The Sensation Of No Body

Today I woke up at 7:00am from a very violent dream.

After 15 minutes went back to sleep and found myself in a state of sleep paralysis. My eyes were open and my vision was clouded by a blob of violet spreading like ink. I had trouble breathing and felt like I might be suffocating.

I felt some sensation around my face and it felt like I had a face mask on. Removed the mask and breathing returned to normal. I lifted my arms to look at them only there was nothing there but just the sensation of them being there. The same goes for the rest of my body. I sat up, lifted my legs and tried to take a good look at myself. When I moved my legs and arms there was just the sensation of motion but nothing visually there.

I can't recall much about my surroundings.

I Dream of Projecting

Woke up around 7:00 am and after 30 minutes of listening to some relaxing music I fell asleep. I was dreaming of viewing a property to buy and suddenly became somewhat aware that I was in a dream. The walls were a bright peach colour. I touched the walls which felt very solid. Soon I was in front of some patio doors that looked a bit rusty. I was becoming even more aware and alert enough to practice some out of the ordinary skills. I imagined a red strip to appear on the window and it did. I continued experimenting different colours all of which appeared successfully. I focused outside of the window and my vision zoomed in and out for a while. I decided to walk through the door and unfortunately that's where I lost consciousness for some time.

Eventually found myself in bed paralysed and tried to get out of my body. Struggled to get out so I decided to just snap out of the sleep paralysis and move my physical body. I don't wake up instead I continue to dream unconsciously, but they are dreams that I can recall. Upon waking up I realized that the very near astral projection was me dreaming about nearly astral projecting.

I'm still not sure about Lucid Dreams and I don't have much experience with them. Some people believe that Astral Projections or OBEs are advanced Lucid Dreams and others believe that the two are very different. What about ordinary dreams where we have no conscious awareness? They are just like astral projections only we're not as conscious in them. I think they're all pretty much the same thing with different labels and hopefully with more experience I can expand on my understanding.

So Much For Getting Back In The Flow !

My previously mentioned project has taken most of my time these past weeks. I have not had any astral projections last month nor the chance to meditate and listen to hemi-sync. The only experience I did have was the other day when I found myself in that body asleep/ mind awake state (focus 10) where I heard Justin Timberlake singing a song I've never heard before. I'm not a huge fan of Mr Timberlake but this song was amazing and nothing like any of his other songs. In fact it was nothing like anything I've ever heard before. As I was listening to the words I registered it to my memory so that when I awake I can write it down - upon waking up the words had completely escaped me.

I think it's in these states that Artists, Musicians and pretty much everyone get their inspirations from, more on this later.

I feel inclined not to mention that I will be meditating and starting up on hemi-sync again, because each time I do I seem to have no time. So, no more planning. I will report back only when I have any relevant experiences and at the end of each week report back all the methods I have used.

Hemi-Sync: Getting Back In The Flow With Advanced Focus 10

Last night before falling asleep I listened to Advanced Focus 10. As I began getting comfortable and within 5 minutes of the audio I realized I was completely ignoring the instructions given by Monroe. This was because my mind was elsewhere thinking about random things. I had to start from the beginning 3 times. On the third attempt I managed to follow the instructions.

After getting comfortable I imagined my energy conversion box and inside this box I placed all my worrisome thoughts.

I then did the resonant tuning (a breathing exercise). I noticed as I was breathing that my eyelids and my forehead were very tense so I relaxed them. This helped feeling the energy in my head as I continued with the breathing exercise. I could feel the energy stored in my head increasing. More energy than usual, felt like something heavy crushing against my skull. Managed to stay conscious enough for the next part, creating my resonant energy balloon with the energy stored in my head. Felt tingling sensations around my feet as I was creating the resonant energy balloon.

By the time Monroe counted up to 10 I was feeling really spacey and light.

Smiling During Meditation

I meditated a few hours ago. The meditation lasted for a brief 10 minutes and I think I could've gone deeper had it not been for the external noise. I caught myself smiling without my control during this meditation session unaware of the reason for the smile. I remember experiencing this with the hemi-sync cd. I felt so calm and at peace.

Right now my main goal for meditation is to connect with my inner being / higher self. As well as meditating now (hopefully on a daily basis), I intend to listen to the hemi-sync cd before sleeping.

I'm Back But Not Yet That Bad...

So in the span of 2 weeks I think I almost cracked like a nut. The project I was working on was renovating a property that is currently getting there. What made the project worse than it should have been was that I had a deadline and a budget small enough for me to do most of the work.

I have never been so stressed in my entire life - not sure if this should be attributed to the fact that I haven't been meditating. So much for being mindful. I guess in retrospect my experience these past weeks have not been so bad - some things did go well.

I've decided to hire the professionals to finish off all the major works so I can just relax - for now. As for astral projections - I have not had any experiences as expected. I did however fall ill for a few days and the interesting thing about that is it happened at the time when I was most angriest.

I'm exhausted

I've just taken on a project which is requiring a lot of muscle work and right now I feel like a sack of potatoes. I might be working on this for about 2 weeks which means I'll have no time to meditate. I guess this is a great opportunity to try to be mindful (meditate) whilst working on my project.

I have a feeling that from this exhaustion I might have an astral projection. Here's what happened the last time I was this exhausted.