Mouth Entrance

In the afternoon, decided to try the 20x extract once again, just a pinch.

I smoked it in the bong which is making a difference, less harsh.

Again I was expecting to get thrusted out of here, completely losing any sense of reality. The initial effect comes on immediately. Fluttering around peripheral vision like a vibration, the exact same thing is occuring as it does with quidding only rapidly and even surprisingly smoother. Beings are present, my awareness is fixated on the unravelling of physical reality, breaking apart like everything revealing understanding nature of this reality as usual but each time feels like I am understanding something different.

We're all going, about to depart and I hold on, trying to understand what was this existence I was living still unable to let it go. Suddenly I recall the people I have encountered trying to understand the nature of their being. My mum shows up, but it wasn't my mum not in the sense of this world but just the visual of her only she was worn by something that I never get to see. I am slightly stunned.  The beings have surrounded me, we look to be connected. They're inside the blood.

I can feel this earthly world and its drama, coming back someone is walking in the hallway. I open  my eyes and quickly close them seeing that phenomena is occurring again where they can see the physical reality directly through this body.

I sense it to be my brother, he knocks on my door and I respond that I'll talk to him later. My eyes were open as I spoke, realized they were watching me taking a keen interest in the way I moved my mouth and the sounds produced. The way they were observing was like I and this earth realm was some kind of museum piece.

I close eyes trying to go deeper again. My mouth opens involuntarily - I don't realize this until one by one they try to get inside through my mouth, reminds me of the time when certain beings got inside the ears.

I blow out rapidly, pushing out whatever force was trying to get inside the body. I don't think I am ready to trust these beings. I tell them they are not allowed inside without my permission. Soon there's that intense sexual arousal and I pondered this arousal could be a portal through which they can be released or if handled correctly they can be converted into some kind of creative energy.

A lot of familiar kundalini symptoms take place.

Something happens to the head,  like drawers on each side being pushed closed. Head pressure, third eye pressure. Fluttering and energetic movements around the body. I open eyes and there are red and white sparks to one side, vibration of light and shadow on the walls. I think deeply trying to memorize how to write about this until I realize they're still observing me. I say to them in my mind "I'm sorry, where are my manners? Hello and welcome."

Later on still relaxing my fingers had some electrical tingling sensation and other internal bodily sensations and movements. The head pressures are constant.

MJ Trip 4 - Hemi-sync TGE and The Shaman's Heart

In the evening (7pm) smoked a very small amount (mini bong), smooth, no cough just a feeling of expansion in the lung. Breathing changed. Effects immediate.

In bedroom allow the involuntary movements to take place. Body and mostly head feels like it is floating. Winding hips, I get the impression trying to dance and then head falls back and usually this is a signal to lie down.

As usual sensory perception intensifying. Throat closing up feeling, mouth very dry and numbness taking over.

Relaxed, in bed got Hemi-sync TGE track 'free flow' ready. In this track the more I relaxed I could hear voices, seemed like they were embedded in the track. I wonder if at the time of recording this audio some of the background voices were captured. Or it could be I was hearing others around me. At other points I felt I was in the TV sets or around others near to me. Going deep with the audio after this track is over which I think was around 40 minutes, I play 'The Shaman's Heart' drum like music with sounds of nature.

It's beautiful, I am completely immersed in each tone. As if completely a part of the music simply riding the wave. Body swaying in a dancy motion as I type all this, I do look possessed - fortunately I have control over it so in public or around others I don't look like I've lost my mind. However, I feel now it's so very important I give more time to these movements, there's this feeling that if I don't whatever is controlling the movements will start making a public display.

There were bodily sensations, which I did not pay much attention to but they were present.

I think this herb has powered up the movements making them more smoother and maybe the music has made the movements more dance like. There's a constant swaying.

I fell asleep and awakened around midnight. Felt inspired to make notes on the manifestation process as I intend to explore this.

Creative Process with Salvia

I've had this occur numerous times with Salvia, where I feel like the others are asking me to make some kind of request. I'm considering that maybe they are asking me for a set of instructions, it feels like that now.

Before I started the session this morning I was in a very positive and appreciative mood, and I did this thing where knowingly I decided that I was going to die, which meant letting go of everything physical - so in a sense I was trying to do the dying process before actually dying, because Salvia can make it difficult to let go of ones physical reality. I find this so with both quidding and extract.I've noticed over time that my resistance to the death process of Salvia has increased.

 I chewed a very small amount of leaves from a new batch, remembering this time to chew it for at least 10 minutes. The initial effects were not immediate and not as strong as usual, I think something has smoothed out. I can be certain now MJ has made a connection that has allowed Salvia experiences to funnel with a lot more clarity.

Today's experience was based on Law of Attraction something that I have been thinking about past few days. I understood the synchronicities to be a part of the same thing that allowed manifestation of thought.

For the most part this is how I perceive it, the beings that are always present seemed to be the ones actively arranging reality in sync with the content of my mind.Whatever is the content of the mind, all the thoughts are instructions and these beings create a scenerario / incident or events to form the image in mind.

This time as the unravelling took place, going deeper being carried away realizing the creative process and the significance of the instruction I quickly opened my eyes and thought about making a request of some kind. It seemed like I had to be very clear with the thoughts. Will be looking into my past manifestions and explore with new ones. For the most part I realize I'm already setting instructions - everyday thoughts and feelings are specific instructions.

When you look at an object and consider how that object came to be made, think of all the thoughts that went into it. These thoughts are like actual living entities, masquerading in a sense pretending to be the object of our thought.

Or it could be that the beings that seperate as components are simply what I have conjured up using a more deeper layer of the mind. A possibility to consider.

MJ Trip 3 - The Missing Link

Today for the third time trying out MJ. Yesterday had an urge to take a few hits but timing was not right.

I am writing this 4 hours after the initial effects kick in.

MJ, maybe one bud smoked this morning (using mini bong), did not hurt throat, no cough - very very smooth. Effects instantaneous. Water has made a huge difference, though I felt it was intense holding smoke in lungs.

At first just relaxing into it. That fluttering was present, my physical reality based involuntary movements were being carried through into that other state. That other state has been causing these involuntary movements, it is like something from there coming through. Just writing about it is making it stronger, swaying in a dance like movement. My head rotates and then the body is motioned to follow. Round, round, round and round I go. They want me to spin, to make me dizzy? Not the first time. This seems urgent. Something about this rotation perhaps I should try getting dizzy.

I relax, lie down on the bed. Relaxing I hear what sounds like the TV. Sister in other room, she is watching something on her phone. It probably isn't as loud as it sounded to me there. Sounds intensifying. Sounds and sensations being completely removed, but I'm feeling the entire process smoothly. With Salvia this ending process at times can be abrupt.

I feel this herb is doing what Salvia can't - taming and fine tuning the physical operations to a certain degree. Insights have come to me to take this herb whilst listening to hemi-sync audio.

Eventually recalled this in that state, luckily my mp3 player is right next to me on the side of the bed. Get it prepared and listen to free flow - free to do whatever I want in Focus 10 state. My body all this numbing and becoming almost sleep like is Monroe's F10 level. Or maybe much deeper than that?

Something happened to the language center, the thoughts in my head were were in a rambled language, sounded alien completely foreign but making sense in what I was thinking. 

I go deeper into sounds, deep and deep into the hemi-sync audio, hearing things intensely - certain sounds that I don't hear in the ordinary waking consciousness. There are sounds of crackling, and a movement and sensations based on the hemi-sync audio. I should relax go deeper, meditate but certain other worldly matters and thoughts occupy my mind. Some things I need to do in physical reality, should have sorted this out, my timing for this herb was too impulsive.

Earthly matters and concerns need to be tucked away, should not go there tied down, only at the time did not realize these things would come up.

I sense the others around me, as well as the influences. It's the same sense I get with Salvia, only with this herb there is something different, like I'm understanding something more clearer.

Half way through the audio I start to feel far too sexually aroused and the sensations of the body arise based on these thoughts.

Interestingly the effect on others I know is completely different. These others seem to recall a feeling of complete starvation and end up getting the munchies. For me my body and sensations dull to the point everything shuts down to a degree, not completely. One of them is taste, smells change in an interesting way like I sense the falseness of it all. One person has spoke of another experience where she was slowly losing her vision, eventually got to a point where she was looking out of a whole. Her conclusion was that what she had the stronger strain of this herb.

It has nothing to do with the strain of the herb, maybe more to do with the disposition of the individual taking the herb and other factors could be the process or method of ingestion.

I don't like the smoking in general, not sure I'll keep up with this. Did some research yesterday, I think I need to start baking.

Must also continue listening to hemi-sync with this as well as trying it after a fast and only when I have no preoccupations. Complete silence is not a problem, in this state sensory perceptions are fine tuned to the point of muting, the only hindrance are the thoughts.

The Relevance of Fasting

I've been pondering why fasting is essential to the process, whatever that process is. First thoughts - has to do with cleansing and just removing the body of unnecessary content.

After today's experience I think it is because as the body shuts down the digestive process also shuts down. Now ordinarily in normal sleep we don't need to be concerned about the digestive system and we are naturally in that deep kind of awareness that seems to not have anything to do with the body.

I'm thinking this is key to exploring the Salvia terrain deeper for longer durations even though time as we know it does not exist there. Something to do with linking ordinary waking consciousness with that other awareness.

I feel the purpose of fasting for Salvia excursions may be due to the body shutting down in order to hold an awareness of that state.

Or it could be that state causes or alters the physical body and physical as well as mental emptiness is required.

Fasting is something I've been experimenting with for the past two years and even before that. My main reason was for a cleansing as I've noticed my health improves and energy levels increase. I am bit of a health nut or at least I have become one over the years so I've cleaned up my eating habits.

In the salvia trips it is like my own stomach is communicating with me. For the most part the Salvia beings are telling me to be consistent with my fasting. Another thing is emotional hold over food, most people will actually eat because they are bored or they want to taste some kind of flavour and I've noticed this in myself.

I've also become aware that the body's sustenance does not come directly through food. Food is some kind of idea attached to the idea of the body, but the body being an idea visualized, materialized does not directly depend on the idea of food. Does this mean I should starve this body? To consider that would mean the idea that food provides sustenance to the body is still held in ones frame of mind. So to go without food (or at least for long periods) is really me swapping one idea for another idea, the body is sustained by some unknown source, no doubt the same source that sustains all other ideas.

I think I'm using or the body has changed or opened (like a machine getting fixed or programmed) in a way that would suggest that it is operating in a dynamic way. The other night I slept on my side with left ear pressing against the pillow and there was that familiar music, at first it sounds like a beating almost as though I'm directly hearing my heart beat pulsing into the ear drums and if I relax going deeper I can hear the music. It sounds like it is coming from inside the body.

MJ trip 2

My second time attempt with mj.

Last night smoked, oh my god - the cough was frightening.
Had to smoke outside, quite windy.
I've never coughed like this in my entire life. What a strange cough - it was fake sounding yet I thought I was going to die, like my lungs were somehow going to explode. Maybe I sucked in some of the wind blowing across and it caused an adverse reaction.

 At the same time I thought it won't do anything. A very tiny bud and I felt I was not smoking it right - I keep doing this feeling like whatever I will take won't work because I either did not take enough or I did not take it properly only to be proved wrong.

This herb is proving to be very meditative. The effects kicked in rapidly, back inside the house the disorientation was intense. I sat on the bed - the TV on, sister watching my favourite tv shows. She was watching 3 or 4 episodes and I listened to it all - each one made reference to sex which is odd.

I get the same feeling like I do on Salvia, only it's different. There's that feeling reality is not real as well as visuals implying the false nature of reality.

When the characters speak in the show I can feel the sentence in my head, like the sounds produced were echos of what was in my mind. It was like knowing what would be said next but not quite, more like feeling what was coming out as it came out.

My involuntary body movements making more sense now, in that state what I perceived myself to be is making movements. I went with the movement. My head turned to the right and remained still, right now this instant it is moving a little more, swaying the head.

I got in bed - the experience was very sexual, not in a lustful way, it was very spiritual and intense.

Salvia 20x extract

Salvia 20x extract and plain leaf yesterday afternoon:

A pinch of the extract with plain leaf. 3 hits. There was a sensation in the throat, closing up - I think part of the breathing stopping. I'm aware of the others. A dismembering of the body takes place, I was not ready to let the body go. Disrupted the process. The experience similar to quid method.

20x extract this morning:

Lasted 10 minutes. 3 Hits

On first hit I was being too quick, on second reminded myself to put pipe down before I exhale. The usual effects kick in with quidding this part takes 8-10 minutes of chewing process. I take a third hit that throat numbing and reality shifting has taken place with closed eyes.

I recall feeling like the extract was going to be too intense. I had some preconceived notions of how it was to take place and it was not as crazy as I imagined it to be. In fact almost identical to the quidding but just instant.

Lying down ready, legs are being dimembered (quite literally the beings are revealing themselves as made up parts of the legs). I remain still, me and others ready to go somewhere. Cessation of breathing and body numb. Body is shutting down.

I open my eyes and mouth abrubptly remembering what it is like to breathe. Want to see what its all about in relation to the reality in which I'm focused. They make a cracking sound coming from either the radiator or tablet. On the tablet I have prepared word app to write about this experience. I was concerned they may try to interefere with my electronic devices. They have made an attempt once to suck a kind of force out of my computer with me protesting.

They definitely want to take me somewhere or something. I think they might be annoyed that I keep holding onto the body. Opening eyes I pondered deeply about the state one finds themselves in with Salvia - it is a state akin to the death of the body. I feel that I need to meditate and get to this specific state where the body is in sleep mode.

I kept thinking about this meditation all the while being observed by the others.

My expectation with the extract was to be flunged in some whole other reality, maybe that is where I was to go with the other beings but my curious nature abrupted the process. I have to stop studying this process and simply let go. I know one thing now and actually I've always known it, the body has to become mute in a sense, mind absolutely clear.

The fluttering around the eyes is just as strong as it is with quid method. I could feel and see visually beings operating near head region. Specifically near third eye area. They looked to be worshipping or praising. I felt it - something in the middle here, they are tyring to do something to it.