Awakened at 5:30am after having a dream where I was visited by a shadow being only it wasn't as scary as it was in my recent experience.
At 7:00am I wanted to get more sleep but had a feeling I was going to AP instead. Once completely zoned out I felt a zapping in my head - something swirling. It was intense, felt very energetic and I have felt this sensation before but not with this intensity or it could be that I remember that episode vaguely. I did not feel any discomfort. Floated up and my form moved to the center of the room where I was spinning without any conscious control. My vision was crystal clear but hard to focus when spinning incredibly fast. Suddenly my bed appeared beneath me and I saw my physical body under the duvet and for the first time I got a very clear view of my face.
The room was morphing as I was spinning - the spinning itself was actually quite fun but I really wanted to move on with the next phase. Soon enough I turned my head toward a corner where it was getting brighter and spotted a window, at this point the spinning had completely calmed down. The curtains were being withdrawn by some invisible force. I looked through the window, this was a gigantic window. At first tried moving towards it but I was firmly stuck in place, then I focused on it and thought about how I'd like to go through the window. Instead I found my eyes sort of drooping and I lost consciousness. Had an FA, returned to C-1 at 7:30am.
Monday, 2 February 2009
Sunday, 1 February 2009
Radio Tuning & Expanding
I've had these experiences before where I hear radio stations tuning in and playing music. However, I think this is my most expanded version of such an experience. After my previous experience 'Through the Looking-Glass' I didn't feel too sleepy just deeply relaxed.
So deeply relaxed that once I closed my eyes I instantly heard instruments playing and believed that someone externally blasted their stereo. Somewhat agitated by this I opened my eyes, it was 7:45am and completely silent. Closed my eyes again and the music continued to play only it was clearer and the sounds were softer, it sounded like a Hindu worship song and I can't remember all the words. I did hear Krishna being mentioned several times.
I don't follow any religion but I found myself enjoying this pleasant and soothing song. After the song ended I was completely relaxed and unable to sense my body. Heard the static noise when you change radio stations. Soon I was listening to an interview. The host was male and the guest was female, excited I listened carefully trying my best to memorise names, facts and any details that would give me clues about the radio station so I could look it up in order to verify it. However, as soon as I started getting all analytical the words began scrambling so I decided to just give that up and listen aimlessly.
Once the exciting interview ended the static noise returned and I was tuned in to another frequency where a song was playing. It went on like this for about an hour. I was continuously listening to bands such as Westlife and Boyzone and other bands that sang a lot of ballads. The tunes were familiar however the lyrics were very new. As a teenager these bands were my favourites and so it was quite nice hearing their songs in my head.
I can also recall that in between these songs I found myself in my room with furniture arranged differently and as I stared at the clock on my wall I felt a sense of shrinking as if becoming smaller and then expanding.
Returned to C-1 at 9:00am.
So deeply relaxed that once I closed my eyes I instantly heard instruments playing and believed that someone externally blasted their stereo. Somewhat agitated by this I opened my eyes, it was 7:45am and completely silent. Closed my eyes again and the music continued to play only it was clearer and the sounds were softer, it sounded like a Hindu worship song and I can't remember all the words. I did hear Krishna being mentioned several times.
I don't follow any religion but I found myself enjoying this pleasant and soothing song. After the song ended I was completely relaxed and unable to sense my body. Heard the static noise when you change radio stations. Soon I was listening to an interview. The host was male and the guest was female, excited I listened carefully trying my best to memorise names, facts and any details that would give me clues about the radio station so I could look it up in order to verify it. However, as soon as I started getting all analytical the words began scrambling so I decided to just give that up and listen aimlessly.
Once the exciting interview ended the static noise returned and I was tuned in to another frequency where a song was playing. It went on like this for about an hour. I was continuously listening to bands such as Westlife and Boyzone and other bands that sang a lot of ballads. The tunes were familiar however the lyrics were very new. As a teenager these bands were my favourites and so it was quite nice hearing their songs in my head.
I can also recall that in between these songs I found myself in my room with furniture arranged differently and as I stared at the clock on my wall I felt a sense of shrinking as if becoming smaller and then expanding.
Returned to C-1 at 9:00am.
Through the Looking-Glass
At 6:30am I fell asleep again almost instantly floating out. This time the sun was shining. I wondered what to do having set no previous goal. Then I thought about how it's hard work planning what to do in the astral when often those plans failed so I decided to leave it to my inner being and relaxed even more.
Rotated as usual and headed through the window where my vision became limited. I was looking through glass, I assumed it was glass because there was a clear circle in the middle and around this circle the remaining glass had a built up of what looked like condensation. I continued to move and as I gazed through the glass it was like seeing a whole new world. I passed by mountains, wild flowers and other truly amazing wonders of the world. The circle in the middle expanded giving clearer broader vision and soon it was like looking through brand new eyes.
I continued soaring into the sky without any direction, I felt such an incredible sense of freedom and utterly elated. Returned to C-1 at about 7:30am and had another experience, Radio Tuning & Expanding.
Rotated as usual and headed through the window where my vision became limited. I was looking through glass, I assumed it was glass because there was a clear circle in the middle and around this circle the remaining glass had a built up of what looked like condensation. I continued to move and as I gazed through the glass it was like seeing a whole new world. I passed by mountains, wild flowers and other truly amazing wonders of the world. The circle in the middle expanded giving clearer broader vision and soon it was like looking through brand new eyes.
I continued soaring into the sky without any direction, I felt such an incredible sense of freedom and utterly elated. Returned to C-1 at about 7:30am and had another experience, Radio Tuning & Expanding.
A Shadow Being lurks in the Dark
I woke up at 3:00am and two hours later tried going back to sleep without any intent to AP. Instantly I felt floating sensations and was soon spinning erratically. Rather than moving away from my body I ended up back in bed unable to move myself as I was in the SP state.
I sensed a presence nearby, looked across my bed and at the end there appeared to be a shadow on the wall. Once this shadow appeared more 3D I began to panic. The figure was illuminated by the moonlight seeping through the window, however it was difficult to see since the figure was completely draped in a dark cloak and rather large baggy hood. It looked like the Grim Reaper without a scythe. This being stood about 3 or 4ft away from my bed. I could still feel my body, just unable to move myself. Without warning my body slid across the bed towards the dark being. The more closer I got the more I was overwhelmed with fear. I forced myself backwards knowing that I can snap out of this and that any fear was based on my perception.
Again trying my best to feel secure in my position I watched the being cautiously. I saw an arm emerge out of the cloak, a fleshy looking arm that was very human in shape. This Being placed its arm forward as if offering help. My fear had almost completely eradicated when I finally began to move, I reached out my own arm and placed my hand into that of the being. I felt no sense of touch until I felt a hand touching my body in a rather sexual manner. Almost crippled with fear at this point I focused on my physical body, wiggled my fingers and returned to C-1 at 5:30am.
I should probably note here that in the past two days I've been so severely stressed that sleeping has since become rather difficult. As for the 'Hemi-Sync Wave I' I skipped the 'Release and Recharge' and moved onto 'Exploration, Sleep' basically to help me fall asleep easier which it has and my dreams have since amplified. I'm not sure if the stress triggered such a seemingly negative experience. The only fear that was present was based on my perception of what dark and hidden signifies; evil. As for the hands I felt on my body I have no idea what that was.
After this scary trip in the dark I had two more experiences which in comparison are positive and uplifting.
I sensed a presence nearby, looked across my bed and at the end there appeared to be a shadow on the wall. Once this shadow appeared more 3D I began to panic. The figure was illuminated by the moonlight seeping through the window, however it was difficult to see since the figure was completely draped in a dark cloak and rather large baggy hood. It looked like the Grim Reaper without a scythe. This being stood about 3 or 4ft away from my bed. I could still feel my body, just unable to move myself. Without warning my body slid across the bed towards the dark being. The more closer I got the more I was overwhelmed with fear. I forced myself backwards knowing that I can snap out of this and that any fear was based on my perception.
Again trying my best to feel secure in my position I watched the being cautiously. I saw an arm emerge out of the cloak, a fleshy looking arm that was very human in shape. This Being placed its arm forward as if offering help. My fear had almost completely eradicated when I finally began to move, I reached out my own arm and placed my hand into that of the being. I felt no sense of touch until I felt a hand touching my body in a rather sexual manner. Almost crippled with fear at this point I focused on my physical body, wiggled my fingers and returned to C-1 at 5:30am.
I should probably note here that in the past two days I've been so severely stressed that sleeping has since become rather difficult. As for the 'Hemi-Sync Wave I' I skipped the 'Release and Recharge' and moved onto 'Exploration, Sleep' basically to help me fall asleep easier which it has and my dreams have since amplified. I'm not sure if the stress triggered such a seemingly negative experience. The only fear that was present was based on my perception of what dark and hidden signifies; evil. As for the hands I felt on my body I have no idea what that was.
After this scary trip in the dark I had two more experiences which in comparison are positive and uplifting.
Wednesday, 28 January 2009
Hemi-sync: Wave I - Discovery #3 - Advanced Focus 10
This morning I moved on to the Advanced Focus 10 track where the Resonant Energy Balloon (REBAL) tool is introduced to the process. The REBAL acts as a magnet, attracting desired influences and shielding undesired energy.
I have had some experience with the REBAL tool in the past however more practice is required before I could share anything significant since I have not used it consistently.
This morning all the exercises went well except for the affirmation part - I will stick to using a shorter similar version of the Gateway Affirmation. Surprisingly did not click out, maybe because I was well rested and relaxed enough to remain conscious.
I have had some experience with the REBAL tool in the past however more practice is required before I could share anything significant since I have not used it consistently.
This morning all the exercises went well except for the affirmation part - I will stick to using a shorter similar version of the Gateway Affirmation. Surprisingly did not click out, maybe because I was well rested and relaxed enough to remain conscious.
Disoriented
This morning at 7:20 after a hemi sync exercise I attempted to project. Did not practice any breathing methods or technique to induce AP. I just simply got in a comfortable position and as always through trial and error I find lying down on my back to be the most comfortable.
Instantly, I felt a kneading sensation in my head and the whole floating process began. This time I felt myself getting sucked upwards at incredible speed, not able to see anything. Soon I was in the middle of my garden, a little disoriented and wondered how I got there. Eventually I realized I was projecting. It was raining just as much as it was raining in reality, could be RTZ but that's not much to go on if looking for validation.
I was snapped back in bed before I could even decide what to do next. Tried again, felt vibrations and something fluttering in my ears which was very annoying and distracting. My second attempt failed and I ended up having some vivid dreams where I remember manipulating the DCs and events though I have forgotten the dream itself. End.
My projections are always very brief and they tend to mostly end in the pre-astral state. Lately I have been going to bed very late sleeping around 1:30am. I think I need to rest more in order to have clearer longer lasting projections.
Instantly, I felt a kneading sensation in my head and the whole floating process began. This time I felt myself getting sucked upwards at incredible speed, not able to see anything. Soon I was in the middle of my garden, a little disoriented and wondered how I got there. Eventually I realized I was projecting. It was raining just as much as it was raining in reality, could be RTZ but that's not much to go on if looking for validation.
I was snapped back in bed before I could even decide what to do next. Tried again, felt vibrations and something fluttering in my ears which was very annoying and distracting. My second attempt failed and I ended up having some vivid dreams where I remember manipulating the DCs and events though I have forgotten the dream itself. End.
My projections are always very brief and they tend to mostly end in the pre-astral state. Lately I have been going to bed very late sleeping around 1:30am. I think I need to rest more in order to have clearer longer lasting projections.
Tuesday, 27 January 2009
A Sense of Knowing
Last night I had a very profound experience, at least by my standards. At 11:45 pm I prepared for the hemi-sync exercise listening to 'Wave I - Introduction to Focus 10'. I have been ill the past few days having sinus problems which have amazingly cleared up today. In the past few days it was difficult doing the resonant tuning exercise since I was experiencing breathing difficulties, but I didn't let that get in the way. Also I know that the reason why I had fallen ill in the first place was because of my negative attitude towards a certain situation.
During the exercise last night I was conscious until the end of the relaxation process where I believe I clicked-out. Returned to full waking consciousness at the exact moment Monroe says 'Wake up, open your eyes'.
After the exercise I fell asleep and awakened some minutes later in the middle of the night. Upon opening my eyes I immediately noticed how quiet it was. I was in shock for the first few minutes trying to gather my thoughts. Very much awake and knowing that I was in the physical I was worried that I had become deaf when all I could hear was silence. I got up and stopped halfway noticing that I was moving in slow motion. I looked around and had an unusual feeling that everything had stopped and froze in it's place even though the furniture and items in my room were already inanimate. My whole life appeared to be a picture and I was the frame that held it in place.
I couldn't hear the ticking of my clock and immediately had the sense that somehow time had stopped. In the midst of all this timelessness a sense of knowing came to me. This knowing was that 'I am an unlimited being, I am completely free regardless of all my learned limitations'. Although I have learned about Law of Attraction and even deliberately manifested things, in the past I have always tried to incorporate the idea that I am an unlimited being in my belief system. This has always been a belief even though my manifestations should be evidence enough I never knew with certainty.
I have been so comfortable believing things suddenly having this 'knowing' that I am completely free is rather overwhelming at least when it occured. Now that I have had time to digest things I am willing and open to go beyond my learned limitations and beliefs. For now, I have no expectations of where my exploration will take me as I am more aware now that when it comes to the Unknown - expect the unexpected.
"The greatest illusion is that mankind has limitations" Robert A. Monroe 1915
During the exercise last night I was conscious until the end of the relaxation process where I believe I clicked-out. Returned to full waking consciousness at the exact moment Monroe says 'Wake up, open your eyes'.
After the exercise I fell asleep and awakened some minutes later in the middle of the night. Upon opening my eyes I immediately noticed how quiet it was. I was in shock for the first few minutes trying to gather my thoughts. Very much awake and knowing that I was in the physical I was worried that I had become deaf when all I could hear was silence. I got up and stopped halfway noticing that I was moving in slow motion. I looked around and had an unusual feeling that everything had stopped and froze in it's place even though the furniture and items in my room were already inanimate. My whole life appeared to be a picture and I was the frame that held it in place.
I couldn't hear the ticking of my clock and immediately had the sense that somehow time had stopped. In the midst of all this timelessness a sense of knowing came to me. This knowing was that 'I am an unlimited being, I am completely free regardless of all my learned limitations'. Although I have learned about Law of Attraction and even deliberately manifested things, in the past I have always tried to incorporate the idea that I am an unlimited being in my belief system. This has always been a belief even though my manifestations should be evidence enough I never knew with certainty.
I have been so comfortable believing things suddenly having this 'knowing' that I am completely free is rather overwhelming at least when it occured. Now that I have had time to digest things I am willing and open to go beyond my learned limitations and beliefs. For now, I have no expectations of where my exploration will take me as I am more aware now that when it comes to the Unknown - expect the unexpected.
"The greatest illusion is that mankind has limitations" Robert A. Monroe 1915
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