Bee or Wasp Totem Dream Clarity

Yesterday I had food containing more b vitamins but no supplements which is what I wanted to experiment with. I woke up from a very clear dream but is a bit hazy now. I recall there was a wasp or bee present.

Dreams are so much clearer now. Past few days have had some incredibly horrible detox symptoms (due to iodine supplementation). Back pains associated with kidneys and extremely foul urine that caused major burning which could be due to toxins being passed as well as some unusual mood swings, probably explains the zombie nightmare.

Nightmares dreams using iodine and vitamin b connection

I read somewhere that b vitamin, in particular vitamin b6 can induce dreams or give better recall. If you can't recall dreams apparently is a sign of b vitamin deficiency.

I experimented a little with this and for a few days have been eating food with the b vitamins. Yesterday drank iodine mixed in water and painted on soles of feet.

This morning recalled some incredibly vivid dreams. One dream was related to my cousin, in reality I have not been in contact with her but in the dream she is a bit crazy and attacking my sister. Usually in the past this cousin or any member of her family showing up in my dream was some indicator of detox or something cleansing.

Then I had a very bizzare Resident Evil type of dream, the zombies were extremely crazy compared to actual games or movie. There was a lot of action in the dream. There wasn't a single part that was entertaining.

I'm sure there's a whole lot of die off occurring inside the body, also been waking up sweating.

Keep getting magpies on the roof near bedroom, this article on magpies says that magpie people dabble in to everything which I believe to be very relevant to me. Need to slow down, prioritize things.

Iodine induced detox nightmares

I have increased dosage of lugols iodine and am having more of the nightmarish detox that comes along with it.

These are nightmares where I wake up in a pool of sweat. Today's nightmare reminded me of some of the nightmares I used to get with Kundalini activity, those were a lot worse compared to what I'm experiencing now. I have always suspected that Kundalini is mostly detoxifying. Lugol's iodine with co-supps is also detoxifying.

This morning I awakened from the following nightmare. In the dream a young girl we know very well has been attacked. Me and others are talking about this asking, wondering how all of this happened. My nephew is there, it seemed he had witnessed the entire scene. He was looking at us deeply and seriously seemingly still in shock. He begins to tell us that 'how' it happened is not important, we should be asking 'who' or 'what' did it? We waited for his answer, in particular I was feeling quite scared. "It was the demon child" he said. At that moment the child came out of the dark, ran across the room in lightning speed.

I should actually be prepared for these types of nightmares having had them already in the past, however the nightmare I awakened from today would almost stop me from sleeping again.

These chucky dreams are just freakishly uncool!

I found an old dream I had, same almost exact theme to be honest Wild Inner Child.

I try not to make too much of my dreams and interpret them but this one is something of a pattern. The only reason why I would be having this dream is because I am leaving things unexpressed, mostly stuffing certain emotions and hiding things that are kind of just lurking in the dark like the demon child. If I don't let it out, it will attack I guess. Interepreting dreams can get very complicated as they are so personal to the individual having the dream.

Eyes Closed Activity

Last night awakened early as I had gone to bed quite early but then tried to once again go back to sleep. As I relaxed was still aware but entering a deeper state of sleep. There was some things going on which seemed to happen within the center of the forehead, almost like something being constructed there. I remember seeing light, almost like someone was bringing a flashlight closer to my eyes but not so bright that I had to avert my glance. I did however open my eyes briefly and resealed, it was gone but still able to see dark shadowy movements.

Something definitely happening with the pituitary and or pineal gland. My hormones are also changing because of iodine supplementation. The past few months with lugols iodine and important co supplementation I am experiencing a whole host of detox symptoms. Hemi sync sessions have been put on hold for maybe a week or so now.

The Other Body

In deep sleep I am starting to become more aware of other actions taking place feels like it's my body parts moving but not quite.

Last night I entered the sleep state when suddenly I became very aware of music and singing. Then arms raised up with that magnetic feeling but it seemed something else was controlling it. Arms were floating up and I felt to have possessed it and controlled the moments however the force originally moving it was stronger. The arm feelings and sensations were similar to Memory Recall Phantom Arms experience.

When I snapped out of it, almost forcing myself out of the state I looked through window. Neighbor was doing something on his window (putting tapes around the edge perhaps prepping it for a paint job) at 2 am which was a bit unusual, I was actually a little alarmed by this.

The entire scenario just felt odd.

A Sinister Visit

Last night several times awakened and then back to sleep. Later struggled with insomnia I tried relaxation. The insomnia seems to have something to do with the detoxing.

Eventually I drifted off but was aware of a stairway, can't recall whether I was going up or down. I could clearly see a man in a cloak with a hood on. He was old looking with a sinister vibe. I just allowed the auto movement. It seemed as if I would just bump in to him. I went right through him and was alarmed by this. I saw a few other things and tried to remember these things to make note of. Unfortunately have forgotten them now. I then felt my physical eyes partially open. Tried to raise my arms which were faded transparent looking, again alarmed by this, then tried to raise legs but movement was very sluggish. Had this odd feeling of being almost possessed somehow.

All just ideas

When I am there I remember the process instantly, so quickly I tend to forget these important truths when I return to normal worldly state of mind. I can remember about everything being ideas, the body as an idea, everything based on ideas. From sensations to the simple act of walking. Everything to the minutest detail is based on ideas. Lugols iodine recently induced swollen lymph nodes and even thyroid glands here I am seeing them as just ideas caused by the pattern of thought, a combination of thoughts. I relax go deeper, the body as an idea is unraveling and whilst it feels like an undoing or unbecoming of what I think myself to be even this feels like an idea.

All fears, desires, hopes dreams anything one carries here dissipates into emptiness, it all loses it's relevance. Continuing to relax the sensation and feel of the body is still there, I have my eyes closed and ear plugs on with a scarf around the ears to cancel out as much noise as possible. I am doing some new experiments with Salvia where I will try to exclude as much use of the senses as possible. My digestive system begins to make an unusual sound. The sounds that my organs are making would be shocking to anyone beside me at that time, it was well timed pattern almost musical but a squeaky kind of sound  - something was controlling this. I sense the beings that make up these parts like essential components. All disease and thoughts of illness on the body had very much to do with ones pattern of thought but it seems they have some kind of control.

All the senses were based on ideas, from taste to touch. Here I felt as though I were seeing the raw actual process almost like the real part of it, I don't know how else to describe it. When we experience it in the normal ordinary state that part feels like the pretend part of it.

I suddenly recalled that I had eaten sardines that day, opening my eyes I felt I think I was trying to shake of the unbecoming and feel what it is like to taste in this open state where ones taste buds and all senses are awake.

I get up and hear my brother in the hallway who is with his son. He's near the door but his son starts to cry in an unusual way and it's like with some part of the mind I can feel them. My brother walks away with his son and I can feel his mind and what he's thinking. He seemed curious that his son cried near my door so he walked away and then back where his son cried again at which point I felt his curiosity of why this was happening. It felt like he shook off whatever ideas were floating in his mind. I had this thought that there was going to be a discussion about how kids can sense things, and I imagined myself saying that everyone kind of says this so it must be true. Not because it's a fact but because most people say it, and if enough people have a particular thought it becomes true.

I got up and took a tin of sardines out, I was eating but not in the usual sense with each bite I can feel the essence and all those things that were put together in the idea of the taste of sardines. It was like it was all being broken down to me and I was completely detached from the flavor and even the desire for food, the whole idea of it. I even had the thought in that moment that I would never eat food in the same way again.

The human limitation becomes so apparent in this state of mind and I find myself questioning once again; how is it that I forget this in the ordinary state of mind?

Here I am free, and freedom isn't to have the power to do whatever you want and acquire whatever one wishes or even to be a potentially unlimited being. Freedom is to be free from everything, it's a pure state of complete detachment.

Suddenly a wave of energy showed up, it was like a formation of something and this is something that I can't seem to work out. It seems this wave is a part of someone who is actually quite destructive and constantly angry. As I felt the bad vibes there was this knowing a feeling of some kind that I can actually shun or move it away with my mind somehow and I did a little at first but then let go. It seemed to cause a kind of tremor and vibration in the peripheral vision, there was also some heat in the forehead. I got this sense that I should not use Salvia around certain people.

This time round Salvia did not cause excess urination as it had done in the past but I did feel liver pains and used a very small amount, about 1 tbsp of crumbled Salvia leaves.

Again I need to use Salvia a bit earlier in the morning.