If nobody is real then who am I?

10/02/2014
Nobody was at home the others arranged so that house is empty for what was about to take place.
I read online about the words I am, is used as a mantra. I soaked leaves walking around chanting I am and looking at the beings embedded in the surrounding making them aware of my attempt. In times long gone language was different word I am wasn't used but it's the name the word it's the feeling that those words no matter in what language evoke. Without even taking salvia as I looked around me I got the same kind of sense and visual I get on Salvia.  I got started with the chewing. Going deep so many realizations came at once one was about bible as I saw the beings unravel I realized they were not about human beings like current day human beings they were about these beings. Our nature was different more holistic. I kept focus on I am entering whole state of mind as usual breath leaving, dead state but then throat keeps swallowing salvia. Like throat or some other part of body trying to indicate that I'm not quite dead. Then something extraordinary happens, the realization that no body really exists is present, they're all part of mind, like imagination but this has happened before why is it so extraordinary now because the reality of it hit me so hard I would liken it to trauma. I had tears dropping and that sensation was phenomenal. I was able to shout out though I didn't need to.

I demanded if those around me are not real and part of the mind then who am I. I asked loudly strongly clearly and the answer came to me in a knowing sense. I could feel a wave of beings rushing and felt something was about to happen. The light ceiling came to life everything was alive and dancing and moving. The answer is there, in the very atmosphere, in the surroundings. A part of the mind does not want to accept it, accept the fact that I am God. I am the God in the bible, I am what Jesus meant by "the father and I are one", I am the human God of the Egyptian times I am the servant that becomes one with the Lord in the Guru granth sahib. I am the very God in every creation. The Self of the Self. I am. Meditate mantra I am, the feeling it arouses is important. This is what Krishnamurti meant when he said Is not the observer the observed?