I think an update is due since I've hardly posted anything recently although I've been saving drafts of dream events that I did not feel like publishing.
I have been writing for many years on this blog which began when I decided to migrate away from certain interests which included astral projection / obe and delve deeper into more meaningful things like 'who am I', 'what am I doing here', 'what is this world', 'who created it' and so on.
Did I mention that I had an encounter with God? I'm sure it's somewhere in one of my older posts. The several encounters I've had always pops up, deeply ingrained in my memory incidents that I will never forget.
I've never really believed in God although the idea was always appealing especially in times of crisis because the alternative is I am completely alone and helpless.
Just to debrief, my encounters with God occurred during taking stimulants and in altered states of awareness (usually at some point sleeping mode). The most profound encounter was when I had mj and another when I had red wine, both experiences were very similar. I've also read about euphoric experiences after taking such stimulants but nothing quite so similar. I recall plugging the ears and having some songs playing. It happened suddenly when a feeling so foreign yet so desirable started to slowly creep up on me. As the song began to play my body was part possessed, the movements were incredibly delicate, really soft and gentle, absolutely loving and delightful - not at all romantic.
With each song the feelings were amplifying. I had listened to these songs for a long time and only in that moment I understood where the inspiration came from and what it all meant. Each song was a communication to me, to all and it was all about love. Not romantic love, not even the kind of love one has friends or family but actual, real, true love. I felt something like this during a liver flush incident which Salvia played a part with (way back when I was trying to detox, liver flushing produced a very euphoric high which felt like a deep abiding love all over), but that was love that I was feeling externally and it was just as powerful.
This was inner love, and I'm sure I could have exploded if it were not for the other presence. I simply call it God because that is how I identified it as, the one that created me, the earth and all others.
My eyes were scanning the room at some point and God, Master, Lord, Universal Intelligence or whatever you want to call it was observing my room having no particular opinion about it just taking in everything. It's glance was soft and my entire experience was akin to devotion. This was actual devotional worshiping.
But here's the really unusual part, I wasn't being devotional or worshiping this presence, instead I was being worshiped and the other was devoting itself to me carrying all the messages of love. Love is big, huge it's no wonder why it's impregnated in almost all songs. I never really got a chance to express even an iota of the love expressed towards me because I had become complete putty in the presence of this other. The encounters were like a reunion.
At some point however, I felt some of the words were exactly what I would have wanted to say in return. Almost like reversing roles. In many religious text especially Guru
Granth Sahib there is the role of the disciple and master or servant and
the lord. This was very much like that.
This must have taken place several months ago and since then it has not faded from my mind and it has not happened again at least not with that intensity - I now generally just get a buzz or slightly tipsy from wine but that's about it.
Started reading Anastasia Ringing Cedars Series again, the books touches upon life, God and everything about a persons existence. I absolutely love these books and do believe most everything written in these books.
A very tiny part of me seems to be skeptical about the experience but a bigger part of me is convinced about my encounters and though they don't seem like enough and I should get more proof before I decide that I have not lost my sanity. I won't deny that there are other explanations other than that I had an encounter with the Creator of life.
One thing I cannot deny is the feeling that came about during the encounter. There is nothing like it with which I can compare it to nor do I recall ever feeling this way except during the liver flush. This feeling which I can only call love is central to peace, harmony and joy. This is absolutely what is lacking in everyone, it is this quality alone that could end all wars.
You can probably hallucinate gods, demons, angels and monsters but not love. I have been pondering for a while and this suspicion has been with me since my liver flush, that what blocks this feeling is a poisoned body. We currently live in a very poisoned world, pollution, climate change, deforestation and so much crap in our food. We're so busy carrying out so many meaningless task that we don't have time to question how and why we're here instead we are constantly trying to just survive.
So what I am currently focused on is healing of the body and mind and trying to put my theory to the test. I'm hoping to do another detox soon and I'll be playing around with nutrition.
There's also a phenomena I want to learn more about where I could come out of a dream vision and be back in my room (happens during dream like state) and see that the dream vision is simply morphing back into my current reality. Only way I can explore this is by being more aware in my sleep state during dreaming and just as I am coming out of these dreams.
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