Past week hornet signs showing up everywhere - today it came to my mind. Was doing some online shopping and tried to remind myself once again to look up hornet totem info and almost completely forgot for a few seconds until I scrolled down amazon page and there was a book on adscroll 'The Girl Who Kicked The Hornets' Nest' and then that was it - looked it up. The hornet is a wasp so it would seem whatever applies to wasp also applies to hornets.
Looking up hornets I realized that what I've actually been seeing are yellowjackets.
Tuesday, 31 August 2010
Saturday, 28 August 2010
Royalty
Last night got Salvia ready, while it was soaking at about 2:10am relaxed and didn't really feel like chewing the leaves. I almost fell asleep when suddenly spontaneously exhaled for very long which as always startled me. Tried to relax again to let the exhale take place without disrupting the flow, instead there were slight spontaneous movements.
Got started on the chewing - this time felt like just getting it out the way, felt like a chore. Towards final quid I bit my tongue which worried me coz it felt really intense.
This time things shifted as usual but so much more energetic, my left eye kept closing I couldn't keep it open. There was a sense of an energy coming in it was so familiar to me. I figured it was like some kind of team (the energy) - it had an air of royalty about it, like it was supreme, there were other energy beings beside it but they would move aside to let this royal team in. Then when the energy was right in my face it began to communicate non-verbally and the recognition came instantly. I was so humbled in its presence and simply listened to every unspoken word. It said 'Be nice to him, treat him well and care for him'. It was referring to my 5 year old nephew Ray who belongs to this magnificent energy pattern and that is what I recognized it to be. I could see the energy almost as a giant face peering at me - hard to describe.
In physical reality my eldest sis and her kids came for holiday to London and I have not really been getting along with my sister (a lot of conflict). Ray agitated me a little y'day and out of irritation I told him to go away but soon cheered him up after that.
I asked the energy being if Ray's older bro and sis belonged to this same energy pattern but did not get an answer though it's like deep down I knew they are not of that pattern neither is the mother.
Of course when I was told by that energy being to be nice to Ray it wasn't a demand specifically for me but for those who are around him and unfortunately there's a lot of sibling rivalry taking place between his elder siblings which I can see is having a bad effect on him.
I can't recall how I responded but I acknowledged what was said and amazingly in that state I retained a lot of 'me', the physical identity. When I woke up this morning and recalled last nights incidents there was that immediate sense of something feeling different - I just wanted to go around telling everyone to treat Ray as though he were extra special.
He is a very sweet, adorable and intelligent kid, however he is also super hyper at times and has the ability to talk 24/7 - his mum has told me that at home the only way she could stop him from talking so much is by plugging her ears.
Got started on the chewing - this time felt like just getting it out the way, felt like a chore. Towards final quid I bit my tongue which worried me coz it felt really intense.
This time things shifted as usual but so much more energetic, my left eye kept closing I couldn't keep it open. There was a sense of an energy coming in it was so familiar to me. I figured it was like some kind of team (the energy) - it had an air of royalty about it, like it was supreme, there were other energy beings beside it but they would move aside to let this royal team in. Then when the energy was right in my face it began to communicate non-verbally and the recognition came instantly. I was so humbled in its presence and simply listened to every unspoken word. It said 'Be nice to him, treat him well and care for him'. It was referring to my 5 year old nephew Ray who belongs to this magnificent energy pattern and that is what I recognized it to be. I could see the energy almost as a giant face peering at me - hard to describe.
In physical reality my eldest sis and her kids came for holiday to London and I have not really been getting along with my sister (a lot of conflict). Ray agitated me a little y'day and out of irritation I told him to go away but soon cheered him up after that.
I asked the energy being if Ray's older bro and sis belonged to this same energy pattern but did not get an answer though it's like deep down I knew they are not of that pattern neither is the mother.
Of course when I was told by that energy being to be nice to Ray it wasn't a demand specifically for me but for those who are around him and unfortunately there's a lot of sibling rivalry taking place between his elder siblings which I can see is having a bad effect on him.
I can't recall how I responded but I acknowledged what was said and amazingly in that state I retained a lot of 'me', the physical identity. When I woke up this morning and recalled last nights incidents there was that immediate sense of something feeling different - I just wanted to go around telling everyone to treat Ray as though he were extra special.
He is a very sweet, adorable and intelligent kid, however he is also super hyper at times and has the ability to talk 24/7 - his mum has told me that at home the only way she could stop him from talking so much is by plugging her ears.
Thursday, 26 August 2010
Exhalation and Excess Sweating
Last night as I went off to sleep my right arm surged with electricity, there were tingling sparks. Suddenly I was alarmed awake and spontaneously exhaled with hushed tones. This happened a few times.
Woke up this morning dripping in sweat but no signs of fever or any illness. This is obviously body detoxing due to Kundalini energy.
Woke up this morning dripping in sweat but no signs of fever or any illness. This is obviously body detoxing due to Kundalini energy.
Wednesday, 25 August 2010
Salvia By The Light of The Moon
Last night at about 1am got some Salvia ready on a whim, not quite planned out. As I was in the process of getting it ready I noticed the full moon which was coming round to the other side and I thought about how the moon can send information. My focus would be on the moon and hopefully I would be in time and the moon wouldn't disappear to the other side. This thought of the moon just popped in my head.
I let Salvia soak for 25 mins and then decided to roll the leaves in the dark beside bedroom window since moonlight was seeping in. 8 quids, started chewing slowly, masticating it thoroughly. Somewhere towards my 5th quid the effects were super fast and intense and put my bowl down. Heard a background sound which made me get up and chew the remaining quids.
As I finally rest my head on pillow the moon got to an angle where the light shone on my face, amazing how seamless this seemed to flow. I had not planned it out at all, it seemed that though I had decided to get the Salvia ready by impulse it was definitely intended - just that I'm not the one who was deciding. There was a flow that I was in sync with which seems to carry on to some degree in ordinary waking consciousness.
The surrounding is stirring from its slumber but this time my complete attention is on the moon - I'm waiting for the moon to stir awake or perhaps it would be more accurate to say I'm waiting to wake up to the moon so that we could communicate. Physically I could feel my eyes rolling around awkwardly whilst my gaze was fixed on the moon.
I remember at some point my mind seemed to wander off and then I came back and saw the window part was completely bulged out and this time because I caught another glimpse of the moon I forgot about reshaping it.
In this experience I could feel a retained memory of myself to a sufficient degree, I didn't forget my physical identity. I thought about all the important things in my life right now, my hopes and dreams. Returning to ordinary consciousness was very slow. I became aware of being under the duvet but it seemed to weigh a tonne. The duvet, the surrounding it all felt like a part of me. When I was moving I felt like I was moving a part of me.
I think I have a good analogy to describe what it feels like to be a part of everything. Imagine there is a field - the field could be composed of anything, mud, clay or even play dough. I'll stick with clay. Imagine the field as flat, then you see a bump somewhere, it gets bigger and bigger until it forms into a shape - and there are a vast number of shapes forming. The shapes are pasted with details and colours, soon they are alive and moving. The shapes have more dimension. Now there are so many shapes, so different looking to each other and unique but essentially they are all the same, it is all really just clay in many forms.
This is how under the effects of Salvia I visually see everything - literally seeing everything as it is.
Okay, so then I just relaxed closed eyes by which time the moon light dissipated as it moved along. Brain pulsing waves present. Then I felt energy going up the spine but I was still under the effects of Salvia which made me feel differently and I felt that had I not used Salvia I don't think I would've been able to handle that energy completely physically focused. In comparison to that other state the physcial state is like an exageration hence why Kundalini feels so intense when physically aware. In that other state the K feels like such a simple process you're not entirely sure if it's even real - perhaps it is a part of the illusion.
There were also moments where I would breathe out automatically with a sense of anxiety - no panic or sense of danger just some really anxious exhalations.
I fell asleep and dreamt about Salvia - recall is hazy but I think I dreamt about someone telling me to drink it with something or to take it in liquid form.
I let Salvia soak for 25 mins and then decided to roll the leaves in the dark beside bedroom window since moonlight was seeping in. 8 quids, started chewing slowly, masticating it thoroughly. Somewhere towards my 5th quid the effects were super fast and intense and put my bowl down. Heard a background sound which made me get up and chew the remaining quids.
As I finally rest my head on pillow the moon got to an angle where the light shone on my face, amazing how seamless this seemed to flow. I had not planned it out at all, it seemed that though I had decided to get the Salvia ready by impulse it was definitely intended - just that I'm not the one who was deciding. There was a flow that I was in sync with which seems to carry on to some degree in ordinary waking consciousness.
The surrounding is stirring from its slumber but this time my complete attention is on the moon - I'm waiting for the moon to stir awake or perhaps it would be more accurate to say I'm waiting to wake up to the moon so that we could communicate. Physically I could feel my eyes rolling around awkwardly whilst my gaze was fixed on the moon.
I remember at some point my mind seemed to wander off and then I came back and saw the window part was completely bulged out and this time because I caught another glimpse of the moon I forgot about reshaping it.
In this experience I could feel a retained memory of myself to a sufficient degree, I didn't forget my physical identity. I thought about all the important things in my life right now, my hopes and dreams. Returning to ordinary consciousness was very slow. I became aware of being under the duvet but it seemed to weigh a tonne. The duvet, the surrounding it all felt like a part of me. When I was moving I felt like I was moving a part of me.
I think I have a good analogy to describe what it feels like to be a part of everything. Imagine there is a field - the field could be composed of anything, mud, clay or even play dough. I'll stick with clay. Imagine the field as flat, then you see a bump somewhere, it gets bigger and bigger until it forms into a shape - and there are a vast number of shapes forming. The shapes are pasted with details and colours, soon they are alive and moving. The shapes have more dimension. Now there are so many shapes, so different looking to each other and unique but essentially they are all the same, it is all really just clay in many forms.
This is how under the effects of Salvia I visually see everything - literally seeing everything as it is.
Okay, so then I just relaxed closed eyes by which time the moon light dissipated as it moved along. Brain pulsing waves present. Then I felt energy going up the spine but I was still under the effects of Salvia which made me feel differently and I felt that had I not used Salvia I don't think I would've been able to handle that energy completely physically focused. In comparison to that other state the physcial state is like an exageration hence why Kundalini feels so intense when physically aware. In that other state the K feels like such a simple process you're not entirely sure if it's even real - perhaps it is a part of the illusion.
There were also moments where I would breathe out automatically with a sense of anxiety - no panic or sense of danger just some really anxious exhalations.
I fell asleep and dreamt about Salvia - recall is hazy but I think I dreamt about someone telling me to drink it with something or to take it in liquid form.
Friday, 20 August 2010
Ausome Water and Ormus
I am currently researching Ausome water and Ormus. I will be ordering the A Water soon, intuitively feel this is the next step and just feel so guided to head in this direction. As yet my expectations are very low but the signal to get this is so strong, with the ormus not so much but still feel guided to do more research.
I have read the testimonials and from that I've gathered it is safe - after all it is pure water energetically charged.
I'm not sure why I even want to take the Ausome water, but it is like I am being drawn to these pockets of information about this and that and then something is sparked and the urges seem to play out by themselves. It has been the same way with Salvia - I obsessed several days about the legal issues of certain natural plants such as cannabis and eventually researching this area I found out about Salvia which led me to explore an area I was very cautious about in the past.
Since the beginning of this year a lot of stuff has played out like this such as my adaptation to a vegan diet and so much more. This year everything has been synchronistically falling into place so smoothly, so subtle though I would not have been able to notice it all if I weren't so aware.
I have read the testimonials and from that I've gathered it is safe - after all it is pure water energetically charged.
I'm not sure why I even want to take the Ausome water, but it is like I am being drawn to these pockets of information about this and that and then something is sparked and the urges seem to play out by themselves. It has been the same way with Salvia - I obsessed several days about the legal issues of certain natural plants such as cannabis and eventually researching this area I found out about Salvia which led me to explore an area I was very cautious about in the past.
Since the beginning of this year a lot of stuff has played out like this such as my adaptation to a vegan diet and so much more. This year everything has been synchronistically falling into place so smoothly, so subtle though I would not have been able to notice it all if I weren't so aware.
Wednesday, 18 August 2010
Lucid Touch
It starts off outside a building that is very familiar to me - I am outside the primary school I attended and say out loud how everything still looks the same. I then look to the left and there is a slope which I don't ever recall being there. I go through a door into the corridor up the familiar staircase.
I am scanning a massive room, walk towards wall and I touch everything and surprised it is so solid as I expected my hands to just go through. I keep feeling my way around the place so utterly astounded with the solidity.
Can't recall anything further at this time.
I am scanning a massive room, walk towards wall and I touch everything and surprised it is so solid as I expected my hands to just go through. I keep feeling my way around the place so utterly astounded with the solidity.
Can't recall anything further at this time.
Monday, 16 August 2010
The Trap
This is one of those very weird dreams
I'm with a friend, we see a man by some rocks and in a crater filled with water we could see some kind of melon sliced in chunks. The man is eating this and then offers to us. We silently eat. Suddenly we're at this man's house. The friend accidently scratches a bit of his flooring leaving him utterly anxious, paranoid and angry all at the same time. He tells me that his father is on the floor above and how we must be quite - I have the impression that his father is an old disabled man and also very controlling.
There is something creepy about this man and his father who we have yet to meet. I look around for my friend but cannot find him. The man is talking from a distance and saying that he wants to get taste of me at which point I'm panicking looking for an exit.
Soon my friend appears and I repeat to him what I heard the man say and look for an exit until we both realize we have been trapped.
I'm with a friend, we see a man by some rocks and in a crater filled with water we could see some kind of melon sliced in chunks. The man is eating this and then offers to us. We silently eat. Suddenly we're at this man's house. The friend accidently scratches a bit of his flooring leaving him utterly anxious, paranoid and angry all at the same time. He tells me that his father is on the floor above and how we must be quite - I have the impression that his father is an old disabled man and also very controlling.
There is something creepy about this man and his father who we have yet to meet. I look around for my friend but cannot find him. The man is talking from a distance and saying that he wants to get taste of me at which point I'm panicking looking for an exit.
Soon my friend appears and I repeat to him what I heard the man say and look for an exit until we both realize we have been trapped.
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