Near Death Experience - Almost

 I almost died (NDE)

woke early 3ish AM browse phone back to sleep by 6:45am

I'm walking out of my room. Brothers near stairs discussing something. I see my keys on door but there's already one hooked onto my clothes. I take off key from door. Both key sets duplicate. I realise I'm dreaming. Turn to see brothers but everything goes blank but I'm still conscious. Suddenly theres light and I see various snippets of my life. Holographic projected virtual images. I see logo of the tips app I did and realise that my life and details of my life are being replayed. My life was flashing before my eyes. This meant my body was dying. I started to fight it and snap out of it. I'm lying on my belly looking to the side thinking I woke up but a bus passes by. I look down and see a road as though bed is suspended high up. Snap out of it. In bed on my front arms over pillow wall expanded then contracts very matrixy

Still feel sleepy.

Awake 7:20am

Updates biohacking and conspiracy

Lunar cycle biohacking - I'm doing the biohacks as best I can. Acetylcholine gave me crazy dreams and made my brain feel to wired. It was however powerful for cognition almost to the point I felt like a supermachine accessing the matrix. I was going through a wordsearch puzzle which previously took me long to solve. With acetylcholine all I did was say the word and my eyes would dart to the exact location. Problem is the stuff I used came with side effects such as nightmares and mental fatigue. I have successfully increased other neurotransmitters. Something is up with dreaming, I tend to have bad recall. The iodine however does improve recall but I forget to take

Conspiracy theories - I have been reading through https://wespenre.com/ levels of learning. Very profound material and there's plenty of info on past lives. If I could successfully raise my acetylcholine with a better formula I just might be able to digest it in a shorter time. There's definitely something going on behind the scenes 

Overcoming fears - this is something I'm trying to work on. As a human race we are operating on too much fear. Our everyday life is based on it

Biohacking and Lunar Cycles

Currently some of the biohacking I'm doing involves working around the lunar cycle which can get pretty intense. 

A new cycle is approaching, 4 more days. During each phase of the moon there's a predominant neurotransmitter. And in each phase there are set of hormones and bodily processes that are activated. One example is the phase between third quarter and new moon - this is the major detox phase and just at the start the brain has more GABA.

If things are unbalanced in the body (toxins etc) then things are not going to be great and especially if you are a woman of childbearing age and you are nearing your menstruation, if so then the body will get prepared to clear out excess hormones etc.

Both men and women may feel like unwinding, relaxing at this time. To heal and detox efficiently the body needs plenty of rest and lots of relaxation. 

We are currently in this phase. I managed to somehow get laryngitis which I think is more toxin related than viral. I'm slowly healing and will be working on detoxing as much as I can but there's that run down feeling and a need to rest. I also feel myself mentally slowing down which seems to be part and parcel of this final phase of current lunar cycle.

This phase is also a time I take to review all the events of lunar cycle. The goals and intentions I set up at the beginning of current cycle will be reviewed in the next few days and events that have taken place.

In the coming cycle I'll be sharing what happens during each phase. I'm still learning so there's still much to discover. I have already achieved activating certain functions and state of mind. 

The most profound thing happened some time ago in the last two years. I experimented with a formula that helped raise acetylcholine levels, all of a sudden I was able to calculate from the top of my head without a calculator. At the time I remember going supermarkets and calculating the cost of my shopping. Which sounds easy enough but I have always been terrible and quite slow with numbers so much that in the moments of releasing acetylcholine I became a human calculator. The same functions were active whilst doing calculations on the computer. Without the calculator.

Again I'm still learning and I have sort of mapped it all out. Currently using lunar cycle as a guide. 

Some functions I want to awaken include better use of language. I'm a lifelong dreamer so I definitely want to enhance my dreamtime. I don't care for lucid dreams much, I'd much rather have those epic adventure type dreams. I definitely want improved memory functions. 

There's no limit to brain / cognitive functions I'll probably start compiling a list to work on. 

Starting 2022 with a lot of love

 Just as I approached 2022 I had the chance to experiment with some MJ. This very potent natural herb from mother nature connects with the Endocannabinoid system.

I had I think 2 or 3 opportunities to experiment. What I discovered is a symbiosis when you partake in this herb with others, kind of like the rastas when they sit and pass the pipe and connect to Jah together. 

On one occasion having taken a hit whilst outdoors and then back indoors entering that other state around family. 

My nieces were over for the holidays. I stood beside the door mostly concerned with my eldest sister who was very quiet - for her it does wonders on the arthritis and mellows her mood. I observed my nieces playing talking mucking about. I came upon the realisation that the state I was in, children are already naturally in that state. You can say their Endocannabinoid system is naturally operating as it should- for some reasons us adults have an impaired Endocannabinoid system that we need some plant medicine to get us hooked up again.

The other occasion was similar- just found myself very connected to that other state except I was around family. I even watched a movie (Spy) and everything about it was intense. Me and my sister would laugh in unison with a very similar laughter. Of course I have to take care of my lungs so I did not take it that often. My blood sugar was dropping that pasta with cheese just didn't cut it. I needed to throw in some jam for a bit of flavour. People get the munchies because blood sugar levels drop. 

Something that did become a habit was me incessantly chewing gum.

I had no idea how bad it was until my family would express their disgust. I can't blame them, my chewing was bad. I became so hooked I needed 2 or 3 pieces of gum at the same time. 

So that's pretty much how I rolled into the New year. I also started off having relationship issues with my boyfriend but I stayed calm and patient and I told him that I am working on some New Years resolutions. 

I told my twin flame whom I sometimes communicate with that I'm working on a biohack that helps you fall in love. You can fall in love without being in a relationship and I especially wanted to figure it out for him as he is in a loveless marriage. Most people unfortunately are in loveless companionships these days and that's such a tragedy. Really, it does break my heart.

All of a sudden a new guy comes into my life. Like a gust of wind. I ignored the calls and texts as I am super paranoid when I get calls from unknown numbers. Suddenly he would call me more than my current boyfriend at the time. He made me realise my own suspicions; that the relationship I was in was doomed. After a lot of soul searching I ended relationship with boyfriend. 

I told my twin flame about it and I shared the name of the substance that I was going to try; phenylthalamine (PEA). This is released when people fall in love. The key is to try with MAO inhibitor such as hordenine.

Meanwhile I was still speaking with new guy. 

To cut a long story short I fell in love with the new guy. The funny thing is I had yet to try my new substance. He certainly had qualities that I never really thought about. He was a very simple humble guy. He was certainly not my type. It just happened so suddenly but some time after getting to know him. I tried to rationalise my feelings by telling myself it was the chewing gum.

 The chewing gum has aspartame which is a source of phenylalanine which converts to PEA, the very substance that is released when people fall in love - the one I've been meaning to get hold of and experiment with. Such is my life, so serendipitous.

At one point there was so much love overfilling my heart that I begged God for his mercy. It reminded me of a euphoric experience when I did a liver flush. But just as quickly as this guy randomly found me he departed. 

I'm not sure if I can call it romantic love, or the possesive obsessed kind because there was none of that. And I know what it's like to be infatuated, I think it happened once when I binged on chocolate which also releases PEA except it made me feel lovesick over a guy at the queue in a supermarket who didn't even so much as look at me.

It was an eye opener and it made me realise that I wasn't in love with my ex boyfriend whom I even considered marriage with. And I learned the most important lesson of my life, never marry unless you're in love. Sounds like common sense but people have no idea in seeking relationship just how much of it is dictated by fear. Love is fearless. And I believe this love is in our heart ready and waiting to be tapped into and sometimes you meet someone and they can trigger it.

The PEA is something I will still experiment with. However it isn't something to take all the time and can be dangerous with side effects. 

I'm thinking to use just before full moon as I think that neurotransmitter release are based on the moon's position. Different neurotransmitters are dominant in different phases. 

Update 2021

It's been a while since my last post...life has been a rollercoaster ride in that time and the added pressure of the plandemic hasn't helped much. There is major division now between people than any other time especially in the last few decades. We are currently at war and the war is a psychological one. Being brainwashed by all the propaganda etc I can literally see many people walking down the plank voluntarily. It deeply saddens me but the brain dead can no longer be helped. Àll over the world authorities are destroying and corrupting people. Still there's hope...maybe

Despite all this going on all around me I'm trying my best to gain access to the furthest reaches of my brain...it's hard work!

I have been working on biohack formulas, some work and others are quite dangerous. Need to becareful with this...I press one wrong button and the brain can turn to mush

I haven't bothered with Sally, she stains my teeth now which is why I'm working on the biohack formulas

In the last few months I have learned quite a bit about the lunar cycle, just like nature and all the natural cyclic events, tidal waves etc the human body was also designed to be in tune with it. So I am currently using the lunar cycle as a map

With the biohacking I have only managed to reach the basic states of mind that correlate with various emotions but need to go much deeper than that and that's where the binaural beats come in. I'm doing deep intense research and experimentation for this and yet still there is room for improvement

I'll try to post more updates on any breakthroughs as well as the formulas I'm using

Salvia Starlings Murmurations

Salvia Starlings Murmurations 30th November 2020 Full Moon

Soaked salvia crumbled leaves. Chew after vodka rinsed mouth

Laptop ready with documentary of starlings murmurations hoping an understanding of what they are will be revealed through this state.

At first I kept thinking the shapes could be hands coming through the sky

Later it became clearer. The black parts were outlines of the great giant beings. Amazing! There are many beings not just my computer screen but there in the world and even right here. I was too focused on screen didn't see what was happening around me but I can feel movement in the forehead.

My knowings are immediate what people in the past called insights. The organs working harmonious so that vision is clear. I understand why we don't see it now - the brain is not working the way it is meant so that the organ of sight isn't operating to see that world. A lot of spiritual text has referred to this as the veil. The current reality we think of as real as maya intricately coalesces with that other world. That other world is part of nature.

Then the sounds of the birds! Oh My God! My hearing was clear, each sound produced a frequency and I heard the voice so clearly. A voice coming out of this great being - full on sentences. Remember these sounds are frequencies and I was picking it up in English- someone who understands Hindi or Chinese or other language will pick it up in that language. I couldn't catch the words as I was stunned by it and the video moved away but what it sounded like was the giant being announcing something and it seemed like it was communicating with this world so that someone can hear it. Clear messages from someone in the sky.

The language of frequencies seems to be the Universal language. Which now brings to language through millennias language has changed dramatically - example the first man on this planet did not speak in English.

Why are we not able to see and understand these visions in the sky that to the onlooker seems like a group of birds performing some mysterious stunt.

I have had the experience with the northern lights.

I feel it is because the brain is not being utilised. I think children still have it but perhaps lose it with time as they begin to learn language and integrate within society. Another issue is due to changes in the environment toxins pollution etc more damage is done to the body so that the organs do not work as they should. Another possibility is because as the child grows their minds are conditioned to think on worldly matters riddled with stress anxiety worries etc. I know I can prove it and maybe some day I'll find a way to do it. For now all I can do is experiment not reveal this post and keep it to myself.

It's like my brain slowed down in order to capture or decipher the movement and sounds

I'm going to watch and listen keenly to the starlings in the sky.

UPDATE 

Have decided to post it even though initial feeling was to refrain from posting

Dreams of other realities, timelines and lives

 Very Profound Dreams 

My dreams are changing. I think it could be due to several things combined which is having an overall intense effect.

I came up with a sleep protocol taking various nutrients to play around with serotonin and melatonin production using tryptophan and its cofactors. Biohacking is a delicate art. In addition to this I have also been on a protocol to help dissolve cysts tumors or other growth in particular. I am certain that there has been some growth there as my reaction to protocol has resulted in weird sense of smell and other things like a popping sound in head also I get awful headaches during monthly cycle and whilst it was present in last cycle it did not last long. 

Another thing that has happened is I have shaved my head and so I've started to wear a hoodie and even to bed. Interestingly the hoodie covers my eyes and I think this is helping produce extra melatonin. So I kept experimenting with this and the supplements. So one or the other does not help has to be combined.

I'm going to bed earlier and falling asleep with ease.

The dreams I'm having are like jumping in different timelines, different lives, different realities, just very different to what I have been used to. I have always known that with improved sleep dreams also improve. But I am sure now that the brain and bodily glands need to be cleansed for these dream effects. So much more we are capable of.

This is an interesting point in my dream journey. I think restarting the brain like this can give us insight and knowledge about human development but I think if the body is thoroughly cleansed and renewed we can awaken many gifts that can be used in our everyday lives.