astral phase - distorted reality

I tried so many different techniques to go to sleep after waking at 5:00 am. Eventually I used the astral phasing technique of just noticing stuff behind my closed eyelids. I got to the point where I saw a misty cloud and then a flash. I ended up in a bedroom that looked like it belonged to a boy. The theme of the room was Blue. It looked like it was still dark outside. Then I noticed a sword to my left. It was bright and the blade seemed to have sort of sandy stripes. Throughout this whole experience this sword was in my view in the same place.

Somehow I was speeding into a tunnel made up of raw flesh. Looked like reversed skin, reminds me of juba juba's belly in the zelda game. At first it was fun going through the tunnel without moving myself, felt like a joy ride but then it wouldn't stop and felt like forever. I got so bored I ended up thinking to myself. I thought of all the things I would like to intend perhaps repeat some affirmations.

Then through all this clutter of thoughts I heard a thought that didn't seem to belong to me. It asked 'Can you hear me?' at which point I was just thrilled. I asked who it was but there was no response. Then my eyes opened wide and what I thought was a sword was my blinds on the window.

The Town Train

Woke up around 4:00 am found it difficult to sleep. I made every effort to just fall asleep - counting up to 100 and back down to 0. The last thing on my mind was astral projection but I ended up making a trip shooting out of my bed and flying to the garden where I sprinted from one garden to another. This was fun but then I think slowly I was becoming unconscious and everything became dream-like.

I eventually found myself around my town - lucid. There was a big toy like train going across some blocks of flats with people inside it. I know there was more but can't remember much now.

Astral Phasing

Attempted phasing early morning. Felt a vibration which felt more like a mild massage on my forehead. I have been using holosync these past 2 weeks and think maybe this could be why I did not get the annoying type of vibrations and that ringing sensation in my ears.

First I floated upwards and decided that I will not try to control the experience and just let it happen. I was spinning round and round above and could see the texture of the ceiling above me. Then I began to sink to the next floor down from my room. Everything was dark but I noticed the outlines of some furniture and the window. I continued sinking further downwards. Things were getting even darker. This repeated 3 times.

During one phasing I heard a voice similar to Jane Roberts – when she channels Seth. The words sounded mumbled I only managed to make out the word ‘sin’ in one sentence. On my fifth try I decided to take some control. I imagined getting out through the walls and I did, then I imagined it was day time and the sky was blue and so it was. After that I lost consciousness.

- It's easy for me to project when my sleep is interrupted, but I think it's mostly because during these hours it is really quiet which makes it easier to concentrate. Most of my day time or evening time projections would eventually fail, due to external noise.

Projecting Physical Senses

Right ear started buzzing quite annoyingly, it felt like it was my ear drum. I began visualizing things I'd like to experience in order to distract myself from the ear buzzing. Lost consciousness in a fraction of a second. I was then in my kitchen where I found 3 large saucepans filled with rice and then I couldn't remember getting out of bed at which point I realized I was having a false awakening.

When projecting I usually do not bother to walk or do anything normal. This time I walked to the garden door without feeling heavy or stuck to the ground. I opened the door with my hands rather than just walking straight through it. As I walked out I felt the wind blow across my skin and I was breathing in and out. There was a nice pleasant smell. My garden is in an undesirable state which looked identical to the one in reality.

I began thinking of all the plants I knew of, some I created with my wild imagination. In an instant they began appearing nicely arranged in my garden. This was great and I was just smiling all the way throughout.

Across my garden is another row of houses with adjoining gardens. I flew across wanting to see what the other garden looks like. The only thing I've seen in reality in this garden opposite mine is a large shed and a door with broken window. When I flew across everything was beginning to get hazy and dark I felt at that moment that I'm only seeing what I'm expecting to see and if I don't expect to see anything I probably wouldn't. So I began expecting to see plant pots and so on. I flew higher to get a better view of the garden, there were plant pots as I expected.

I somehow woke up from this closed my eyes to try it again. My right ear was buzzing even more annoyingly. I wanted to really do it again but ended up forcing myself out of it.

The buzzing itself did not hurt, it's just one of those annoying internal sensations that just feel so weird.

Another Phasing

Woke up at 6 am, couldn't sleep so I thought about projecting. However, I didn't care as much about projecting as I did about getting enough sleep. So I induced sleep instead but ended up with sleep paralysis. I noticed I was able to move my arms so I grabbed the edge of my bed and for some reason held on tight. I'm not sure if I was semi paralysed or I was half out. As I held on tight my head was vibrating and I felt the vibration was causing my brain to expand and contract, this sensation was pleasant.

Everything was of course dark, the way many of my projections start off. I began visualizing scenes which involved beaches and mountainous views. Then images began flashing before me, but they were not what I visualized. In fact I can't remember much about the images because they were flashing by faster than the speed of light. These images had a golden glow around them which would sometimes blend into a light shade of blue. The colours of the images were vibrant. I remember at some point I slowed things down and was seeing dolls, china dolls.

After a while of this something amazing happened. Everything just froze, all time seemed to have stopped. I was viewing a metal pole and then I became it. I was the pole. It's hard to explain it in words what that felt like but it was a very interesting experience. Next time, hopefully it will last longer.

Snowy screen

I woke up early morning and after 5 mins I closed my eyes. Behind my closed eye lids there was a snowy screen (The kind you get with TV reception problems). I was very aware of it. I opened my eyes and was still seeing the snowyness but it was transparent, I was also able to see my bedroom through it.

I closed my eyes expecting more, instead I fell asleep having several vivid dreams.

5 Projections and a meeting

Woke up 5:00 am then went back to sleep by 6:00 am - I seem to be doing this a lot lately.

I projected about 5 times and had no body vibrations. Each time I projected I had mobility problems and would start projecting all over again. I'd either sink through the floors or everything would just go dark. With each try I tried moving until my last projection I would glide around my house that looked very different. There were more rooms. I entered each room, they all looked the same. These rooms were empty. I started visualizing things I would like to see in these rooms but nothing seemed to work. This would've normally left me frustrated but I didn't even attempt to project.

I gave up trying to make things appear and somehow ended up in a room full of several people. Seemed like a meeting. I can't remember much about what was discussed since it's now vague. At some point a woman walked in, she looked like she was limping. Everyone fell silent and looked up at her. She was very pretty, I thought she might be a model.

Went on having several vivid dreams.