I have been wondering why the 'others' have blindfolded me or why it is that I can't see with that clear perception anymore. The answer just came to me - in the other incidents there were several of these other entities (feels awkward calling them entities) that I managed to stretch away from my mind and I think it is since these experiences that the perception started closing (getting less vivid and more difficult to decipher). Each time I had done this, using mind stretch, there was this feeling of getting out of control - somehow what I was doing could be harmful at least not desirable for these 'others'. It was moments like these where I would quickly stop as I did not want them to know that I was deliberately doing it to explore further especially after I accidently discovered that I was able to do this.
Today I decided to give in to the movements that are present without taking Salvia - (this happens constantly, daily, every second most likely even when I'm sleeping). I followed the movements - the body wants to do a handstand. Not at all comfortable, but tried to do it against the wall and almost injured myself. Sat down on edge of bed and torso bending down from seating position out almost falling off, legs stretching out but stable so that I'm supported. Trusting and letting go - head upside down and I could hear and feel clicks near nasal and head. Something going on there - not sure what. Head swayed slowly building up tempo and there was this weight pulling head down.
Other experiences include hearing voices - not actual voices but that soft voice that at the same time is louder than all the sounds around me simply because it is the closest sound. So far twice when relaxed have heard my name being called, voice unfamiliar.
I have decided no more Salvia for a really long time with the exception of chewing experiment one last time to see if indeed I am still left in the dark. I have recently felt inspired to astral project - from today I'll be focusing on APing.
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