Salvia Fasting Incident

Fasted for the whole day - well almost - did taste a little bit of food but decided against giving into that craving. I also decided against using Salvia for today simply because the emotional repercussions were not at all pleasant but it seems that I don't get to decide. In the evening my mind changed due to the house being quiet and I just felt compelled.

Used a very small amount - two small quids. Eventually the chewing felt awkward. Entire mouth area numbed, losing feeling and so gradually my mouth felt too stiff to carry on.

I relaxed closing my eyes, I'm as quiet as I can be - no giving into breathing or awareness of it as this creates havoc (entity attraction - some can be unpleasant).

At first a lot of small incidents occur - travelling with the others. I recall one incident involved getting inside several dogs that I feel lived nearby in my neighbourhood. The thing with dogs is that they are charged with a lot of sexual energy. I felt upset even insulted and miss those earlier Salvia sessions in which friends had taken me to cool incredible adventuruous areas I wonder why these have stopped. I remain calm try not to give in or react.

Soon there were a multitude of beings that represented certain energies - each housed within the body, it was like the body is a projected small structure of the entire world - perhaps even the universe. Many elders present - somewhere in between I give into breathing and attract attention. The elders come through each observing me carefully. There is definitely something going on in the left side of the body. Movement strong from leg travelling movement to left part of neck to the head. Though through this awareness I realize to a greater degree I am not the body I feel uncomfortable and sense a lump near left neck - I keep thinking it is perhaps a thryoid problem since something there definitely feels large. My left toe nails have been growing quicker than right toe nails whcih I've noticed for about a month now and feel somehow this is related to the changes in the left side of the body. So out of habit move left arm which caused an incredible amount of pain. Take a quick feel and place arm back in position.

Things starting to make so much sense, in particular the experience in 'Kundalini Illusions' and some other various past experiences. I open eyes hazy visuals of them blended in physical environment. Close eyes but visuals are diminishing slowly. I see them rushing to the third eye area, feeling a crowd of them pulling this area. It feels like they are working hard trying to keep the visuals open and permanent. I feel movement in the cords that connect the eyes to the brain and momentarily fear that they might end up causing blindness.

Eventually I open eyes again and let it all subside but the sensations and movements within body are ongoing and intense. I'm glad I fasted and I think I might end the fast on friday.