I am having a lot of nature dreams, however upon waking up in the morning I have this profound sense that I dreamt something once again about nature - it is a deep inner impression. It's like the powerful emotions are being downloaded as I wake up however there's nothing visual that I can make sense of. Very cryptic. This morning it was about trees but there was more to it than that and yesterday morning I dreamt something about seeds but my feelings tell me there was more to it than that. My brain just cannot register all the details so that I can write about it.
This has been happening to a greater degree since having the intention, since the birth of the desire to go back to my roots (truly). I'm taking all this as a sign, I have had intentions in the past few years and have had impressions of these intentions reflected in subtler ways but nothing as alive as my current desire to reconnect with nature.
Sunday, 7 March 2010
Saturday, 6 March 2010
Lately Dreaming
Interesting how the quality of dreams just keeps on changing. There are just too many of these to record here add to that the fact that these dreams are overwhelmingly long and highly theatrical.
Here are just the 2 I can recall at this time.
The Narrow Escape
There is a frightened frail looking old man who is narrating to me his recent encounter and escape from a murderer. It happened that he passed by a mansion, peering through the window he told me of an unusual presence he felt in this darkness. Turning away from the window and manking his way home by the light of the moon a shadow formed on the ground before him, still just a few steps away from the window. The shadow was of a man with a knife in his hand. He tells me of all the close calls he had with this murderer, telling me about how he even saw this murderer stab a few pieces of bread, compressing it all together so that he gets many breads in one biteable size. Also in another near-death moment the murderer hacks away at some brick walls, trees and plants in a pathway.
I'm quite astounded by Grandpa's account of his near, very near death experience. Suddenly the images of his story begins to flash through my mind and as if by some auto mechanism it seems that the story has some kind of pattern trying to make me alert about something vital, something that I missed. I thought it through, there were some clues in the story. Not sure what I was looking for I just continued to think it through as if life depended on it. The story was told with such great clarity but even more so it seemed how each moment, every incident of the tale was continued always by a narrow escape from the murderer.
At the final moment a question came to mind - how did this frail old man manage to escape from a seemingly super strong murderer and how does he know so much about this murderer? Standing before me was no longer a frail old man, but someone who liked to address himself in third person. I took a step back ready to scream at any moment, however at the moment that fear begins to take a hold of me I wake up to the physical very early at 3am with the bright moon radiating light through the window.
Singing a Song of King and Queen
In the physical reality I have a cousin with whom I'm not so close with but for some odd reason I have quite a lot of dreams about her, interesting dreams and these dreams are often related to things that are occuring in the physical reality. In a past dream just a few weeks ago I dreamt that we were outside in the middle of nowhere. She's lying down on her back resting on some kind of tomb and I am sitting by her side. She's pregnant (as is the case in the physical). There are people about but my focus is solely on my cousin. I place my hand on her belly and before me appears a young man, he has on a sweater with geometric patterns and many colours. I look to the other side and see a woman about the same age as the young man interestingly enough with the same sweater. I got the profound sense that these two were meant for each other.
In the physical reality a day or so after this dream I got the news from my sister that my cousin was bedridden in hospital bleeding excessively and then some more days later she gave birth to a boy via c-section. I haven't since made any effort to go visit them. In a recent dream, just a few days ago I dreamt that I was in her living room. She is holding her son who is looking at me, I cradle him in my arms sitting on the sofa. He is of course adorable. Suddenly I break out into a song, my voice gentle and rhythmic. I sing the song 'Raja Ko Rani Se' from the movie 'Akele Hum Akele Tum'. It's a movie I watched over a decade ago, one that made me cry like no movie ever would after it not even Titanic, I think I was about 11 or 12 at that time. For further interest here's the translation of the lyrics Raja Ko Rani Se.
Here are just the 2 I can recall at this time.
The Narrow Escape
There is a frightened frail looking old man who is narrating to me his recent encounter and escape from a murderer. It happened that he passed by a mansion, peering through the window he told me of an unusual presence he felt in this darkness. Turning away from the window and manking his way home by the light of the moon a shadow formed on the ground before him, still just a few steps away from the window. The shadow was of a man with a knife in his hand. He tells me of all the close calls he had with this murderer, telling me about how he even saw this murderer stab a few pieces of bread, compressing it all together so that he gets many breads in one biteable size. Also in another near-death moment the murderer hacks away at some brick walls, trees and plants in a pathway.
I'm quite astounded by Grandpa's account of his near, very near death experience. Suddenly the images of his story begins to flash through my mind and as if by some auto mechanism it seems that the story has some kind of pattern trying to make me alert about something vital, something that I missed. I thought it through, there were some clues in the story. Not sure what I was looking for I just continued to think it through as if life depended on it. The story was told with such great clarity but even more so it seemed how each moment, every incident of the tale was continued always by a narrow escape from the murderer.
At the final moment a question came to mind - how did this frail old man manage to escape from a seemingly super strong murderer and how does he know so much about this murderer? Standing before me was no longer a frail old man, but someone who liked to address himself in third person. I took a step back ready to scream at any moment, however at the moment that fear begins to take a hold of me I wake up to the physical very early at 3am with the bright moon radiating light through the window.
Singing a Song of King and Queen
In the physical reality I have a cousin with whom I'm not so close with but for some odd reason I have quite a lot of dreams about her, interesting dreams and these dreams are often related to things that are occuring in the physical reality. In a past dream just a few weeks ago I dreamt that we were outside in the middle of nowhere. She's lying down on her back resting on some kind of tomb and I am sitting by her side. She's pregnant (as is the case in the physical). There are people about but my focus is solely on my cousin. I place my hand on her belly and before me appears a young man, he has on a sweater with geometric patterns and many colours. I look to the other side and see a woman about the same age as the young man interestingly enough with the same sweater. I got the profound sense that these two were meant for each other.
In the physical reality a day or so after this dream I got the news from my sister that my cousin was bedridden in hospital bleeding excessively and then some more days later she gave birth to a boy via c-section. I haven't since made any effort to go visit them. In a recent dream, just a few days ago I dreamt that I was in her living room. She is holding her son who is looking at me, I cradle him in my arms sitting on the sofa. He is of course adorable. Suddenly I break out into a song, my voice gentle and rhythmic. I sing the song 'Raja Ko Rani Se' from the movie 'Akele Hum Akele Tum'. It's a movie I watched over a decade ago, one that made me cry like no movie ever would after it not even Titanic, I think I was about 11 or 12 at that time. For further interest here's the translation of the lyrics Raja Ko Rani Se.
Tuesday, 2 March 2010
Overcrowded and The Request
Past two days I have woken up earlier than usual. Each time I woke up staring out the window with the moon as bright as ever in the same exact position.
Last night I woke up at 3am and attempted AP at 6am which I haven't been able to do recently even though I have had plenty of opportunities. It has been difficult relaxing or even going back to sleep in those early hours since I wake up fully.
This morning I managed to relax a little, however there was an endless mental chatter about random stuff I can't recall. It was dark and suddenly a genderless voice in my right ear began to speak. "Tell us what you believe in. We will wait for you..." I thought that was an unusual request but began to ponder my beliefs. After a series of uh's, umm's and a aha I said as though I found the right answer "I believe in good kind people". As I waited for a response I was perplexed by what was implied by 'believe', maybe the request could've been a bit more specific and a hmm later I really wasn't sure what I believed in.
Then I felt myself moving in a downards motion and had a feeling that I was going to have a clearer connection with the person / being who spoke to me. I started feeling nervous which didn't last long as an uncomfortable sensation was induced in my right ear - it felt like it was about to ring and I braced myself.
Soon I began floating in a beautiful natural surrounding, I focused in on a tree that had fruits I could not recognise. On this tree there was an abundance of long leaves. It was comforting to be passing by here. I continued to float by and went up higher, passed by a busy city with tall corporate and apartment buildings. There was a highstreet with big neon logos - similar to McDonalds, KFC only much bigger and had a clubbing scene feel to it.
I noticed tall buildings with flat roofs and people occupying the top parts - there were a lot of people scattered everywhere. I continued passing by until surrounded by darkness where my right ear once again had that uncomfortable sensation. I knew that reality was once again about to shift and I had to just hold on. End of recall, woke up at about 8am.
Last night I woke up at 3am and attempted AP at 6am which I haven't been able to do recently even though I have had plenty of opportunities. It has been difficult relaxing or even going back to sleep in those early hours since I wake up fully.
This morning I managed to relax a little, however there was an endless mental chatter about random stuff I can't recall. It was dark and suddenly a genderless voice in my right ear began to speak. "Tell us what you believe in. We will wait for you..." I thought that was an unusual request but began to ponder my beliefs. After a series of uh's, umm's and a aha I said as though I found the right answer "I believe in good kind people". As I waited for a response I was perplexed by what was implied by 'believe', maybe the request could've been a bit more specific and a hmm later I really wasn't sure what I believed in.
Then I felt myself moving in a downards motion and had a feeling that I was going to have a clearer connection with the person / being who spoke to me. I started feeling nervous which didn't last long as an uncomfortable sensation was induced in my right ear - it felt like it was about to ring and I braced myself.
Soon I began floating in a beautiful natural surrounding, I focused in on a tree that had fruits I could not recognise. On this tree there was an abundance of long leaves. It was comforting to be passing by here. I continued to float by and went up higher, passed by a busy city with tall corporate and apartment buildings. There was a highstreet with big neon logos - similar to McDonalds, KFC only much bigger and had a clubbing scene feel to it.
I noticed tall buildings with flat roofs and people occupying the top parts - there were a lot of people scattered everywhere. I continued passing by until surrounded by darkness where my right ear once again had that uncomfortable sensation. I knew that reality was once again about to shift and I had to just hold on. End of recall, woke up at about 8am.
Tuesday, 23 February 2010
Intention Manifestation - Land Reflections
One of my recent intention has been to acquire a piece of land and I've never in my life been so inspired or moved in the way I am at this time. I'm realizing more (ever since asking for a clearing of any blockages concerning guidance) that things are unfolding more clearly for me. Though I haven't thought through all the details I have a clearer picture of what I really want.
First I knew it intuitively that certain changes at this moment are not only desirable but necessary especially if I want to improve the quality of my life right now.
Since I've had the intention I've been getting a lot of external reflections of my inner process. A huge part of this intention has been reflected in dreams, in the physical reality I'd hear people in mid conversation about land and people who've dreamed of cottage in the countryside. The biggest reflection was in a conversation I had with my brother. I did not bring up anything about land, in fact I was just listening to him ramble on. Suddenly out of the blue he tells me about how my mum bought several parcels of land for peanuts outside of England, something I learned for the very first time and now after 2 or so decades the profit is just unbeilavable. This news came shortly after I couldn't quite decide where I'd like to move to since I'm not sure about remaining in England.
So far I'm taking all these as a sign that I'm on the right track.
I made a list of the different countries where I intend to get this land but I'm still rather picky - very uncertain about the location. In the mean time I'm drawing up other plans until I can come to a decision.
First I knew it intuitively that certain changes at this moment are not only desirable but necessary especially if I want to improve the quality of my life right now.
Since I've had the intention I've been getting a lot of external reflections of my inner process. A huge part of this intention has been reflected in dreams, in the physical reality I'd hear people in mid conversation about land and people who've dreamed of cottage in the countryside. The biggest reflection was in a conversation I had with my brother. I did not bring up anything about land, in fact I was just listening to him ramble on. Suddenly out of the blue he tells me about how my mum bought several parcels of land for peanuts outside of England, something I learned for the very first time and now after 2 or so decades the profit is just unbeilavable. This news came shortly after I couldn't quite decide where I'd like to move to since I'm not sure about remaining in England.
So far I'm taking all these as a sign that I'm on the right track.
I made a list of the different countries where I intend to get this land but I'm still rather picky - very uncertain about the location. In the mean time I'm drawing up other plans until I can come to a decision.
Sunday, 21 February 2010
Flashing Visions and Tunes
Last night slept earlier than usual. Relaxed and comfortable a soft subtle sound began to fill my mind, a few seconds later I realized someone was humming inside my head. I recognized the tune as a hindu worship song, instrumental rather than actual singing in words. Opened my eyes and the sound became low. Closed eyes and a vision of gnomes appeared, several in a row. Their face featureless yet I sensed they were smiling, I myself was smiling as their presence made me feel warm.
Opened eyes for a brief moment then closed eyes and again more visions, more music playing in my ears. The visions were of several people - all these people looking very cheerful. In particular I remember seeing a japanese man, in a traditional outfit, a young looking sage. His face zoomed in filling up the entire field of my vision, I observed his very meticulous looking mustache and beard. He looked well groomed. I realized how crystal clear the image of this man was becoming, almost as though he was really there. Though his smile was infectious I was too overwhelmed by the clarity of this vision, snapped my eyes open and then I was thinking too much which may have blocked the visions and sounds from unfolding.
I'm not sure who this man was - someone from a past life or a spirit guide. I think somehow making time for connection with angels and devas could be the result of this. There's also more phenemona taking place, such as flashing lights. The other day as the flashing white sparks of light occured I noticed a larger spot of steady white light (orb) moving from the left of my vision to the right. I followed it until it disappeared.
I'm going to label such experiences as 'The Clairs' from now on as these visions are related with clairvoyance, clairauidience and other clairs.
Opened eyes for a brief moment then closed eyes and again more visions, more music playing in my ears. The visions were of several people - all these people looking very cheerful. In particular I remember seeing a japanese man, in a traditional outfit, a young looking sage. His face zoomed in filling up the entire field of my vision, I observed his very meticulous looking mustache and beard. He looked well groomed. I realized how crystal clear the image of this man was becoming, almost as though he was really there. Though his smile was infectious I was too overwhelmed by the clarity of this vision, snapped my eyes open and then I was thinking too much which may have blocked the visions and sounds from unfolding.
I'm not sure who this man was - someone from a past life or a spirit guide. I think somehow making time for connection with angels and devas could be the result of this. There's also more phenemona taking place, such as flashing lights. The other day as the flashing white sparks of light occured I noticed a larger spot of steady white light (orb) moving from the left of my vision to the right. I followed it until it disappeared.
I'm going to label such experiences as 'The Clairs' from now on as these visions are related with clairvoyance, clairauidience and other clairs.
Thursday, 18 February 2010
Awakening God-Like Qualities
Recently solely via clear intuitive guidance and inspiration I've bought books on angels, nature spirits, herbs and magic.
Reading through "Archangels And Ascended Masters: A Guide to Working and Healing With Divinities and Deities" by Doreen Virtue, instead of asking certain deities for direct assistance with the task at hand I asked that those same qualities be awakened within me. So yesterday afternoon I worked with the two goddesses whose qualities I felt necessary at the time for effectively creating what I wanted, the 2 goddesses in this case were Abundantia and Lakshmi. I also asked my spirit guide team members (angels, spirit guides beings of love and light) to assist me in anyway that they can so that I may be able to channel the divine qualities that are my birthright.
Went into a deep altered state while at the same time being aware of physical movements in my body - my brain was literally shifting. 45 minutes and my head weighed tonnes and I felt so heavily sleepy and drowsy. Mentally I was fully awake, my body required a lot of effort to shift and I tried to just give in to sleep. As I moved to sleep on my front side my body snapped awake, normal functioning returned and the drugged feeling wore off.
Reading through "Archangels And Ascended Masters: A Guide to Working and Healing With Divinities and Deities" by Doreen Virtue, instead of asking certain deities for direct assistance with the task at hand I asked that those same qualities be awakened within me. So yesterday afternoon I worked with the two goddesses whose qualities I felt necessary at the time for effectively creating what I wanted, the 2 goddesses in this case were Abundantia and Lakshmi. I also asked my spirit guide team members (angels, spirit guides beings of love and light) to assist me in anyway that they can so that I may be able to channel the divine qualities that are my birthright.
Went into a deep altered state while at the same time being aware of physical movements in my body - my brain was literally shifting. 45 minutes and my head weighed tonnes and I felt so heavily sleepy and drowsy. Mentally I was fully awake, my body required a lot of effort to shift and I tried to just give in to sleep. As I moved to sleep on my front side my body snapped awake, normal functioning returned and the drugged feeling wore off.
Sunday, 14 February 2010
Reality In Reverse
Some day last week before bedtime I put forth the intention for my dreams to awaken me within the dream, so that I may begin to take control and direct the dream consciously (Lucid dreaming).
I started dreaming a lot of upside downess of my current reality. In these dreams there are a lot of things in reverse. For eg. in one dream I was getting off a bus and decided to check out the library. This library was changed dramatically, all computers were on the ground floor where in physical reality there are bookshelves on ground floor and the computers on the top floor, plus a small museum. I headed upstairs giving some thought to the dramatic change however I accepted this change simply because I have not been to this library in a long time. Once I got upstairs there was a lot of strangeness that were definite signs pointing out to me that I was dreaming, for eg. there was another set of stairs which were upside down, completely in reverse and a series of writing spiralling upwards. Had a series of dreams like this but still just did not get the hint.
I started amping my intention and now I am beginning to act out these dreams in the physical reality. Yesterday morning I was dreaming that I was eating some kind of soup from a tin and I've stopped eating tinned food for a long time now, a hint to wake up I guess. I look at the rim of the tin and notice a moulding fungus growth, out of revolt I head to the bin spitting out the remaining soup left in my mouth. Continuously spitting I wake up to physical reality, on my bed spitting out on my pillow.
My intention for the next attempt is to program a certain anomaly which I will recognise as a symbol to help me realize I'm dreaming. Haven't thought of what this anomaly will be but when I get time will ponder it some more.
I started dreaming a lot of upside downess of my current reality. In these dreams there are a lot of things in reverse. For eg. in one dream I was getting off a bus and decided to check out the library. This library was changed dramatically, all computers were on the ground floor where in physical reality there are bookshelves on ground floor and the computers on the top floor, plus a small museum. I headed upstairs giving some thought to the dramatic change however I accepted this change simply because I have not been to this library in a long time. Once I got upstairs there was a lot of strangeness that were definite signs pointing out to me that I was dreaming, for eg. there was another set of stairs which were upside down, completely in reverse and a series of writing spiralling upwards. Had a series of dreams like this but still just did not get the hint.
I started amping my intention and now I am beginning to act out these dreams in the physical reality. Yesterday morning I was dreaming that I was eating some kind of soup from a tin and I've stopped eating tinned food for a long time now, a hint to wake up I guess. I look at the rim of the tin and notice a moulding fungus growth, out of revolt I head to the bin spitting out the remaining soup left in my mouth. Continuously spitting I wake up to physical reality, on my bed spitting out on my pillow.
My intention for the next attempt is to program a certain anomaly which I will recognise as a symbol to help me realize I'm dreaming. Haven't thought of what this anomaly will be but when I get time will ponder it some more.
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