Half Human Half God

I took the following notes whilst under the effects of Salvia on my phone device using app where I entered new lines so I'm adding the lines exactly as they appeared seems more clearer. Will do updates with notes when I have more time.

31/01/2016 around 7ish pm meditated with salvia
Have to lose my sense of being here now
My now and here stops me
It's our sense of me and now stops us
When we have no sense of ourselves he sees and knows we're  ready
Comes for us
Let go of it all
He is behind it
Has given us the power
He can end me now
I'm deep in that state
Where I'm aware of it
He's gonna forgive us all
But he knows all our wrong and right
Can't lie to them
They know all
The other humans are a part of the drama
Somehow they're in on it
I understand so much from the gospel
Will just read that
Now I know why he and his type get persecuted
Am I cheating with the leaf?
Actually is easy to be in this state
Let go of your sense of self, it's pretense
People I thought are just a part of a plot
Jesus was persecuted
I could see the people like this being labelled loony
When I am in that state I feel sorry for those trying to make it big
Get big and successful in the end you give up. No one takes it from you, you will literally give it up
Our attachment makes us forget
The entire world and people in misery why He not help them
He can but they need to recognize their actual true state
That's what will save them
Ones true state of being is the salvation

As I typed salvation on phone keypad suggestion for word Pharaoh kept popping up, was annoyed but then felt it was suggesting to me through the phone so I searched Pharaoh on google

"A Pharaoh was the most important and powerful person in the kingdom. He was the head of the government and high priest of every temple.The people of Egypt considered the pharaoh to be a half-man, half-god. The Pharaoh owned all of Egypt. Interesting fact. The ancient Egyptians did not refer to their Kings as Pharaohs."

That's exactly how I would describe the state I am in when in these meditations  half-human, half-god.

It's Here

I was reading some hidden gospels after reading a news article. In particular the Gospel of Thomas struck a chord and correlated with some of my salvia experiences.

"113. They asked him: When is the kingdom coming? He replied, It is not coming in an easily observable manner. People will not be saying, "Look, it's over here" or "Look, it's over there." Rather, the kingdom of the father is already spread out on the earth and people aren't aware of it."

From The Gospel of Thomas

 In this verse you'll see that the disciples at that time had the thought that the "Kingdom" was some other place, you know heaven being in some other place etc.

I'll also add that even all the other so called worlds that people experience happen on this one plane.

I will soon add some references to some salvia experiences that relates to this.



"111. Jesus said: The earth and sky will roll up right in front of you. Anyone living from the living will not die. Doesn't Jesus say that the world is not worthy of one who finds himself?"

I've read of a few Salvia trips where reality rolls up.

 Here's an interesting verse from The Gospel of Philip ;
From the Gospel of Philip

"One single name is not uttered in the world, the name which the Father gave to the Son; it is the name above all things: the name of the Father. For the Son would not become Father unless he wore the name of the Father. Those who have this name know it, but they do not speak it. But those who do not have it do not know it."

The Sri Guru Granth Sahib is majorly focused on the name of the Lord, the naam. Interesting to see this correlation here.

Understanding Pyramids with Salvia

Yesterday evening after watching first episode from documentary The Pyramid Code I chewed some salvia for some insight. I was also looking up Zoroastrianism a religion that existed 3500 years ago, this religion focuses on one creator much like many other religions however perhaps there is some similarity to Sikhism in particular writings from the sri guru granth sahib.
Salvia chewed but was momentarily interrupted continued chewing going deeper. I've managed to catch a cold from a virus going around. Going deep I couldn't remain still. Realised that I wasn't quite breathing needed to bring the breath back to clear throat and had to make a movement.
The others witnessed this and I felt some vein or something snapping. I realized I can command these others to cause certain changes. They were like many little beings composing the body but I view them in a microscopic close up form. Yet they can still be sensed also external from the body.
I remembered how after taking salvia I was able to eat certain foods that would normally cause a bad reaction. Salvia suppresses these bad reactions. Feeling and sensation of body was numb-like so much that you wouldn't feel aches and pains not even cold or hot temperatures, I could feel it but there was no effect from them meaning a cold wouldn't make the body shiver etc.
I got the sense that if I chewed next to someone or with them going into that deep state I could communicate with the beings that composed their body for a possible healing.

20/Jan
I awakened around 3am back to sleep by 5am. Arms and legs raising. Floating out of body feeling. Sexual arousal induced by presence nearby. Then at some point felt focused in the body. Feeling of hands touching arms. Then hand on head giving off electrical charge on top of head making the brain feel mushy. Felt like three beings around me. The touch of hand near head on occasions rested on my shoulders as if to comfort me.

Detachment

Chewed 1 ball of salvia leaves. It's important to chew it slowly and keep it in the mouth for the entire duration whereas before I was taking it out. Lights were off and quiet house. Less distractions. Darkness is also helping so I don't get distracted by movement in surroundings. When I went deep into meditation I had to write down notes on what was taking place. It was difficult, I used my tablet and it was misbehaving. The following is what I wrote unedited:

it's all up to them about health sups and advice all that it's determined by them need to let go of my relationship and connection with others they're not real like I'm pretend person character so are they all part of the play characters not allowed to tell this part to you. We're all in characte m who are we then really that is the question. Keyboard messing up a lot

Hand an shaky unbalanced they don't want me to write this. This is why they can kill me off and I know they've tried. Before. If these words make it I'm still alive otherwise...

Not allowed to wake the others they have to earn all those things written it is testing us.
They cause anxiety the kind where the pen slips out of your hand clumsily. They just stopped me from writing something important. I feel for those who get put in institutions for this.
They one it before me delete my posts.

In that state so difficult to attain. They give orders and commands everything up to them. Don't get emotionally attached to things and even people you have to give them over there in original state these things do not belong to us the people who wrote the sri guru granth sahib were writing about this state. I am in that state.

Living as the Truth

At around 7pm I got chewing with the intention of meditating deeply. I have been feeling a little uneasy past few days though there is a lot more peace and quiet in house for me to meditate and in the coming weeks I intend to use salvia to meditate. Lights were off and room completely dark. Into that deep space I enter deeper and I feel energies around me. The chewed up salvia is still in my mouth but I remain still with eyes closed. My body has changed I can feel the energy around me has become stronger. Everything I've been pondering recently has become clearer as though it was all prepaved and in that moment I understood everything. The Truth is clear to me in this state, this state, this way of being is the Truth. So how is it we don't experience that? Why are we not in our True state, our actual way of being which is peaceful and wholesome? In that state I didn't need to ask this question, the insight was immediate. Our bodies are poisoned, this poisoning has caused an imbalance so much that it's malfunctioned. Because our bodies have become numb and malfunctioned we can't feel what is true, we live in falsehood. The infection started in our mind and has spread throughout the body. We have to free the body of pollution. I felt it, Truth was coursing through my veins.

I got the feeling that an elite group of some kind caused this. The idea was to pollute the mind and then the body in order to render it useless and I'm not a fan of conspiracy theories. I even got the feeling JFK was going to expose this to the masses or even sort it out hence why he was assassinated.

I've been watching a documentary on ancient civilizations. From the Mayans to Anasakis series is called Secret Worlds. These civilizations prospered for a period of time until something happens rather suddenly causing their downfall. I wondered why and made a connection. Each civilization would prosper well at least appear to prosper. However they soon would erect temples and buildings specifically for religious purposes often for worship. This would lead to deforestation, for the sake of these temples. Also it was a time when agriculture became popular and the way to farm. Temples would be built by stones which would have needed to be mined. This exposed people to a lot of heavy metals thereby changing people's behavior. Added to this the constant deforestation eventually led to the degradation of mankind because of the lack of oxygen.

Now if you fast forward to current day civilization where deforestation is occurring at an even more alarmingly rapid rate, water supplies heavily contaminated, as well as food supply and pollution from all kinds of sources you can see just how we have evolved as human beings. The world is spiralling into insanity, there is madness spread throughout the world already.

Going on a healing journey myself with iodine supplementation and health protocols has made it more apparent that the current human condition is a direct result of poisoning.

In that state something had a grip on the heart and I got the feeling one wrong move and the body will come to its end. At the same time I felt this danger there was also a feeling of being protected.

Ancient Civilizations Vs Current Civilization

This is an entry from my iodine journal which I don't publish. I wanted to add it here because it feels like important information.

History and Geography were my most weakest subjects back in school, however I'm suddenly finding it all very interesting.


2/1/2016
Yesterday new years day in evening had a severe niacin flush. Interestingly I was watching documentaries on ancient civilizations. They used to make temples or something to do with rocks, for a while the people would prosper but then something would go wrong wars would break out etc plus there was issue of deforestation for the sake of food in particular grain crops. For example the Mayans suddenly began to turn against each other becoming overly competitive. I have a feeling, a hunch that these people from ancient civilizations were toxic with heavy metals possibly from all the mining etc in order to build their temples. They were also lacking oxygen because of all the deforestation. This is why they couldn't think rationally which resulted in wars and people started to turn against their own tribes.

Now in today's day and age where there is hardly a tree in sight, grains being added heavily in the diet and buildings covering the entire face of earth and plenty more environmental damages than in the past what hope do we have for the future?

Back to the niacin flush, must have had around 300 or 400 mg niacin.  I went temporarily insane after documentaries, had stomach cramp feeling sick. I had to sit on floor near door where I was thrashing my head in the air. OMG I thought my head was exploding. I felt faint dizzy. I picked my head up and tried to remember how I ended up on the floor, lights were off. I felt like I lost memory of not only of my surroundings but I forgot who I was. Eventually mustered the energy to empty bowels caused by the flush. Got back in bed my face neck felt hot I started sweating drank some water and dosed off. Had the best night sleep ever, I want to flush again.

Today I felt energetic more cheerful. I've only taken smaller doses prior to this up to 175mg.

A Trick of the Mind

This morning I had a series of very vivid dreams that felt incredibly real packed with emotions. They did not feel like dreams because they took place in my bedroom setting and are very much like false awakenings. They were related to ghosts but not quite. Can't be sure if it was entities etc or what. Reminds me of my alien visitation experience.

I can't clearly recall all the dreams now but generally what happened was I would encounter a moving staring entity in my room or near my bed. Each time I would be afraid. Next to the bed I have a chair with some clothes hanging on it. In the dream it was replaced with an entity form staring at me and as I awakened it would convert to the chair and only then was I able to make the correlation.

As an ordinary person of this world reading this you would assume that the chair was the real actual thing and the entity was a figment of my imagination, a thing of a dream.

My experiences are making me question whether the chair is the actual real thing and if so what makes it more real than anything else.

Happy New Year xx