Initial After Recall of Truth Experience

Wrote this in my notebook after coming out of last nights intense experience.

@ 11:45pm chewed on 6 quid balls, at 11:55pm the effects were kicking in really fast. Used about 22 leaves since most of them were small. I knew the room was shifting. Interesting thing, the bed was moving left and right visually - not physically (but it's almost the same thing). At the time I, Jasmine the mask as well as the one behind knew deeply - some presence was teasing. Yes - another presence was shaking this - sort of like teasing. Imagine a Giant. This G has in its hand small people, like toys he moves about these people but to these people the G is invisible but despite that it's presence is known, familiar to them. The G is doing this to get it attention as if to say 'I know you see that I see you. That was the deep initial feeling I gathered.

I lay down on my back - surrounding communication. Mum, Dad and Uncle Si are in the kitchen. They talk so much and loud, despite this went deeper. Consciousness spread down and out, I could feel them, hear Uncle Si a bit louder.

As consciousness was spreading I knew what was happening - or should I say Jasmine's familiar with this movement but there's another aware part - aware of all movement, with great clarity and accurate precision - really hard to describe this.

Things got deeper, Jasmine was unravelling and wrapped with that other presence in the midst of truth. Everything was so clear. She knew that the Earth was a mold of creation and there was an urge to tell others about this amazing discovery. Still she felt to go further, still much more to learn, or to remember. The only thing however she needed to know was ever present, ever aware.

She was in the midst of a player - playing a game - she's a part of that game. As she merged into the conscious awareness of the One behind this all here are the events of which she became.

That other One was in a discussion with another - similar to earthly discussion but not with words - but with unspoken words.

Becoming small again there was a window of opportunity - in a warped kind of portal everything was getting sucked in - all reality was about to be wiped out and what was to remain was what is unknown. the program (physical) was about to be completely aborted - but physical sounds loomed in and before all Jasmine's memories were to be wiped out, mum's voice resounded loud and then J recalled her memories of her existence. Then someone says something, 'See, there is still much to be done, much to be changed'. Who was it? J? The One behind J?

There's mum's voice - it was weird to think 'my mum' while writing as if all sense of belonging has been wiped out. There was a feeling present, being irritated by the sound of the physical voice must've been coming from 'J'.

Physical police sirens - 'See, this world's mad needs changing - tweaking - The world needs to transform into a beautiful garden - then I'm ready, then I will go through that opened window.

Now I know from reading Krishnamurthi biographies why K would refer to himself in third person. K is a mask, a character. J is that as well any identification, person is that. Some point towards coming back there was sensation near crown 'J' focused, her sensations increased - in discovering power of illusion 'J' used that sensation to intensify it - to light up her head and be endowed with all knowledge through this region, she knew next time she used the sacred herb she will use it to allow that light to permeate the physical vessel.

While 'J' gets balanced and in her point of view she will describe everything from that perspective for sake of physical clarity.