Resident Evil Snake
I'm in the RE game, I have a handgun and surrounded by a number of snakes. Shoot them but no ammo. Get out shotgun and before me is an expanding, growing snake looks as if it will swallow me whole. I aim and shoot, it's loaded but the snake is indestructible. Not sure what to do - can't recall what happened after this - I think dream telling me to give up the fight.
Face In Pics Discussion
I'm viewing forum discussions - there is a lot of talk about pareidolia - seeing faces in objects, pictures, clouds, trees etc
There are many pictures posted and some kind of importance to this is discussed - it seems to be getting a lot of attention.
Sunday, 30 January 2011
Oneness
Went to bed at 8pm last night - tired, sleepy - I can feel urgent signal to get in bed.
Energies play inside - inner trembling - everything resembling K symptoms - also had major rapid heart palpitations.
As I relaxed deeply into sleep my consciousness expanded throughout the field of this material world and beyond. It is indescribable. I expanded - grown to a size where the entire Universe fits me like a glove - I am wearing it - and I found myself in everything. The worries and misery of this life dissolved in this expansion - it was lost in that vast field. Then I re-emerge, contracting shrinking consciousness fitting inside the physical body - my pillow is wet, aware of physical body, been drooling heavily and then again suddenly that same expansion, only a little larger and more vivid and then back to the body where my feet is burning and my body is lit with fever. I managed to fall asleep a few hours after the extreme heat.
Sleep interrupted every 2 hours and had many vivid dreams.
Energies play inside - inner trembling - everything resembling K symptoms - also had major rapid heart palpitations.
As I relaxed deeply into sleep my consciousness expanded throughout the field of this material world and beyond. It is indescribable. I expanded - grown to a size where the entire Universe fits me like a glove - I am wearing it - and I found myself in everything. The worries and misery of this life dissolved in this expansion - it was lost in that vast field. Then I re-emerge, contracting shrinking consciousness fitting inside the physical body - my pillow is wet, aware of physical body, been drooling heavily and then again suddenly that same expansion, only a little larger and more vivid and then back to the body where my feet is burning and my body is lit with fever. I managed to fall asleep a few hours after the extreme heat.
Sleep interrupted every 2 hours and had many vivid dreams.
Saturday, 29 January 2011
The Guests and The Thieves
Last night whilst Salvia was soaked I viewed the carpet in bedroom - this time more younger looking forms pasted over - people who look like teenagers and kids with a few adults. Previously it was mostly older faces with beards and mostly men.
The lot of them we're smiling and I was certain that the Salvia experience will be extremely positive. 9:20pm chewed leaves and then expected to project but what occured was something I was completely unprepared for.
Everything alive and awake in the usual sense - the faces in the carpet emerge. There is a row of children - teenagers that become clearer in this state and an older man at one end of this line. They are a family. There's something familiar about them, like I know them from somewhere. They want me to get ready to be taken somewhere - heading west, maybe this orientation because my bed is facing west? Sure I'll go, why not?
I lay down light switched off - awareness of inner perception grown. There I sense with eyes closed a row of women and girls. They are asking me for permission if they could come in. After some thought I figured there would be no harm letting them in.
They all started to slip inside me - like I was a house and inside me is a couch where they were seated. I was a little hesitant to let any more in. The place inside me is overcrowded and I'm worried I don't even know what I just let in. They're fusing with my body and the physical surrounding and I felt there was going to be some kind of entity possesion going on. I tried to stop the rest from coming in but a majority already slipped inside.
Now I see a row of young girls - teenagers maybe. An entire row of them but it's dark. They're observing me and then remove their attention and apply it to some other presence. Once again a presence greater than all of us. The girls start to prostrate before that presence. I realize this is some kind of worship. I feel I need to do the same, but I'm still in bed percieveing two worlds - the world where my bed is and the world where there's a worship going on. It might be rude to remain in bed - I could feel the presence approaching me and get on the floor with knees bent. It's getting closer to my turn where the presence will come to greet me. I feel aprehensive and decide to get back in bed and relax - the presence looks a little startled and all the girls look a little perplexed at my behaviour. Then I say 'I worship no one'. They start to feel or begin to whisper to each other.
Switch on light thinking I will simply come out of that state and it will just end - and it literally does end in the most unexpected way. The side of my window - there's a masculine energy coming through. A young boy and others are wearing my house - the boy wearing the side of window looks at me and tells me he's in charge now. He tells me that everything that I've known - the rest of the house - the other parts of my life - people I know have ended now. And I felt it - everything stopped I couldn't hear my family members in the house and that whining sound was really loud like the world really had ended and I regret having decided to make this trip. So much I'm regretting now - my duvet starts to move and I know it's the entities I gave permision to enter my house without any consideration. My room feels like it is shaking - it's moving because the boy is running away with it.
Instead of an AP I am having the reversal, inverse of an AP - this is an in-the-body experience. I feel the deep fear of ending - how could it just all end? There's a sadness but I know there's not much left to do. Suddenly the boy places his attention on somewhere outside in this other place - not on earth because that has ended the only part that remains is the bedroom, myself these entities and a sense of being elsewhere.
There is someone there, giving orders to the boy to stop - some kind of official. I could tell he is being forced to get out of the house - to literally stop wearing it like a garment. As he is being pulled away looks at me angrily telling me that he's not done with me - wow what a bully!
I could feel it, everything is being put back together, get out of room check downstairs everything and everyone is as it should be. Relieved.
Return to room there I still sense them all. I can hear them humming a lullaby as if to soothe me. Feeling extremely cold get in bed - I can feel movement inside. It's the entities I let in - they are feeling me inside. They feel like balls of energy up my legs. I feel a massaging near buttock area going up in my lower back. It spreads throughout the spine. Instead of going straight to the response of fear I ask K energy to do what it has to do. I think K is making them work, it seems that K's agenda overrides their agenda whatever that may be.
I fell asleep and would wake up 2 hours later which occured several times. They're doing something to the body. An infusion with Kundalini energy?
Each time I know I have to go back to sleep - no need to be awake for what they're doing - it might be intensely painful. Waking up each time I was exhausted feeling some deep tissue pain. This interrupted sleep or whatever it was occured 3 times. When it occured for the last time I was told 'just one more time' - I knew I had to relax, try to fall asleep again and then I did a lot of vivid dreaming.
In one dream I'm in my garden - different looking. I bid a large man farewell and as I turn around I see mosquitos and other flies carrying faeces to some dumping ground - they're cleaning up? Then I stand near the door and witness the sun shining brighter and get the message - get some sunlight.
When the thief comes to rob you - not your valuables or possessions but to literally steal you after having robbed you of everything - I don't think there's anything in this world that can prepare you for it, no scripture and no teacher. Even working through your fears will probably do very little in terms of comfort in such a situation.
The lot of them we're smiling and I was certain that the Salvia experience will be extremely positive. 9:20pm chewed leaves and then expected to project but what occured was something I was completely unprepared for.
Everything alive and awake in the usual sense - the faces in the carpet emerge. There is a row of children - teenagers that become clearer in this state and an older man at one end of this line. They are a family. There's something familiar about them, like I know them from somewhere. They want me to get ready to be taken somewhere - heading west, maybe this orientation because my bed is facing west? Sure I'll go, why not?
I lay down light switched off - awareness of inner perception grown. There I sense with eyes closed a row of women and girls. They are asking me for permission if they could come in. After some thought I figured there would be no harm letting them in.
They all started to slip inside me - like I was a house and inside me is a couch where they were seated. I was a little hesitant to let any more in. The place inside me is overcrowded and I'm worried I don't even know what I just let in. They're fusing with my body and the physical surrounding and I felt there was going to be some kind of entity possesion going on. I tried to stop the rest from coming in but a majority already slipped inside.
Now I see a row of young girls - teenagers maybe. An entire row of them but it's dark. They're observing me and then remove their attention and apply it to some other presence. Once again a presence greater than all of us. The girls start to prostrate before that presence. I realize this is some kind of worship. I feel I need to do the same, but I'm still in bed percieveing two worlds - the world where my bed is and the world where there's a worship going on. It might be rude to remain in bed - I could feel the presence approaching me and get on the floor with knees bent. It's getting closer to my turn where the presence will come to greet me. I feel aprehensive and decide to get back in bed and relax - the presence looks a little startled and all the girls look a little perplexed at my behaviour. Then I say 'I worship no one'. They start to feel or begin to whisper to each other.
Switch on light thinking I will simply come out of that state and it will just end - and it literally does end in the most unexpected way. The side of my window - there's a masculine energy coming through. A young boy and others are wearing my house - the boy wearing the side of window looks at me and tells me he's in charge now. He tells me that everything that I've known - the rest of the house - the other parts of my life - people I know have ended now. And I felt it - everything stopped I couldn't hear my family members in the house and that whining sound was really loud like the world really had ended and I regret having decided to make this trip. So much I'm regretting now - my duvet starts to move and I know it's the entities I gave permision to enter my house without any consideration. My room feels like it is shaking - it's moving because the boy is running away with it.
Instead of an AP I am having the reversal, inverse of an AP - this is an in-the-body experience. I feel the deep fear of ending - how could it just all end? There's a sadness but I know there's not much left to do. Suddenly the boy places his attention on somewhere outside in this other place - not on earth because that has ended the only part that remains is the bedroom, myself these entities and a sense of being elsewhere.
There is someone there, giving orders to the boy to stop - some kind of official. I could tell he is being forced to get out of the house - to literally stop wearing it like a garment. As he is being pulled away looks at me angrily telling me that he's not done with me - wow what a bully!
I could feel it, everything is being put back together, get out of room check downstairs everything and everyone is as it should be. Relieved.
Return to room there I still sense them all. I can hear them humming a lullaby as if to soothe me. Feeling extremely cold get in bed - I can feel movement inside. It's the entities I let in - they are feeling me inside. They feel like balls of energy up my legs. I feel a massaging near buttock area going up in my lower back. It spreads throughout the spine. Instead of going straight to the response of fear I ask K energy to do what it has to do. I think K is making them work, it seems that K's agenda overrides their agenda whatever that may be.
I fell asleep and would wake up 2 hours later which occured several times. They're doing something to the body. An infusion with Kundalini energy?
Each time I know I have to go back to sleep - no need to be awake for what they're doing - it might be intensely painful. Waking up each time I was exhausted feeling some deep tissue pain. This interrupted sleep or whatever it was occured 3 times. When it occured for the last time I was told 'just one more time' - I knew I had to relax, try to fall asleep again and then I did a lot of vivid dreaming.
In one dream I'm in my garden - different looking. I bid a large man farewell and as I turn around I see mosquitos and other flies carrying faeces to some dumping ground - they're cleaning up? Then I stand near the door and witness the sun shining brighter and get the message - get some sunlight.
When the thief comes to rob you - not your valuables or possessions but to literally steal you after having robbed you of everything - I don't think there's anything in this world that can prepare you for it, no scripture and no teacher. Even working through your fears will probably do very little in terms of comfort in such a situation.
Friday, 28 January 2011
Whining Sound
I hear this whining whizzing sound coming from the sky. The birds are louder - quality of sound has become crisp. The whining sound is like an end of the world kind of alarming sound - not loud enough that it is disrupting.
It has occured since latest Salvia experiences.
It has occured since latest Salvia experiences.
Parental Attention
There was enough Salvia leaves for 2 quids, but knowing and understanding the association I have with it I simply seperated it into 3 parts - because 3 convinces me that it's working to a greater degree.
Eyes closed this time carried like on a conveyor belt and then parked in some kind of factory - I'm getting this all through eyes closed perception. There were little beings - they're moving so rapidly working on me piecing me together - changing parts etc getting me prepared for something.
Then with eyes opened the room stretched - it was wider. Room expanding rather than contracting in previous experience. The others are being summoned. Once again we're going somewhere. The one summoning, a parent? or driver of this ride? The others start to point at me - I am thinking of what it is I want to do - that same dream - paradise on earth - but it's a ride.
Start to investigate this desire. I don't want to be here, life to be like this - I have a vision like many others. Then I am struck at the depth of this thought - I'm okay where I am - it's not so bad - I don't dislike my environment I just hate the terrible relationships I have and that is what I am trying to escape. And I realize for the first time - my desire for paradise is simply the desire to escape. I want to escape - to run away from here. I ask for healing to those around me for my own selfish purpose - if they're better than it is better for me.
The room is slowly being put back together as if to suggest that I got from this experience what I needed. When the room starts to shrink back to the usual size I tried once again to put in another input. I tell them to stop at some point where the room is still larger than it really is or was in PR. I suggest to them that my room was actually that big before I took Salvia and should they shrink it any further it would go against what is stored in the memory bank that forms the room. Once again there's no fooling this system. I think it's the brain that needs fooling and not the essence that shapes the form.
I also start to remind them that I recall being a little taller - and start to get concerned about the possibility of shrinking.
I take this moment to send my thanks to Anastasia who shared her wisdom in the Ringing Cedars Books and really sparked my desire to create a paradise here on earth. Though I realized that one can be inspired to do something and use it as a form of escape from something else, one can also be completely inspired.
Eyes closed this time carried like on a conveyor belt and then parked in some kind of factory - I'm getting this all through eyes closed perception. There were little beings - they're moving so rapidly working on me piecing me together - changing parts etc getting me prepared for something.
Then with eyes opened the room stretched - it was wider. Room expanding rather than contracting in previous experience. The others are being summoned. Once again we're going somewhere. The one summoning, a parent? or driver of this ride? The others start to point at me - I am thinking of what it is I want to do - that same dream - paradise on earth - but it's a ride.
Start to investigate this desire. I don't want to be here, life to be like this - I have a vision like many others. Then I am struck at the depth of this thought - I'm okay where I am - it's not so bad - I don't dislike my environment I just hate the terrible relationships I have and that is what I am trying to escape. And I realize for the first time - my desire for paradise is simply the desire to escape. I want to escape - to run away from here. I ask for healing to those around me for my own selfish purpose - if they're better than it is better for me.
The room is slowly being put back together as if to suggest that I got from this experience what I needed. When the room starts to shrink back to the usual size I tried once again to put in another input. I tell them to stop at some point where the room is still larger than it really is or was in PR. I suggest to them that my room was actually that big before I took Salvia and should they shrink it any further it would go against what is stored in the memory bank that forms the room. Once again there's no fooling this system. I think it's the brain that needs fooling and not the essence that shapes the form.
I also start to remind them that I recall being a little taller - and start to get concerned about the possibility of shrinking.
I take this moment to send my thanks to Anastasia who shared her wisdom in the Ringing Cedars Books and really sparked my desire to create a paradise here on earth. Though I realized that one can be inspired to do something and use it as a form of escape from something else, one can also be completely inspired.
The Funfair Ride
Morning at 8:20 am. On second Salvia quid there was an immediate shift but felt like 3 would convince me of its effects - something to do with beliefs I hold and comfort zone. I know I don't need to take Salvia for these experiences but I have made an association with it that will take some time wearing off.
I lay down waiting to AP.
The beings that put together material reality or maybe they are just wearing it - move and reveal themselves - these are like actual people.
There is this other perception, I feel I am being carried somewhere and being rearranged, wherever I'm going this needs to be done, need to stay silent, no thoughts.
At some point look at carpet - the room is squeezing and collapsing on itself. It's like two parts of room compressing into each other.
I start to feel like I'm on a train - no, more like a rollercoaster ride. In the front of the carriage there I sense two others seated looking at me trying to gain consciousness. I am being told we're on a ride. I think I am feeling it more than being told this. I remember only it's hazy, I want to remember the exact moment I got on - it feels so familiar. Now I know - others who come in (to PR) are in a queue waiting to get on this ride.
There's a tall pipe going up in PR on top of neighbours roof I can see out of window there's a shape at tip that always looked like an eye to me. It started to move - a being housed in it with its eye now moving. It was looking around scanning the outside like a watchman.
They're telling me not to worry - we'll be getting off soon - when? 2012 - I want the exact Earth time. I feel dissatisfied of the life I created - it's inadequate. I get this feeling to want to do something in order to impress them. Is this just my ego overriding? My story has to be better than what it is, it has to be amazing and spectacular - but it doesn't matter it's just a ride and we'll be off soon (there's this we presence here). They tell me there's no need to impress them - it's just a game. Fine, I tell them to at least give me some super powers to make life a little more interesting and easier.
The beings are re-melting - entities of surrounding atmosphere forming back into bedroom surrounding - I can see people jittering, they're faces melting into the wall - in our ordinary (which is not really ordinary - it's dull ) state of mind it would look painful. As they reform one part of wall outside I can feel my brain is being used - whatever is stored in there is shaping the building. It uses my memory of what I'm used to to remake the building. I try a little trick - in my mind I play with the idea that one pipe on the building has the shape of an elephants trunk and that it was pink - but there's no fooling this reality - old memories are firm and fixed. There are times when I have been away from home for months at a time and when I'd return things always felt a little different like mind/brain needed to once again acclimate to surrounding.
Suddenly I just understand things I never understood until that point and I saw my life story and how it was leading to this moment, everything I went through to get to this point.
Still one last question that I must ask. If we are not the people we think we are, then who are we really. Who am I? It seems most questions are answered except for this one.
These are all the questions I wrote down wanting answers to:
Who am I?
Why am I here on this ride?
When in Earth time will we be leaving?
What will happen in the time that we leave?
Later at 10am decided to finish remaining Salvia leaves in bowl to get some answers.
I lay down waiting to AP.
The beings that put together material reality or maybe they are just wearing it - move and reveal themselves - these are like actual people.
There is this other perception, I feel I am being carried somewhere and being rearranged, wherever I'm going this needs to be done, need to stay silent, no thoughts.
At some point look at carpet - the room is squeezing and collapsing on itself. It's like two parts of room compressing into each other.
I start to feel like I'm on a train - no, more like a rollercoaster ride. In the front of the carriage there I sense two others seated looking at me trying to gain consciousness. I am being told we're on a ride. I think I am feeling it more than being told this. I remember only it's hazy, I want to remember the exact moment I got on - it feels so familiar. Now I know - others who come in (to PR) are in a queue waiting to get on this ride.
There's a tall pipe going up in PR on top of neighbours roof I can see out of window there's a shape at tip that always looked like an eye to me. It started to move - a being housed in it with its eye now moving. It was looking around scanning the outside like a watchman.
They're telling me not to worry - we'll be getting off soon - when? 2012 - I want the exact Earth time. I feel dissatisfied of the life I created - it's inadequate. I get this feeling to want to do something in order to impress them. Is this just my ego overriding? My story has to be better than what it is, it has to be amazing and spectacular - but it doesn't matter it's just a ride and we'll be off soon (there's this we presence here). They tell me there's no need to impress them - it's just a game. Fine, I tell them to at least give me some super powers to make life a little more interesting and easier.
The beings are re-melting - entities of surrounding atmosphere forming back into bedroom surrounding - I can see people jittering, they're faces melting into the wall - in our ordinary (which is not really ordinary - it's dull ) state of mind it would look painful. As they reform one part of wall outside I can feel my brain is being used - whatever is stored in there is shaping the building. It uses my memory of what I'm used to to remake the building. I try a little trick - in my mind I play with the idea that one pipe on the building has the shape of an elephants trunk and that it was pink - but there's no fooling this reality - old memories are firm and fixed. There are times when I have been away from home for months at a time and when I'd return things always felt a little different like mind/brain needed to once again acclimate to surrounding.
Suddenly I just understand things I never understood until that point and I saw my life story and how it was leading to this moment, everything I went through to get to this point.
Still one last question that I must ask. If we are not the people we think we are, then who are we really. Who am I? It seems most questions are answered except for this one.
These are all the questions I wrote down wanting answers to:
Who am I?
Why am I here on this ride?
When in Earth time will we be leaving?
What will happen in the time that we leave?
Later at 10am decided to finish remaining Salvia leaves in bowl to get some answers.
Dreams of Things to Come?
These dreams have reference to my life and felt so prophetic like warning signs. In one dream my cousin's husband who in reality has a very substantially large income bracket is suddenly made redundant - she is depressed and tells me how suddenly it feels like all hell has broken loose.
In another dream - there is a woman on the floor she is paralysed possibly having a heart attack I seek help and then the feeling that one of my brother is going to pass away soon washes over me and hear my eldest sister's cries.
Then there are other snippets of dreams about my favourite tv show 'Medium' where the characters are acting out various scenes - in the dream Joe Dubois starts to have visions and precognitive dreams about his family members.
Waking up I felt the dreams giving me a message of future points and I feel completely indifferent about it - especially after what has been revealed in my recent adventure with Salvia.
In another dream - there is a woman on the floor she is paralysed possibly having a heart attack I seek help and then the feeling that one of my brother is going to pass away soon washes over me and hear my eldest sister's cries.
Then there are other snippets of dreams about my favourite tv show 'Medium' where the characters are acting out various scenes - in the dream Joe Dubois starts to have visions and precognitive dreams about his family members.
Waking up I felt the dreams giving me a message of future points and I feel completely indifferent about it - especially after what has been revealed in my recent adventure with Salvia.
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