Sunday night at about 11 chewed on small amount of Salvia. This batch was less bitter. There was a transition but not as smooth as others, not much fluttering. The body still took on the feeling of plasticity, as though it were a toy thing. Perception of others open but dim, hard to percieve with clarity, felt like something or someone was deliberately making things hazy. Parts of body seperating curling. Too tired, just wanted to sleep.
Monday morning at around 10ish am chewed a bit more Salvia than night before. Again less bitter but still unpleasant tasting, transition different to other transitions, no fluttering instant sudden changing. Feel like this batch may not be as potent as previous Salvias or there is something else going on within the body that is not allowing clearer open perception. Others of physical organism present again doing something to the body - perception too hazy. However the knowings or insights are present, there is this absolute feeling of complete power and ability to do anything, to create anything. However being aware of the whole make up of material matter one looses all sense all need to do anything - it is almost as if wanting something, wishing to change something were desires born out of fear and ultimately out of ignorance. I have been eating loads of coconut chips lately - yummy. The digestive system was awake, I was aware of the being that made this part up.
Something about these Salvia sessions... they were very short, less vivid and less clarity than in other experiences. Also I did not have that desire to use this plant as I once did, it seems as though I am slowly losing the need for it. I have about 30 or so grams left which I will finish throughout the next few months taking only in intervals.
That day an unexpected thing did occur as I sat silently in front of the mirror details of which will be included in the next post.
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