosis when you partake in this herb with others, kind of like the rastas when they sit and pass the pipe and connect to Jah together.
On one occasion having taken a hit whilst outdoors and then back indoors entering that other state around family.
My nieces were over for the holidays. I stood beside the door mostly concerned with my eldest sister who was very quiet - for her it does wonders on the arthritis and mellows her mood. I observed my nieces playing talking mucking about. I came upon the realisation that the state I was in, children are already naturally in that state. You can say their Endocannabinoid system is naturally operating as it should- for some reasons us adults have an impaired Endocannabinoid system that we need some plant medicine to get us hooked up again.
The other occasion was similar- just found myself very connected to that other state except I was around family. I even watched a movie (Spy) and everything about it was intense. Me and my sister would laugh in unison with a very similar laughter. Of course I have to take care of my lungs so I did not take it that often. My blood sugar was dropping that pasta with cheese just didn't cut it. I needed to throw in some jam for a bit of flavour. People get the munchies because blood sugar levels drop.
Something that did become a habit was me incessantly chewing gum.
I had no idea how bad it was until my family would express their disgust. I can't blame them, my chewing was bad. I became so hooked I needed 2 or 3 pieces of gum at the same time.
So that's pretty much how I rolled into the New year. I also started off having relationship issues with my boyfriend but I stayed calm and patient and I told him that I am working on some New Years resolutions.
I told my twin flame whom I sometimes communicate with that I'm working on a biohack that helps you fall in love. You can fall in love without being in a relationship and I especially wanted to figure it out for him as he is in a loveless marriage. Most people unfortunately are in loveless companionships these days and that's such a tragedy. Really, it does break my heart.
All of a sudden a new guy comes into my life. Like a gust of wind. I ignored the calls and texts as I am super paranoid when I get calls from unknown numbers. Suddenly he would call me more than my current boyfriend at the time. He made me realise my own suspicions; that the relationship I was in was doomed. After a lot of soul searching I ended relationship with boyfriend.
I told my twin flame about it and I shared the name of the substance that I was going to try; phenylthalamine (PEA). This is released when people fall in love. The key is to try with MAO inhibitor such as hordenine.
Meanwhile I was still speaking with new guy.
To cut a long story short I fell in love with the new guy. The funny thing is I had yet to try my new substance. He certainly had qualities that I never really thought about. He was a very simple humble guy. He was certainly not my type. It just happened so suddenly but some time after getting to know him. I tried to rationalise my feelings by telling myself it was the chewing gum.
The chewing gum has aspartame which is a source of phenylalanine which converts to PEA, the very substance that is released when people fall in love - the one I've been meaning to get hold of and experiment with. Such is my life, so serendipitous.
At one point there was so much love overfilling my heart that I begged God for his mercy. It reminded me of a euphoric experience when I did a liver flush. But just as quickly as this guy randomly found me he departed.
I'm not sure if I can call it romantic love, or the possesive obsessed kind because there was none of that. And I know what it's like to be infatuated, I think it happened once when I binged on chocolate which also releases PEA except it made me feel lovesick over a guy at the queue in a supermarket who didn't even so much as look at me.
It was an eye opener and it made me realise that I wasn't in love with my ex boyfriend whom I even considered marriage with. And I learned the most important lesson of my life, never marry unless you're in love. Sounds like common sense but people have no idea in seeking relationship just how much of it is dictated by fear. Love is fearless. And I believe this love is in our heart ready and waiting to be tapped into and sometimes you meet someone and they can trigger it.
The PEA is something I will still experiment with. However it isn't something to take all the time and can be dangerous with side effects.
I'm thinking to use just before full moon as I think that neurotransmitter release are based on the moon's position. Different neurotransmitters are dominant in different phases.
It's been a while since my last post...life has been a rollercoaster ride in that time and the added pressure of the plandemic hasn't helped much. There is major division now between people than any other time especially in the last few decades. We are currently at war and the war is a psychological one. Being brainwashed by all the propaganda etc I can literally see many people walking down the plank voluntarily. It deeply saddens me but the brain dead can no longer be helped. Àll over the world authorities are destroying and corrupting people. Still there's hope...maybe
Despite all this going on all around me I'm trying my best to gain access to the furthest reaches of my brain...it's hard work!
I have been working on biohack formulas, some work and others are quite dangerous. Need to becareful with this...I press one wrong button and the brain can turn to mush
I haven't bothered with Sally, she stains my teeth now which is why I'm working on the biohack formulas
In the last few months I have learned quite a bit about the lunar cycle, just like nature and all the natural cyclic events, tidal waves etc the human body was also designed to be in tune with it. So I am currently using the lunar cycle as a map
With the biohacking I have only managed to reach the basic states of mind that correlate with various emotions but need to go much deeper than that and that's where the binaural beats come in. I'm doing deep intense research and experimentation for this and yet still there is room for improvement
I'll try to post more updates on any breakthroughs as well as the formulas I'm using
Salvia Starlings Murmurations 30th November 2020 Full Moon
Very Profound Dreams
My dreams are changing. I think it could be due to several things combined which is having an overall intense effect.