Extraordinary phenomenas are becoming extra ordinary, so much that I barely take note of these incidents.
As I wrote in my previous post I do not get interrupted in the middle of sleep anymore which really is a good thing but only downside being that I don't get that many opportunities to project and broken sleep had helped in the past, then again I really haven't been bothered - too preoccupied.
However upon waking up in the mornings there is that same energy all around vibrating, pulsating and moving and it is at these moments or when I am relaxing that the energy is intense. This energy vibe goes on 24 hours and is right now fluttering in peripheral vision and if I stay still for a while it amplifies.
Haven't meditated for like ever. It feels impossible I don't know if it is because I just have too much going on right now but I hope to start adding in some time for meditation.
Haven't dared touch Salvia for some time and the thought of doing a session had crossed my mind 2 or 3 times, the timing did not feel right.
Lately I have needed to seriously loosen the physical body and have been dancing a lot - got to a point where if I didn't dance I would become so miserable, and the thought of dancing lifted up my mood as well as some chocolate. Sometimes in the middle of dancing I would pause and remain still where I allow some of the involuntary movements - the body would move as if still dancing but not under my control - something else is definitely controlling these movements, the parts of the body? souls/spirits? energies? honestly I am clueless in this regard however I don't mind it at all - in fact I know I have to do this 'allow 'it' to move the body' as often as I can almost like I have to let it run it's course.
Tuesday, 3 April 2012
Saturday, 10 March 2012
Sleeping Without Interruption
For a while now my sleep pattern has changed. Previously I was constantly waking up at a specific time, usually after 2 or 3am and it would take forever to fall asleep again.
Nowadays I am sleeping throughout the night without these interruptions. The causes of these interruptions varied such as emptying bladder, nightmares and rarely something external however it may have been that I was harboring some internal parasites which at this point seem to be leaving. I only wake up now when I set a very clear intention and can also set a specific time although I have only used this setting internal alarm method twice in such a long time.
Nowadays I am sleeping throughout the night without these interruptions. The causes of these interruptions varied such as emptying bladder, nightmares and rarely something external however it may have been that I was harboring some internal parasites which at this point seem to be leaving. I only wake up now when I set a very clear intention and can also set a specific time although I have only used this setting internal alarm method twice in such a long time.
Sunday, 4 March 2012
H202 Therapy and Healing Stuff
As part of a healing process I have started on H202 Therapy from about a month ago. There are several websites online that go into the details and instructions of this therapy. I am also currently oil pulling in the morning.
I have abandoned Urine therapy for the time being - for some few months now as I've noticed white clumps in urine, possible yeasts and candida die off going on at the moment. I have to admit this healing process seems so bloody long - I wish I could just be done with it.
Since starting H202 therapy I have also slowly started adding fermented foods and beverage in my diet - so far sauerkraut and kefir water, this seems necessary to repopulate digestive system with healthy bacteria since H202 destroys everything in its path.
Also eating healthy but there are still times where I fall off the wagon. I'm slowly learning to fall off the wagon taking a more sophisticated approach - like eating raw chocolate, yum!
Need to start meditating more, implementing relaxation techniques - it can be so tough now relaxing my mind I feel like in the past I could relax and meditate easy, these days I am just too in my head.
I have abandoned Urine therapy for the time being - for some few months now as I've noticed white clumps in urine, possible yeasts and candida die off going on at the moment. I have to admit this healing process seems so bloody long - I wish I could just be done with it.
Since starting H202 therapy I have also slowly started adding fermented foods and beverage in my diet - so far sauerkraut and kefir water, this seems necessary to repopulate digestive system with healthy bacteria since H202 destroys everything in its path.
Also eating healthy but there are still times where I fall off the wagon. I'm slowly learning to fall off the wagon taking a more sophisticated approach - like eating raw chocolate, yum!
Need to start meditating more, implementing relaxation techniques - it can be so tough now relaxing my mind I feel like in the past I could relax and meditate easy, these days I am just too in my head.
Thursday, 23 February 2012
A Sad Feeling
I have been feeling an emotion that is difficult to describe - it is some kind of sadness that comes without warning and has no cause, there is a hint of grief, the feeling of having lost something very dear.
I have written about this before since it has happened several times. I feel that whatever it is I need to comfort it, to soothe it - something that lives within me.
I have written about this before since it has happened several times. I feel that whatever it is I need to comfort it, to soothe it - something that lives within me.
Two Recent Salvia Trips
Salvia Flu Energy Pattern Reunion
After previous bad experiences with taking Salvia when my niece was around I have no idea what came in my head to take it again with her in the house. This particular niece has become pretty toxic and I wish there is something I can do for her but she is going through her own path of discovery much like I had when I was her age.
Past two days I heard my niece sneezing, also I have been pretty depressed and now I've discovered a pattern - I get like this during huge family gatherings - and I also get the cold or flu at the same time. This time with Salvia I got to go within and meet this rather cruel flu pattern.
In bed I start chewing forgetting that my niece is sleeping in the room next door. It's only when I go deeper unfolding within and around her - I stumble across an energy pattern that seems to be near her. They observe me and cunningly start to overtake the physical body. I feel agitated knowing that whatever got in or within me was destined for my niece. I was extremely pissed and then the flu overwhelmed me. The physical pain happened instantaneously, when I walked around the house my body was shaking partly from feverish chills and just vibrating. This is that same nightmarish flu I had almost two years ago at that time I got it from the same person, my niece. I was in bed the entire day sick and upset - I know past week I became extremely depressed allowing my energy to dip around others but I think the main thing that really upset me is that past year I had worked so hard cleaning up my diet and strengthening my immune system that I thought this year I won't get the flu or cold.
Paralyzed in bed with this thought running along in my mind I remembered that I had H202 (currently on a H202 therapy) and I recall reading that people used this to prevent flu. Put a few drops in my ears that night. The following day still with the flu but significantly better. More drops and I was recovering fast, really fast. I imagine had I not done this that energy pattern known as the Flu may have kept me paralyzed for at least a week - two years ago it took almost a month for me to recover.
Salvia Post Flu
The other day with my sister and her kids gone home I decided to have a Salvia session.
Before Salvia session much earlier in the day I was looking at my chest - a few of my ribs stick out and look so awkward. Like a teenage girl this a part of my body I wished to change - I remember pushing in my shoulders trying to make my chest look the way I wanted it to look. This incident is important and correlates with what happens in the session otherwise no need for me to share too much info.
As I relaxed I thought I need to get off Salvia - to travel in those other worlds without any physical aid.
This time as I was going in observed in that other world where I see this world as an illusion the 'others' were taking me somewhere. Like always I sensed it was some special place, I quieted my mind as much as I could but suddenly I opened my eyes without thinking and all came to a halt.
They stopped turned back looking at me. Uh oh. I was so disappointed in myself. Should not have moved, even peeping a little bit was bad. If I had remained quiet I would've gone even deeper.
I closed eyes trying to go deeper, the others presence lingered all around me and deep within the body. There was a group gathering around the chest and they made me recall my earlier desire to have these realign in order to look better. As they moved I could feel almost as if they were teasing me to actually move the bones around. I begged them not to - the thought of it freaked me out, I don't think I could survive that kind of pain.
There was a lot of gushing and so many chaotic body cell movement. Something was being done to the nose and I felt it to be a test. The tip of my nose was heavily itchy had to keep rubbing it - this went on for quite some time.
After this session I was feeling much better, as though I made a better connection though I interrupted movement deep within, also it helps that I have recovered 95% from a case of potentially fatal flu.
After previous bad experiences with taking Salvia when my niece was around I have no idea what came in my head to take it again with her in the house. This particular niece has become pretty toxic and I wish there is something I can do for her but she is going through her own path of discovery much like I had when I was her age.
Past two days I heard my niece sneezing, also I have been pretty depressed and now I've discovered a pattern - I get like this during huge family gatherings - and I also get the cold or flu at the same time. This time with Salvia I got to go within and meet this rather cruel flu pattern.
In bed I start chewing forgetting that my niece is sleeping in the room next door. It's only when I go deeper unfolding within and around her - I stumble across an energy pattern that seems to be near her. They observe me and cunningly start to overtake the physical body. I feel agitated knowing that whatever got in or within me was destined for my niece. I was extremely pissed and then the flu overwhelmed me. The physical pain happened instantaneously, when I walked around the house my body was shaking partly from feverish chills and just vibrating. This is that same nightmarish flu I had almost two years ago at that time I got it from the same person, my niece. I was in bed the entire day sick and upset - I know past week I became extremely depressed allowing my energy to dip around others but I think the main thing that really upset me is that past year I had worked so hard cleaning up my diet and strengthening my immune system that I thought this year I won't get the flu or cold.
Paralyzed in bed with this thought running along in my mind I remembered that I had H202 (currently on a H202 therapy) and I recall reading that people used this to prevent flu. Put a few drops in my ears that night. The following day still with the flu but significantly better. More drops and I was recovering fast, really fast. I imagine had I not done this that energy pattern known as the Flu may have kept me paralyzed for at least a week - two years ago it took almost a month for me to recover.
Salvia Post Flu
The other day with my sister and her kids gone home I decided to have a Salvia session.
Before Salvia session much earlier in the day I was looking at my chest - a few of my ribs stick out and look so awkward. Like a teenage girl this a part of my body I wished to change - I remember pushing in my shoulders trying to make my chest look the way I wanted it to look. This incident is important and correlates with what happens in the session otherwise no need for me to share too much info.
As I relaxed I thought I need to get off Salvia - to travel in those other worlds without any physical aid.
This time as I was going in observed in that other world where I see this world as an illusion the 'others' were taking me somewhere. Like always I sensed it was some special place, I quieted my mind as much as I could but suddenly I opened my eyes without thinking and all came to a halt.
They stopped turned back looking at me. Uh oh. I was so disappointed in myself. Should not have moved, even peeping a little bit was bad. If I had remained quiet I would've gone even deeper.
I closed eyes trying to go deeper, the others presence lingered all around me and deep within the body. There was a group gathering around the chest and they made me recall my earlier desire to have these realign in order to look better. As they moved I could feel almost as if they were teasing me to actually move the bones around. I begged them not to - the thought of it freaked me out, I don't think I could survive that kind of pain.
There was a lot of gushing and so many chaotic body cell movement. Something was being done to the nose and I felt it to be a test. The tip of my nose was heavily itchy had to keep rubbing it - this went on for quite some time.
After this session I was feeling much better, as though I made a better connection though I interrupted movement deep within, also it helps that I have recovered 95% from a case of potentially fatal flu.
Saturday, 11 February 2012
Another Sing Along Song
This occurred three days ago - early morning going back to sleep in a relaxed state of mind I felt like I had earphones on and was listening to music. This time the song playing is 'Is Pyaar se meri taraf na dekho'. Singing along I know that I'm in bed and that I don't have mp3 player actually neither had I ever listened to this song at all - only briefly when I was a teenager. Lately I've been playing a few mellow bollywood tunes but I wouldn't say it triggered these incidents. In fact it was only after the previous song incident that inspired me to listen to my player again.
Back to this experience - suddenly I heard my sister and she sounded anxious. I quickly respond asking her what happened since it seemed urgent. Almost jumped out of bed only I was a little stuck. Raised arms and they were incredibly buoyant but were silhouette. Then I raised my legs same buoyancy and silhouette. I can't recall how I exited scene but was very groggy and needed more sleep.
Back to this experience - suddenly I heard my sister and she sounded anxious. I quickly respond asking her what happened since it seemed urgent. Almost jumped out of bed only I was a little stuck. Raised arms and they were incredibly buoyant but were silhouette. Then I raised my legs same buoyancy and silhouette. I can't recall how I exited scene but was very groggy and needed more sleep.
Saturday, 4 February 2012
Darkness in the Clouds
Interesting dream I had this morning.
At first I'm talking to my new neighbours and I talk about their garden telling them I've seen it before and would like to just walk around there for a bit. I talk a bit about previous neighbours and mentioned the neighbour who passed away last year memories of him looming through.
After that the scene changes drastically - I am surrounded by strangers yet I seem to know some of them. The clouds are dark, gloomy, very angry and even dangerous looking. I can feel that something isn't right and I have to get out and follow the storm - to communicate with it. As I try to leave I am being held back, forced to stay. The others are concerned about my well being. I continuously make attempts to run away and somehow manage to escape, it is around this point that I was incredibly lucid I can recall the dream events after this part but remember opening physical eyes briefly looking out for the entities / beings in surrounding environment. Too groggy and something going on in head.
From yesterday afternoon I became unusually depressed - my mood taking a completely unexpected dip, just holding back tears until finally I took a nap. I am no stranger to this mood fluctuation but have not had it often and it is accompanied with an empty sadness that seems to have no source. Now mood is pretty much back in a neutral mode. I wonder if the dream is a reflection of this - also physically I have been giving into my emotional eating habits, old cravings taking over perhaps simply a part of the cleansing but then everything is connected.
At first I'm talking to my new neighbours and I talk about their garden telling them I've seen it before and would like to just walk around there for a bit. I talk a bit about previous neighbours and mentioned the neighbour who passed away last year memories of him looming through.
After that the scene changes drastically - I am surrounded by strangers yet I seem to know some of them. The clouds are dark, gloomy, very angry and even dangerous looking. I can feel that something isn't right and I have to get out and follow the storm - to communicate with it. As I try to leave I am being held back, forced to stay. The others are concerned about my well being. I continuously make attempts to run away and somehow manage to escape, it is around this point that I was incredibly lucid I can recall the dream events after this part but remember opening physical eyes briefly looking out for the entities / beings in surrounding environment. Too groggy and something going on in head.
From yesterday afternoon I became unusually depressed - my mood taking a completely unexpected dip, just holding back tears until finally I took a nap. I am no stranger to this mood fluctuation but have not had it often and it is accompanied with an empty sadness that seems to have no source. Now mood is pretty much back in a neutral mode. I wonder if the dream is a reflection of this - also physically I have been giving into my emotional eating habits, old cravings taking over perhaps simply a part of the cleansing but then everything is connected.
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